OWNER OF HEART

The Eps 41

I bite my lip, not knowing what to do tomorrow morning.

The clock of the wall seemed to crawl so fast. The sound of my voice at dawn was heard from sayub-sayub from the mosque in front of the entrance hall. I immediately rushed to the shower to purify myself of the small hadast.

After the prayer, I did not move from the top of the prayer. I still want to linger complaining to the owner of the heart. Several times, I have asked in prayer, for whom was I created? Who is my real rib? Why does God make me joke in such a way?

*****

Mentari has been nenyingsing. Without shame and doubt, the creation of God wriggling majestically from the eastern horizon. The radiance touches the skin so gently, but it feels a little stinging.

My eyes, unceasingly looked towards the clock perched on the kitchen wall. Today, I have to finish homework early. Not without reason. Because, I decided to meet the traveler after my homework was completed.

"Mheta... Today you accompany me to the Mekar market, "mother's voice is heard from the dining room. Mother put the rice in a rice cooker.

My eyes glared slightly, staring at the cauldron containing the eggplant stirring before me.

"What time, Mom?" I asked while stirring eggplant stir fry.

"Yes. after the homework is done. Tomorrow, your Uncle and Aunt from Jogja are here. The day after we go to Jakartanya together." Tukas mother.

"Bareng the same Rashid family also tha?" ask me, then I catch my breath.

"Yes sure..."

God.how can I meet a traveler.

"Mom.." I went back to breathing, looking for an excuse not to go to the Mekar market. "What if I go after Mekar in Lek Dibyo's anther? Mheta has business."

"Opo tha Mhet's solution?"

"Urusan with Mheta's friend from UGM, Ma'am. Incidentally, he bought books by Mheta. So, inevitably Mheta must love him directly. Just give me the wedding invitation." I always quietly.

Actually I'm not lying. Because, today my schoolmate, who happened to be studying at UGM s2, ordered some books to me. We had promised to meet at about eleven this afternoon. But, it's okay if I have to change my meeting schedule with my old friend to nine this morning. Certainly after meeting the traveler.

*****

"M.. I'm waiting for you next to the tosca-colored house," the traveler's message came in with a picture of the house. It was Mr. RT's house, it happened to be not far from my house.

I bit the tip of the thumb nail. Now that my mind is starting to guerrilla, what if later a neighbor finds out, I'm meeting a foreign youth?

"Not there, we meet in front of Al-Mubarrok mosque only. You just walk towards the Muntilan market. From the end of the road, there is a mosque next to the highway, the name of the mosque is Al-Mubarrok. We'll meet there." I sent those words to the traveler.

Travelers only read messages from me. Then, it looks like he is offline.

*****

Arriving in front of Al-Mubarrok mosque, I immediately opened my helmet. I can't find a wanderer. Was the young man in the wrong place? Or... Has he passed away? Because I'm a little late to this place.

Initially, I intended to meet the Traveler first, before meeting my friend. However, it turned out that my friend called when I was heading towards the mosque. He asked me to meet him twenty minutes ago, on KH.Gebang street.

"How are you?" a voice sounded from behind my back.

Since when, do travelers stand behind me? The feeling from earlier I was here looking all over no this young man was standing?

"Hey, your dreamy hobby hasn't gone away, M?" sergeant Wander, his words made me silence my mouth with all five fingers.

"Come with me?" now the wanderer pulls my arm.

"Where is it... It's hot, M?" he said, pointing towards the mosque courtyard.

"Ah..no! Here, we'll see you soon, too, right?" I said getting off the bike.

"What do you really want to ask? And.." I catch my breath, confused as to what to ask the traveler.

The traveler concluded a smile, his hands folded in front of his chest. "You want to marry Rashid, don't you?"

I was stuck. Inexhaustible, where did the travelers know about Rashid.

"Kok...your ka... ta-hu?" i said lirih. My chest trembled violently, when the Traveler mentioned the name Rashid.

The traveler did not answer my question. He walked away from me, and I immediately ran towards him.

"Where are you? You haven't answered my question.Where do you know if the young man I'm going to marry is Rashid?" I'm trying to stop the rover's move. The question was immediately tangled up in my brain.

Travelers stopped the lanngkah. "That's not all important. All you have to know is that I can't take away all the memories with you." The wanderer took a deep breath, "you know, M? I love you, even... I love you very much. So far, I've been willing to sacrifice everything. Leave everything for you."

This time I really felt pain in the deepest recesses of my heart. Be happy? Of course I was happy, when Pengelana expressed her heart directly in front of me. Be sad? Even I am very sad, because soon I will marry someone else.

"M... I know, if all this time actually you put your heart to me. But I don't want to break your heart. Moreover, you know, if I was close to Rosa." suddenly the voice of the raucous traveler.

I shake my head strongly. Affirming, if in fact I am not in love with the young man.

"You misunderstood? I never loved you. I just thought you were a friend. My best friend, nothing more." There's pain in my chest. Again, I had to lie to myself. If I really loved a traveler.

"really?" sergeant Roam. This time, he held my hand.

I tried to take off his grip. All my life, I've never even been this close to the opposite sex, let alone this someone who loves me, not even me, who loves him.

"Father.if that's all you want to say, you're wasting your time. I still have a lot of business." I said, my voice began to tremble. Some heat up on both sides of the eye.

"You want to know? Why did I know, if you are going to marry Rashid in the near future?" The Traveling Statement stuck me.

"What do you mean! You guys know each other?" this time, I was really haunted by curiosity. It seemed impossible that he did not know Rashid.

The traveler smiled wryly. "dr.yu, I just want to make sure that you're not falling for me, as I'm going through with you."

"Hey, how many times have I told you. I don't love you! What a clear abyss my words are, hmm..."

"Since when does a writer not know, what is experienced by himself? Since when are the eyes not being honest with each other?"

I closed my mouth with both hands. My gaze faded, something flowing warmly on both of my cheeks. Then, I unconsciously felt a touch washing away the tears. "Don't cry. I love you Ayu."

I tiptoed, the voice of the wanderer in my ear scattered all daydreams.

"Who are you really? Why are you making me crazy... Why?" my voice is really raucous. My lips are shaking.

The traveler did not answer my question. After washing both of my cheeks, he rushed across the highway. For the last time, I turned towards the traveler. Make sure he'll come back and answer all my questions.

However, it will all be in vain. The traveler really has gone. Driving the car that was taken. Tracing the streets around the direction of Magelang-Klaten city. And finally, the red car had vanished from my sight.

I still guess all about the Wander, where did he get to know Rashid? Who exactly is this young man?

With heavy steps. I started riding the motorbike towards the house. The divorce of tears I can't hold anymore. All nestapa, asa, regret, become a unity that rushes in the deepest part of the heart.