OWNER OF HEART

The Eps 75

Tama took Carissa to sit on the bed, while he rested before his wife. “I will explain everything, I will say everything so that there will be no more lies in our marriage.”

Tama finally explained to anyone he had sex with, then the reasons he revealed, which became the background of all his actions. Then he turned to Amelia. Tama had stopped for a while and wanted to ascertain how the expression that Carissa gave, unexpectedly, Carissa was so calm. It made Tama more worried because his beloved wife seemed to no longer care about everything he talked about.

With the fear of getting into her heart, she finally continues her story of her first encounter with Amelia, as well as the ignorance of the video footage. Tama explains that she did Amelia's wish because she was threatened if the mad woman would meet Carissa.

“Never once, have I never kissed, nor slept in the same bed as the women, for I did so without feeling. Just you, honey. You are the owner of my heart. Only thou. I admit I made a very big mistake, I committed a big sin, but it was all I did for fear of losing you.”

“And you will eventually lose me, Mas.”

“No, no, no, Risa. I beg you, I will beg you many times, I will apologize many times to you for forgiving me. Tell me, what should I do. Everything I'll do for you, except the order to release you.”

Actually Carissa felt a deep pain, she knew very well if all that was the past for Tama, but she could not ignore about her relationship with Amelia, and also the lies that Tama expressed with full confidence in the past.

Carissa realized that she loved her husband very much, especially the two of them needed a struggle in order to unite as they are today, but Carissa chose to close her heart in the meantime, because he doesn't want to be hurt more than this. Even though Tama had said everything, Carissa still felt afraid if there were lies left behind.

The girl fell silent as she looked at her husband who looked restless before her, she knew that Tama really loved her, but that love could not be a justification for all her deeds, especially her relationship with Amelia which she did right before her wedding few days. However, he also realized that if it was impossible to easily let go of his marriage, this marriage was tied up with two families who had big names, even their party in elu-elukan as the biggest party at this time. Carissa couldn't possibly humiliate the two families just because of her heartache.

“Risa? What are you thinking? Please, don't shut up like this, you better be mad at me, don't be like this. It's more scary.”

“Which I want? Please forgive me, give me one more chance. And stay with me, Risa. Please, please don't dump me, I won't be able to live without you.”

“You want me to forgive and understand about all that?”

“I want to forgive you, but don't try to understand what I did wrong. You better be angry, you better fight than be silent like this.”

“How do I fight you, if my phone is only on you.”

The deg!! Tama's heart feels stopped for a split second, “Ma-forgive me, Risa. I'm just afraid you'll escape by getting outside help. I just want to settle this matter with you, and keep you by my side.”

“Alright, I agree.” Answer Carissa stick with her flat face.

“You agree? You forgive me, honey? You're not going away from me, are you?”

“I don't know with an apology, because honestly my heart still hurts from your betrayal. But I agreed to stay with you, and I did this solely for the sake of the two families who love me. Not because of you. One year! Only that long I'll keep trying to be your wife.”