ONE HEART TO DEATH
Mother, We'll Split
The Annisa POV
Along the way I kept pensive. Tears are no longer coming out. Maybe it's over because I don't stop crying over my bad luck. My mind was empty looking far away. I look back on the long road of my life from being introduced to my husband to the present. I'm sorry why the accident didn't take my life. If I die maybe I won't feel any more pain. Why do I keep living if I have to suffer this much. Less suffer what the body suffers from gnawed chronic diseases and bear alone. And now I'm betrayed by the person I love the most. I can no longer think clearly, I just miss your warm embrace.
My phone that I don't know how many hundred times vibrated I didn't mind. Seeing the name of the caller on the screen made me even more upset and sad. I chose to set it to silence mode to put it in the bag and ignored the call.
"Don't call me first, I'll do it myself. We'll meet at the trial later. Marry Maya, pity the child is innocent."
Out of concern for the endless calls, I finally decided to write a message so that Zaid would stop bothering me .I typed word by word with deep pain. Any woman would ask her husband to marry another woman. Of course that's how I feel too. But I can't be selfish because that baby needs a father more than I do.
I finally got to my mother's house. After paying the taxi fare I dragged the suitcase into the house. I knocked on the door and said my greetings several times until the owner opened the door.
"Lho son? What the fuck? "ask mom.
"Mother Annisa is tired. We will talk later, right? Annisa went into the room first.. " I kissed my mother's hand briefly and slammed into the room. Mother in astonishment closed the door of the house.
Mother did not calm down to see my behavior so awkward. He could not help but ask. Finally he caught up with me lying in the room against the door.Yes, I hid my broken cries again.
"Darling, did Madame Rahma scold you again? "I just shook my head without looking.
"The same story mom, son, who knows you can help? "said mother softly.
"Honey, you don't know what your problems are, but have you tried to solve them with your husband? "I just shook my head weakly.
"Is this a big deal, son? "now I shake my head.
"Mother, Annisa wants to divorce from mas Zaid bun. "my words suddenly like lightning in broad daylight.
"WHAT? "the mother was so surprised to hear my words .
"Honey, you can't just say such taboo sentences, son. Pamali.. God doesn't like love, "said mother giving advice to me.
"No bun, I can no longer afford to defend this household. I want it to end up here, please, "I'm crying again.
"Think carefully, child, lest you regret it. No matter how much wrong your husband makes, remember how good he is. Are you sure you'll take off a man as good as him? "Mother's advice is still hugging me tighter.
I dive into your words. Am I in too much of a hurry? Should I have heard the explanation first? Ah, stupid me. I remember his affection and his attention. I remember the one who patiently took care of me when I had not recovered from the accident. Also the story of the sisters, Mas Zaid was the one who faithfully took care of me when I was in a coma. He was also the only person who had the confidence that I would come to my senses from my coma. Is it true that such a man would have the heart to hurt me and even betray me.He who would even give his world to me? And what if the word is true that Maya trapped Zaid? But what if Maya really did conceive Zaid's child? Arghhhh. All make me worry. Moreover, the last sentence made me doubt the decision I made.
"Please, ask for guidance from the Almighty. May you have the answer you seek, "your mother's words cool my heart and I forget my emotions a little. I can think more clearly.
