Pakpol was my first love

Wanna go

Intan woke up at eight o'clock at night, I don't know how long he had been asleep bringing disappointment in the heart. The sound of knocking on the door kept him awake from his lens.

"Continent?" call Erland from the outside.

Very lazy to get out of bed, but the call of the man made his ears uncomfortable.

"Tan, open the door!" shouts back.

Lazily the woman got up and immediately opened the door. "What the hell, Bang?" ask her with a hoarse tone.

"Kok what? At what time, you are still sleeping. Take a shower!" he widened the room door.

"Lazy, I'm sleepy" he replied as he walked in.

"Eh, can't. Ih, what a slob, let's take a shower!" Erland took his hand.

"I don't want to, Bang, let go!" Intan tried to escape from the man's grip.

"Yes, if you don't want to take a shower at least clean up there, we eat it," said Erland still with orders.

"No way!" Intan threw Erland's hand firmly. It felt so upset, why did the man still give him attention. If this continues how he can erase the feelings that have been difficult for him.

"Tan, what's wrong with you?" erland asked, not understanding the attitude of the girl.

"Anything wants to know why? I'm asking you from now on don't ever give me any more attention! Because I don't like. Just take care of yourself brother!" the jolt of the girl made Erland speechless.

Intan closed the door again a little hard. I'm so upset, why doesn't that guy even want to understand. Does he not know how his pain is in conflict with his own mind.

Intan was stunned while leaning his back on the door leaf. His chest felt tight, the net was heating up, something wanted to fall from the eyelids. He hated this feeling.

"Intan, open the door! I'm sorry if you've been wrong so far. Brother promised after this brother will not make your heart hurt again," cried Erland from outside.

Intan shrunk her tears, what did the man mean to say such a thing? Is he going to leave? Questions filled his brain.

Intan opened the door of the room again. For a moment they met. "What does Brother mean?" tanya Intan did not understand.

"Let's take a shower, and then we eat out. There's something you want to talk to, "Erland said, which made Intan unable to refuse.

Intan went back into the room to clean up. It didn't take long for the girl to look neatly a little polish on her face.

"Udah?" asked Erland who was waiting.

"Hm." The girl simply replied with a mutter.

The couple left on foot. They chose to eat at an angkringan stall not far from their residence. It only took ten minutes to get to the food stall.

"What do you want to order, Dek?" ask the attentive Erland.

Erland, who had memorized the girl's favorite menu, immediately ordered with her drink. They eat in silence. Actually Intan was already impatient to hear what the man wanted to say.

"Eating must be on time, do not forget time in learning, remember health," advises Erland in between their meals.

"Alright," Intan replied briefly, though his heart grew curious about the man's words.

Not much of their conversation, Erland actually wants to talk a lot, but it seems that the girl is not so interested then he undoes his intentions.

After eating, Erland immediately paid, then brought Intan to walk back down the streets of the city that had begun to be deserted. No conversation, Erland doesn't know where to start.

"Sir, tomorrow morning you're going to xx city. Brother hope you can take good care of yourself, take care of your health, if you still think of me as your brother, then contact me if you need my help," said Erland who made Intan's chest feel stopped beating.

Why did it hurt so much when the man said he wanted to leave him? Didn't he himself want the separation, he should be happy, but why is it painful.

Intan slowed down his pace a little. There was something he wanted to convey, but his lips were too faint as if they felt mute.

"Tan, you know you might hate me so much, but you know, Dek, you love me so much. Really Brother can not give more feelings than a brother. Brother always pray for you to immediately get a man who is much better than Brother. May you be happy, Dek" said Erland with a sad face.

Intan tried to stay strong, but he was unable to hold back the tears that immediately fell apart. Slowly he shrunk it and looked at the man's face deeply.

"Pardon my attitude that these few months may have hurt you a lot. But, really I can't erase this feeling, I've tried it over and over again, Bang, if there's any other way then I would, I'm ashamed to always admit it in front of you. I hate this feeling, Bang. Hicks...." Suddenly the woman's cry broke.

Erland rubbed her face gently. There was a feeling of pity enveloping his heart, he really felt guilty because his attitude had made the girl put her heart so deeply that she was unable to get out of the shackles of love.

"Shhhhh... Relax, don't cry anymore. Brother's really sorry, Dek, now tell me what you have to do for me? Should you pretend to love you? Are you sure you'll be happy living with someone who doesn't love you?" asked Erland while giving the girl some calm.

Intan further strengthened his embrace, he wanted to let go of all the longing for tonight. He knew this was their last hug.

"No, Bang, you don't have to do that. I will not ruin your happiness. Looks like this farewell is the best path for us. With no more meetings, it will make it easier for me to remove all the flavors. No need to worry, I will always take good care of myself. Brother is also fine there, yes" said Intan trying to reconcile.

Erland broke her embrace, she looked at the face of the girl she loved no more as her own sister. He did not expect his affection and attention so far would be misunderstood by him. But he also can't blame the feelings that come with themselves.

Erland always prayed that one day the girl would be happy to find a man who truly loves her. His hand rubbed the crown of the girl gently.

"Once again forgive brother yes," he said sadly.

"There's no need to apologize, you're not wrong. Never mind, now let's go home. Tomorrow morning you have to go, right?" intan is trying to be okay.

The man smiled as he gently rubbed the woman's crown.

"Let's go home."

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