Our Faults

Part 15 - I Want to Separate Only

One month is Kinaya's age now.

Until now the baby is still being cared for by Kiana as her biological mother. Kiana took care of Kinaya because of Nira's man. If not told, Kiana is not willing to take care of him, even though Kinaya is her own biological child. Evil indeed Kiana at this time, somehow it will be. Will he regret his actions later.

Kiana had just finished her bathing activities at 7 am, because she had to breastfeed Kinaya first in order to sleep. Only then did Kiana instantly fix her messy room full of baby gear.

Already working, Kiana then went to the dining room because she had not yet had breakfast. While Kinaya, he left it in the room with Arya. While her teaching schedule is still a long time later, so Arya can use the free time she has now to be with her daughter Kinaya.

Arya silently watched Kinaya who was soundly asleep. He smiled as he watched the tiny creature.

It's so small of you, baby. Gemesss.

As Arya looked at her daughter, Kinaya suddenly woke up and yawned. Aryan reflex instantly covered Kinaya's mouth with her index finger.

“Waahh, nguapnya very big yes aware Dad.”

Kinaya was crying suddenly. Arya takes Kinaya from her bed and holds him carefully and lovingly as a father.

“You why cry? What is wetting?” Arya checked the pants Kinaya was wearing. Apparently true, Kinaya woke up from bedwetting.

“Dad's son turns wet. Change first yes pants dear.” Arya laid Kinaya on the bed and then changed her pants with new pants also clean.

“The book is also change first yes Nak, wetness nih.”

Finished changing everything, Arya held Kinaya back and sat herself on the sofa while leaning her back and her legs were spread on the sofa.

“Naya same Dad used to be right now, the mother again eat the problem. Poor him hasn't eaten.” Arya invites Kinaya to communicate with her, and miraculously Kinaya is silent with just that word.

Arya clasped Kinaya's hand, “bidadari little Dad should be a good-natured son yes, smart, also diligent. Dear father Kinaya always, Mother also loves you really, even though Mother is still so now. But I know, if Mommy also loves Kinaya.”

“If Kinaya is already big later, Kinaya should be able to take care of Mommy and Dad. Kinaya must obey Mother, because Mother who has taken care of Kinaya from the time Kinaya was still in her stomach until now Kinaya was born into this world.”

“Dad and Mother dear Kinaya, Father also dear Mother.”

The meal was over, Kiana went back to her room to check how Kinaya was doing.

Arriving at the room, Kiana saw Kinaya being carried by Arya. Kiana also overhears the last words of Arya.

Father and Mother dear Kinaya, Father also dear Mother.

Why did Arya say that? Did he speak strangely to Kinaya? Thought Kiana and immediately approached her husband.

“Kinaya is awake? Why didn't you tell me the same?” Kiana asks Arya to hand over Kinaya to her, which Arya immediately follows.

After that, Kiana breastfed Kinaya in front of Arya while sitting next to her. She was no longer ashamed if she had to breastfeed Kinaya in front of the man, after all her husband already knew what this body was like.

“The guest is still eating, Brother can't bother you.”

“Eh Ki, you want to continue college?” Arya asks another question while playing Kinaya's hand.

Kiana who was staring at Kinaya turned to Arya, “why is that?”

“Just aja. You want to go to college? Not that you said you wanted to go to college.”

“Iya, I'm going to college. But not now, wait for the big Kinaya first. I don't want my college to be upset about this baby.”

“Ok. In that case, it will all cost Brother who takes care of.”

Yes, I have to, that's my husband.

“Kak,” Kiana reprimanded Arya who kept smiling staring at Kinaya.

Arya looked at Kiana, “hmm? Why?”

“I don't want to consider this child to be my child.”

The smile on Arya's face disappeared instantly because of that remark, as well as her eyes turned sharp, she held back her anger.

“Why are you talking like that again Ki? I guess you've changed and started accepting Kinaya.”

“Whose word am I receiving him? I am good as I am now to this baby not because I have accepted him, but because of Mamah! Mamah who wants and tells me to make good with him!” Kiana said in an annoyed but not loud tone, for fear of waking Kinaya up.

“Ok. If you don't want to accept Kinaya, let Kinaya stay with me. After that you can do the free things you want, I also do not care about you. Now my priority is only Kinaya, not you.”

Kiana shook her head in disapproval, “gak! I won't let you take Kinaya. I'm her real mother. But for Kinaya's life, I won't make Kinaya think of me as her mother. I want to tell you about this with Mamah. I don't want to be ridiculed by others because I already have children at this young age of me.”

Kiana's words are enough to make Arya in disbelief, “egois you Kiana just think about herself. How about Kinaya? You should also think about his fate. He needs to know who his real mother is. If you don't want to be her mother, I'll find another woman who wants to be Kinaya's mother. After all our marriage will soon be over, only until Kinaya is two years old.”

Kinaya fell asleep by itself after drinking ASI. The little baby Kiana was put to sleep in her bed, so as not to listen to the debates that were going on between her parents at this time.

“But we are still married! Or is there an intention to want polygamy yes or maybe Brother wants to divorce me now?” Kiana asked directly after storing Kinaya in her bed.

“Sister didn't tell you how to divorce you now, or maybe you yourself want to divorce from Brother now?”

“I don't want a real divorce, sister! If Big Brother dares divorce me, I will take Kinaya away from Big Brother or myself who committed suicide.”

“If you don't want us to split up, you should learn to accept Kinaya. He is our son, your son too. He was also born from a legitimate relationship. So why do you hate Kinaya just because of your scholarship?”

“Already, we chat together like this not to discuss the Kiana scholarship, but to discuss our future which should be how it will be. So now how do you want Ki? You don't want us to separate, but you don't want to accept Kinaya either. Then what is a good solution to this problem in your opinion?”

Kiana was silent for a few seconds before speaking. He was gathering his courage to say the solution.

“I have a solution. How if we continue to get married, while Kinaya let my parents take care of me. Kinaya doesn't need to know I'm his mother, just know as his sister just keep my parents he considers as his parents. Brother knows that I haven't been able to catch Kinaya, and still won't take care of her. I have not been able to do anything and want to go to college first, I still want to be free to play.”

“Gak! I don't agree! If that's your solution, it means you're selfish Kiana.” Ketus Arya then took Kinaya who was asleep in her bed and carried her.

“From now on, you don't have to pay attention and take care of Kinaya, just me enough to pay attention to him.” Arya said, “aku and Kinaya also do not need selfish women like you! If you want that, we just split up! I prefer Kinaya over you and I don't want to be away from Kinaya. It's enough Kinaya was hurt when she wasn't born, and now I don't want her to get hurt again.” Already expressing her feelings, Arya then walks away leaving Kiana panicked in the room for fear of being left behind.

Kiana prevents Arya from leaving while carrying Kinaya. He blocked Arya's hand, “Where are you going? Brother don't take Kinaya. Kinaya wouldn't exist, if I wasn't.” either Kiana tries to take Kinaya from Arya's arms, but can't.

“Create what Kinaya here same evil mother as you!”

Kinaya suddenly cried when he heard their commotion, until Nira immediately approached them because she heard Kinaya's cry.

“You why the storm? Kinaya nangis instead of being tranquilized, even busy with his own business. What kind of parents are you? Selfish.” Sindir Nira and take Kinaya from Aryan's arms forcibly and put her back to sleep.

Kinaya had fallen asleep, Nira came back to Arya and Kiana who sat in silence with her thoughts and emotions. Nira sat down with them.

“Now story, you guys fuss over what problem?” Nira Seru.

Arya and Kiana remained silent unanswered.

“Why now at silent? Last time on a mutual debate, nyampe-nyampe Kinaya nangis.”

“Kiana won't take care of Kinaya. He did not want to think of Kinaya as his son. So Arya wants to take Kinaya away from Kiana, but Kiana herself refuses.” Aryan's great-grandson.

“I confessed that too because there was a reason! I don't want to accept him as my son because of you and him it's just an unlucky bearer to me! I almost died because of her fear! Then because of you, he exists and the scholarship I've been fighting for I can't take, it's all gone! Dupus!” Kiana stood up and pointed at Arya full of anger.

Hot Nira ears. He was already tired of hearing the savage word from Kiana's mouth, he finally slapped Kiana's cheek maybe for the second time. It was also because of unintentionally. Nira was carried away by emotions until she dared to do the rude act.

Plakkc...

Arya silently looked at Kiana who was slapped, while Kiana immediately bowed and quietly held her sore cheek.

Kiana wanted to cry, but didn't know who to cry to and she finally felt all this sadness.

“It's enough Ki you talk like that about Mamah's grandson. Ok, if you don't want to take care of Kinaya let Mamah aja take care of him, and Kinaya just think of Mamah and Papah as her parents. He doesn't need to know that you're his real parents. Kinaya just think of you as her brother. After that, you can go roaming around wherever it is up to you, Mom is already bored and does not care about you Kiana!”

“And for Arya, sorry if Mamah confessed to this. Mamah did not admit this because she was on Kiana's side. But Mamah felt sorry for Kinaya, Kinaya was Mamah's only granddaughter, Mamah did not want him to do anything. If you want to get out of this house please, Mamah can not do anything to prevent you. If you want Kiana's story is also up to you, Mamah really doesn't care about her. Continue to about your parents, later let Mamah herself talk to them.”

“But Mah, sorry. Arya disagreed with Mamah's decision. Kinaya is Aryan's son, so Arya has the right to decide Kinaya's custody. Arya knows, Mamah loves Kinaya and does not want to be far from him, but sorry Arya can not membebiarin Kinaya stay here.” Reject Arya.

“Arya asks permission from Mamah to bring Kinaya to stay with Arya. Because for what Kinaya is here if his own mother does not want his presence, pity Kinaya. Arya doesn't want Kinaya to get sad because her own mother hates her.”

“But Arya, Mamah also did not want to separate from Kinaya. Mom loves him.” Nira's great-grandson.

“Mamah just calm down, Mamah can visit Kinaya whenever Mamah wants. Arya will also not close the identity of Mamah Papah as Grandpa Grandpa, Fabian as well. Except Kiana. Because Kiana herself does not want Kinaya to know the status of the relationship, then Arya will close it.”

“And as for our marriage matter, Arya seems to be divorcing Kiana according to the agreement.”

“Agreement? What does it mean?” Nira scrunched her forehead. He doesn't know about that.

“Arya will divorce Kiana later when Kinaya is two years old. Because it's useless Arya keep everything, if Kiana herself is also unhappy with this marriage. He still needs freedom like his other friends.”

Kiana silently lowered her head as Arya explained. He felt guilty for Nira because of everything that was happening right now.

Nira looked back at Kiana seriously, “what Arya said was right Ki? You still need freedom?”

Kiana silently did not answer. He was too afraid to open his voice and chose to remain silent while playing his finger.

“If you still need freedom, then why did you choose to get married at a young age? Why don't you think twice about Kiana?!” Nira could not stand Kiana anymore, “nikah is not an easy matter. Not only you and he can be one continue to be nana nini as he pleases. There's more serious stuff than that.”

If Nira can get angry, then Kiana can too. He had already tried to hold back his anger for Nira. But since Nira herself also scolded him, then Kiana would do just that.

Kiana stood up from her seat and her gaze filled with hatred as well as sadness, “Mamah why salahin I continue? Is it just me here who's wrong? This all happened because he was Mah!” Kiana pointed her hand at Arya, “if only she could hold back her lust, maybe things wouldn't be like this. Mamah should blame him too!”

Nira took a deep breath and massaged her already dizzy head due to this problem. Already this, he had to go to the doctor immediately to check his blood pressure, fearing that his blood pressure would rise quickly just because of Kiana's problem.

“So now what do you want Kiana besides Mamah salahin Arya? Want to split up and accept Kinaya? Or release both? All decisions are in you Ki, Mama will not force you to choose. But if you are still confused to choose, Mamah will love your time to think.”

Kiana thought for a moment. He was still possessed with mounting emotions. Because her emotions have not subsided, it looks like Kiana will not think long and just obey her emotions. Plus, Kiana was still unstable, not yet fully mature.

“I prefer to split up! He himself did not want to have a bad wife like me. She must have married me, an evil mother with her child. Rather than me, she loved her son more. From now on, he's been looking for a new mother for Kinaya. Mother who is more considerate and better than me.”

“You are serious Kiana with your decision? Won't think about it again? Mama thought, you want to maintain your marriage that.” Nira's voice was so slow. The hope of the union of Arya Kiana is now extinct.

“I'm serious Mah! Like I said, I'm not happy with this marriage. I'd rather separate from him, than stay together. Make me sick!” Kiana was firm with her stance. He convinced Nira.

“Hah.” Nira wastes her breath tired, “ya already, how are you. Mamah dizzy take care of you. But actually Mamah does not want you to separate from Arya. Hope you are not satisfied with your decision Kiana.”

“But Mah, I don't want to split for now. I'd like to split later, according to the agreement he said.” Please Kiana.

“Iya. It is up to you to separate when. This is your life, not your life. So Mamah has no right to set up about it.” Nira said so indifferently. He was already unwilling to think any more about Kiana's life matter regarding that.