Painful Love (Painful Love)

I'm Still Love You

"Can I go inside? I want to speak with you in one eye" said Bimantara.

"There's nothing to talk about anymore, Bim. Everything is clear" Emma replied. The woman's hand grabbed the door handle, preparing to close the wide-open door.

Seeing the movement, Bimantara rushed to spread one leg forward, blocking the door leaf was not closed. "Emma, please, give me time to talk to you even if it's only ten minutes." The man glazed over with eyes filled with hope.

Fortress defense built for five years almost collapsed if not immediately away from the view of Bimantara. The eyes full of longing glare emanated clearly in the pair of brown irises that were so soul-shattering. Emma was afraid that she would feel the pain she had felt a few years ago.

"I'm sorry, Bima. But, you better get out of here now. I don't want Tsamara to catch us and think shit." Emma was finally firm in her stance, not wanting to let Bimantara enter again into the empty space that had not been filled by anyone.

However, Bimantara is not his name if he does not have a thousand minds to remain in Emma's room. He insisted he would not leave the room because of the many things he wanted to tell his ex-girlfriend. One of them is ...the reason why he can marry Tsamara and why they are on the Maldives Island which is said to be a romantic place for a couple to honeymoon.

"Aaw!" Emma screamed as Bimantara burst into the room and pushed her body against the wall. "You're nothing, Bima! It hurts!"

"Whatever you say, Emma, but I'll keep explaining everything to you!" Bimantara. Both of the man's hands clutched tightly onto Emma's shoulders, causing her to grimace in pain.

"Let go of me, Bima! Please, get out of here! I don't want to see you again!" lirih Emma said.

Another in the mouth, another in the heart. That's the exact proverb describing Emma's feelings right now. Mouth could have said no, but deep down in the deepest heart he really wanted to be on the side of Bimantara just as they used to be when they were lovers. Five years of not meeting makes him miss the man half dead until every night always dreamed of reuniting with the ex-lover.

Bimantara stared at the chocolate bead that he had longed for. The firm gaze of the man was shrouded in deep longing.

"Tell me, Emma, do you really want me out of here? You don't want to hear my explanation why I could marry Tsamara, do you? Have you not missed me all this time? Answer Emma! Answer all my questions!" bimantara exclaimed in a loud voice while tightening the grip of the hand on Emma's shoulder.

It hurts! It hurt a lot when Emma heard Bimantara's question. How could he not miss Bimantara while the shadow of the man's face continued to be present interfered with her every night. He always craved the caress of affection, the kiss of love that Bimantara always gave when they were alone was still felt by him until now. He was tortured for having to hide all that.

However, when he found out that Bimantara was no longer alone did Emma still deserve to say that she missed someone who had belonged to someone else? Truly, fate was so unfair that he had to accept this harsh reality.

Emma could not stand the view with Bimantara for too long. Then, he threw his gaze in the other direction. "Go, Bima. Our story is over when both your parents rejected me outright" he said.

Like being stabbed by thousands of arrows, slashing and stuck right in the heart. That's how Emma feels right now. The woman's lips trembled holding the sobbing sound so as not to be heard by Bimantara's sense of hearing. Glassy eyes yet trying to stay firm in the presence of an ex-lover.

Bimantara was sculpting, he heard Emma's words clearly. Go, that's the word the man remembered. Emma wants her out of that woman's life for good. Could it be that Emma didn't miss him at all? Or maybe Emma's love for her doesn't exist anymore?

Unknowingly, Bimantara loosened the clench of the hand until the burly hand dangled below. Step back a few steps without taking his eyes off the female figure before him.

"So, you really want me out of here, Emma?" ask Bimantara with a loud voice. The gaze of his eyes was sharp like an eagle preparing to pounce on its prey. "If that's what you want then I'll grant it. This is the last time we'll meet. After that I'll make sure we don't see each other again."

After saying the last sentence, Bimantara left the room. With a soggy step accompanied by mixed feelings make a chaotic mood.

Emma pecked in place. The woman's tongue was muddled when she learned the truth that Bimantara had just said. A truth that says that only he is the owner of the heart Bimantara. The man's love for him never faded even though there was now Tsamara among them.

Is what Bimantara said true if all this time there was only me in his heart? But, what if you just pretended that I was devastated and wanted to take you back?

Emma monologued as she looked at the back of Bimantara who almost disappeared behind the door. However, when the door was almost closed somehow got a boost from where suddenly he ran over to his former lover.

"Bima, wait!" emma's exclaim made Bimantara stop stepping. "I still love you, Bimantara Danendra. From then until now, my heart belongs to you alone. Long ago, now and forever you're all I love."

Hearing that, Bimantara immediately turned around and walked up to Emma. The woman's words gave a glimmer of light in the time of the uproar. A sweet smile rose at the corner of her sexy lips.

"So you still love me, Emma? Is that right, honey?" ask Bimantara to confirm the truth of the words of the ex-lover.

Emma nodded quickly. "really. I'm still love you, Bim. Long ago, now and forever only you in my heart."

Without thinking, Bimantara hugged Emma's body while showering the top of the woman's head with a kiss. A kiss that hinted at how long she had longed for this woman's figure.

"Thank you, baby, because you're still keeping the sanctity of your love just for me one." Bimantara is getting a hug. After a long time, he finally felt how warm Emma was. The woman's body was still the same before they parted.

Emma simply nodded and returned Bimantara's embrace. Spilling the longing that has been harbored all this time. However, a giant hammer struck the woman's consciousness.

Looking up at the head, looking at the handsome face. "Then, what about Tsamara, Bim? What are you gonna do to him?"

Bimantara unraveled the embrace, returning the woman's gaze. "I-i"

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