Our Faults

Part 13 - Kinaya

In the end, the day they had been waiting for a long time had arrived as well. Baby's birth.

Kiana had just finished her duties as a woman. She successfully gave birth to her first child after she struggled for several hours in the company of her husband Arya.

The little baby was born safe and healthy into this mysterious world. His birth was very much accepted and awaited by many people.

She was born with a female gender, weighing 3500 grams, length 48 cm and her beautiful face that so resembles her father's Arya –. Because it looks like Arya, many say that she is the female version of Arya.

Arya could not express her feelings in words when she saw her son was born. His wait for the baby was now reciprocated with a happy feeling.

The grown man was amazed by the tiny body of his baby.

For the first time Arya holds a baby, and the baby she is carrying is her own first child.

Arya's lips are attracted to smile while holding her baby. He also occasionally kissed his forehead or cheeks so anxious at the tiny man.

At first the baby cried while in Arya's arms, but then the crying stopped immediately when Arya kissed him. Ah so moving the moment, making anyone can be moved when they see it.

Kiana had just woken up from her sleep. He watches the surroundings. More precisely, he was looking for where the existence of the child he was born with? Because when he woke up, it was not the baby he first saw, but Arya, the baby's father.

“You're awake? Brother call doctor yes, make check your condition.” Arya said and put on her worried face.

Kiana answered Arya's offer with a trinket, where's the baby?“ Ask in a loud voice.

“She's in the baby's room. Wh why? You want to see him?” Arya smiled at Kiana.

Kiana shook her head again expressionlessly, “enggak.”

“Why? She needs you, Kiana. You're his mother.”

Kiana looked at Arya flat and said ketus, “ya continue if I am her mother is why?”

“If you realize that you are his mother, you should give your love to him. He was just born. Need affection also full attention from his mother.”

“Hah? Compassion?” Kiana laughs cynically, “do you think I love the same care love I made him the human destroyer of my life? No yeah. I don't want to be his mother, you know about that. Why should I try to give him attention? Why not another girl? There are many girls out there who like to be a mother for that man.” Kiana said easily.

Arya was about to let out her emotions that were already at the top. If only he did not remember the struggle of Kiana who had given birth to her child, Kiana had finished being scolded by Arya for her words.

Before saying, Arya took a breath to ease her emotions, “you want to know what the answer is? Because

you are Kiana's mother! You're her real mother!” Arya's voice is so loud, “do what he asks for affection to other women, while she also has her own mother and her birth mother is still living healthily here.”

Arya changed her position that was originally standing to sit in a chair near Kiana's bed, “I know you don't like her presence because of me. But please, can you take a moment off that dislike of you? Not until he was two years old, according to our agreement.”

“Why did you blame me? It should be me here that's your fault! It all happened because of you! I think it's also because of you Nararya!” Challenge Kiana with her sharp gaze, “and because of that damn baby too, I almost died! I'm critical! You want me dead huh?! Do you want me to die?” Kiana

jerking Arya. Fortunately, the ward is soundproof, so Kiana's jolt can't be heard until it comes out.

“His father is not his son, it turns out the same! You are both unlucky bearers to me!” Kiana again gave her a jolt.

Arya clenched her hands. This time he could not contain his anger. He wanted to vent his anger, but not at Kiana. Therefore, Arya chose to go out to seek the outlet of her anger.

Brakes....

Arya goes out leaving Kiana alone and slams the door of the room by accident, due to her emotions that have not subsided.

Arya's departure without Kiana's permission makes her become silent and feel guilty.

He also chose to put his body back on the bed and daydream about the debate that had just happened, including with the man who had just left.

Why am I being so bad? I am a woman, I am a mother now. A mother should be gentle. But. but I can't behave like him. Because of him, I almost died! My dreams must also be destroyed.

Kiana was so focused on her daydream. Until the daydream had to stop because the door of his room was open

alone and showing a nurse carrying a baby. It must be the baby, hunch Kiana said.

The baby that the nurse was carrying was near Kiana's bed and she woke up from her sleeping position.

Is this the baby? The baby that once lived in my stomach and made me almost die? She was so tiny, but why could it cause me to almost die and obliterate my ideals?

Kiana's words were indeed so evil. If Arya had heard these words, Arya would have called Kiana an evil mother to her biological child. Because even stepmothers will not all say evil like Kiana to her own stepson.

“Mbak, want to carry the baby?” The nurse rebuked Kiana who was looking at her baby seriously.

“Hah?” Kiana was confused and smiled in a smile, “it... No ah, I'm still scared, Sister. My baby is small because, I am afraid that he clamped fitting me carry.” Reject the real Kiana that was just the reason.

“That's Ma'am already can carry her baby.” Praise Nina, “hands do not need to be stiff Ma'am, just relax the same using feelings as well. If the mbaknya comfortable with the position fit the baby's cradle, surely the baby will feel comfortable too.” Nina Said.

“Oh yes Mbak want to all learn not how to love ASI to the baby how?” Nina offered her help back.

Without a second thought, Kiana agreed with the offer and Nina taught Kiana.

A few minutes later, Nina left before Kiana. Until only Kiana left her baby in this room.

Just the two of them were with the baby and were busy giving breast milk to the baby. Kiana felt strange while doing such activities. He was not used to his new activities.

Kiana stared at the baby nonstop. Although it feels strange with her activities, but honestly in her heart Kiana feels moved when her baby suckles on her. So much so that he did not realize that his tears were dripping by themselves.

“Sorry to me, baby. I'm not a good mother to you. I am evil. You shouldn't have been born from my womb. I shouldn't be your mother.” Kiana muttered softly while sobbing softly.

“I want to give you the name Kinaya can not baby? You know baby, it's a combined name between Kiana and Arya. Mother same Father.”

Kiana brought her index finger closer to her baby's Kinaya –, which immediately responded, making Kiana smile and kiss her forehead reflexively.

Finished giving ASI to Kinaya, Kiana still faithfully carried him.

Simultaneously, the door opened itself and Arya's figure appeared from behind the door. Arya came back too.

With her position still standing, Arya was made to distrust the activities that Kiana is doing now. Carrying baby.

Kiana looked back at Arya, but confused. Confused, why was Arya standing still staring at him with such a gaze?

“Where are you out of?” Kiana reprimanded Arya who was silent and regained consciousness.

“Finding impingement.” Arya answered him briefly.

Find impingement? It must have been because of the commotion earlier. Kiana thought to herself, but her eyes were staring at Kinaya instead.

Arya approached Kiana and sat on the same bed as her wife.

“You... can carry him?” Arya's question sounded like a quip in Kiana's ear.

“Can. Why why?” He replied while nodding, “not his own brother who said that I was his mother and should give him my affection.”

Arya ignored Kiana's question and diverted it by looking at Kinaya. Arya did not display her smile as she looked at Kinaya. Arya looks very happy when she sees Kinaya. It could be seen the radiance of Arya's eyes now.

You are very happy with the presence of Kinaya.

“Hmm... Sister..want to carry... Kinaya?” Kiana said quietly and looked at him.

Arya's confused. Kinaya? Who's Kinaya? He did not know who Kinaya was.

“Whose time?” Arya's brows furrowed in ignorance.

“This baby's name.” Kiana answered him directly and glanced at Kinaya, then glanced at Arya back as there was no answer from the man's mouth anymore.

“Kak why silence? Do you not like that name? Or have another name for this baby?”

Arya shook her head, “not. Brother just has not thought about the name for him.” Arya rubbed Kinaya's head gently.

“Sorry, Kiana gave this baby name without asking permission first with Sister.” Kiana Sesal.

“Gapapa, you are also his mother. So you deserve to give her the name.”

“Kiana is aware, Kiana is a bad mother. Kiana had not fully accepted Kinaya. Hence Kiana love this baby name also as an apology Kiana redemption on her.” Slowly said.

Arya looked at Kiana's astonishment. Before she left, Kiana was angry and would not admit to Kinaya. But now, the woman realized her mistake was also apologizing? Why in a matter of minutes, did the attitude of the woman change so quickly? Does this have anything to do with Arya's departure? Does Arya have to be like that next time she fights again like before with Kiana?

“Eh yes, I want to carry Kinaya no? Here if you want.” Kiana immediately gave Kinaya to Arya's hand.

“Kak gendongnya carefully yes, slowly aja, his hands do not need to be stiff as well. Should relax anyway.” Kiana took out all her wobbles she had gotten from Nina when she gave Kinaya to Arya.

“Without you telling me too, Brother already knows about it.” Arya answered him quickly, making Kiana instantly silent no longer talk.

“Iya-iya Kiana also knows kok.” Reply do not want to lose, “Kak gendong Kinanya carefully yes, he is still small, beware not to clamp his body, pity him.” Kiana is not tired of giving her advice to Arya.

Arya looked back at Kiana in wonder. He said he didn't want Kinaya. But on the other hand, Kiana unintentionally worried about Kinaya. In that case, what difference does Kiana currently make to a hypocrite?

Kiana saw the activities of Arya who carried Kinaya so smoothly, he was only a father, but could be painstakingly carried Kinaya. While I am a mother, still zero in taking care of the baby.