Past Times

take Yourself

This morning Aji gathered at the dinner table. It seems that Johan's mother is busy preparing food and also papa Johan read the newspaper, Aji just kept quiet he waited for Johan to come because last night he heard Johan's complaints.

Johan who just came out of his room saw Aji sitting with their parents so lazy to join.

When Johan was about to go out through his family, his steps were prevented by his father.

"Johan." called his papa, Johan stopped his steps and turned his head lazily.

"Where are you going?"

" Go pa, Lazy Johan sat with a sneaky person like uncle." Johan went out without caring about his papa.

Aji cried regretfully useless. " Mas Aji is outrageous, it's not Johan's fault if he's like that." Mama Johan said.

" How can I make amends? "

" It looks like it's going to be difficult. I still remember how happy Johan was when we were invited to Laras' house, but we also remember how devastated Johan was when he saw Laras remarry."

" And I also can not imagine the heavy events experienced by Laras" he said to Aji.

" I want to make it up to you."

" In what way?"

" I want to atone for my sins to Desi."

" What way is it?" now Mama Johan began to join the talk of the brothers.

" Make Laras happy, maybe it can make Desi happy there." replied Aji.

" Would Johan marry Laras?" papa Johan's.

" Isn't that what Johan wanted?"

" Rossa would be hurt like that."

Debate that did not produce results at all, while Johan he was still frustrated and did not dare go home. Johan has no friends other than Rossa if he is off duty because all his friends must be busy with their own families.

Johan stops the car he was driving into a mosque, Johan calms his chaotic mind inside the mosque.

***

" So that's it. . ." Mr. Selamet as his brother Rossa began to respond to what was told by Johan's parents.

Yeah. . . Feeling confused by the problem of his son papa and mother Johan took the middle path of consulting with kyai Selamet as soon as Rossa's parents, hoping to provide the right solution to the problem that concerns the child kyai as well.

" This is indeed the fault of his uncle Johan pak kyai."

" I'm also sorry about that woman, if I were her parents I would be devastated too."

" so how? Johan wants to take responsibility for everything but Johan does not want to hurt Rossa."

" A child born to a woman is a boy or a girl?" ask Mr. Selamet.

" It is fortunate that he was a boy, so later he got married there was no need for a guardian for his marriage, because those born in marriage could not use bin on behalf of his father."

" The second, religiously, child is not entitled to inheritance or relics from his parents, and he cannot demand it."

" Is that what Mr Kyai is?"

Pak selamet manganggukan head justifies his application. While their wives just listen and listen to the conversation.

" If Johan wants to marry her it's a good thing, but even then it needs Rossa's approval as a legal and religious wife."

" What mr. Kyai allows." Ask papa Johan.

" It all depends on Rossa, whether she's willing, or even asking for a divorce from Johan. But if Rossa asks for a divorce I won't justify that desire."

" And so I have to how Mr. Kyai, I also feel guilty for the actions of my disgusting brother."

" I'm going to talk to Rossa, but don't force my son to accept the things that will make him cry."

***

Johan still tried to call Rossa but his call was never answered. Rossa is still in vase of solitude. Johan no longer called Rossa, he switched to looking for the name Sigit, he wanted to hear the sound of Laras, finally Johan pressed Sigit number, Sigit number,

" Hello" said someone across the street.

"Sigit."

"Who is this?"

" I'm Johan."

" Where did you get my number? And what's the need?"

" The barrel that gave it,. . . Can I talk to Laras or Chadi?"

" I'm working now, I'm not as unemployed as you." Ledek Sige.

" I'm not unemployed, it's just that I'm off now."

" Whatever. . . They're at home, if you want to talk to them better tonight you call again."

" I see, fine."

" Ashallammualaikum"

" Ra'alaikumsallam"

The phone connection was cut off now Johan feels lonely again, home but it is impossible, Rossa still needs time alone.

Go home papa, there is uncle Aji who makes him lazy to go home .

Johan chose to remain in the mosque to calm the mind.