ON THE EDGE OF LONGING
23. Falsehoods.
"Why did Kania come along in papa's lie? Why are you two treating me like a fool?"
Adam's voice was so stressed, disappointed, sorry, betrayed, lied to, sad mixed into one and frozen in Adam's cold heart. Everything felt like a dream, Adam actually felt such a great blow in his heart.
Adam continued to try to stop his crying, but the more he tried the sobbing of his own tears, tears that kept spilling over his cheeks without him being able to control. he continued to rest in a tomb whose soil still looks wet, the flowers scattered still so fresh, Adam's hands continue to hold tightly the tombstone that reads "Ajie Wiguna bin Wijaya".
slowly Kania tried to sit on Adam's right side, slowly moving her hand then touching Adam's shoulder and rubbing it slowly. He seemed to be trying to calm Adam who was really very chaotic at that time.
"I'm sorry Adam! I should've been honest with you." Kania said, she kept trying not to cry.
"I'm wrong, I shouldn't believe all papa's words, I should realize all the awkwardness you're doing."
"Adam stops blaming yourself, it's Ajie's choice, he wants all this."
" How can it be okay. Sis, I am a doctor but I do not understand well even I do not understand the basic things in medical science, how could I not know that a living person cannot be an eye donor, why would I forget such an important thing? papa, why are you doing something this close?" Shouted Adam hysterically, Adam's left fist continued to hit his chest nonstop, his face filled with anger.
"Stop Adam, Stop!" Pinta Kania's.
Quickly Kania's hand immediately stopped the action of Adam who looked so ambitious to hurt himself.
"Let go, let go of me brother! I have to beat up this useless man!"
"Adam! you do not understand about the prospector of donor eyes is a natural thing, because you are not an expert in that field. Me, I was wrong for following Ajie's wishes without thinking about your feelings, I was wrong!" Kania exclaimed and this time her cries broke.
"Pope to be honest with me, why would he prefer to give his eyes to Sheila? why is he not thinking about my feelings at all? Now how can I go back to living my life well? What do I do without papa?"
"Adam, things will get better on their own, relax!"
"Sister, I can't continue my life, I've been destroyed, as broken as it is! all mine is gone!"
"No Adam, I'm still with you. Hang on, if Ajie knows you're strong, you can get through this. Go back to the hospital, I'll talk to the director."
"So, I'm not a doctor, I don't want to go back to being a doctor!"
"Adam, you're a good doctor, please come back!"
"I need time for all this brother, I'm leaving Indonesia."
"Adam..."
"Please sis!!" Adam turned to Kania for a moment, then looked back at the tomb.
"Pa, forgive all my mistakes. I'm gonna make them sorry for ruining papa's life. All this time papa keep their feelings, papa bear all the mistakes that papa did not do, I promise pa, I will clear the name of papa, I will prove that papa is not guilty!"
"Hm,, you must remain strong Adam. Om Ajie apologizes for having to go this way..."
Kania thrusts a white envelope toward Adam, though with confusion Adam slowly receives the envelope.
"What's this?"
"The inscription of Ajie. Adam, if you need anything, call me right away, excuse me, come home and rest, don't torture yourself for too long." Kania.
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With the sloth of Adam continued to step into room after room of his house, now his feet stopped right in front of the papa's room, slowly tears came back.
"Papa, why would you be like Adam? why don't you think about Adam's feelings at all?"
Again, and again Adam continues to blame himself for Ajie's departure.
it's been a week since Ajie died after an eye donor surgery, but for Adam it still feels like a nightmare. He looks so messed up, he's not really good, he looks so confusing.
Adam's feet heavily passed through the room, he went straight into his room which was right in front of Ajie's room.
Once in the room, Adam violently dropped his body into the bed, he kept his face on the pillow. The crying broke again.
"Letter, why did papa give me a letter? what exactly is papa planning? why would he change his life for a vision of Shabaab? what's behind all this? there must be something I don't understand, there's a story I haven't heard, I have to find out everything, I can't let papa go with a wasted sacrifice."
Adam immediately got up from the fall, and his hand immediately grabbed the envelope Kania gave him. Slowly opening it, yes a clean white sheet of paper folded neatly in the envelope, Adam immediately opened the fold until clearly emblazoned the writing in the paper.
#Assalamaicomu.
Papa is confused where to start, where,
hm...forgive papa! Forgive the selfishness of papa who went this way, forgive papa who left you without a word.
Adam papa's departure is papa's decision, not your fault and one more don't hate Kania, papa begged him to lie to you, again pardon papa.
If so, continue to love him. Papa knows since long ago you love the innocent girl right, you even have to be treated and undergo therapy on piskoloq when Syapila lost her eyes, you really go crazy if something bad happens to Shaybila, then how can you quietly see your child's heart is broken every time you think of Syapila.
Papa who makes Shaybala blind then papa also has to restore his sight.
Adam, maybe you don't know, actually the girl who was so papa loved is Aunt Goddess, her mother Syapila. But papa gave it up to choose the man he loved, papa gave it up for papa's own best friend.
Papa does not want you to repeat papa's mistakes, do not let go of Syapala for anyone including for Amar, because papa knows your love is greater than Amar's love. Don't waste papa's sacrifice, get Syapala, that way you can live quietly.
Adam, you're papa's son, you can definitely get through all this well.
promise to continue your life as before, keep working in the hospital, remain her best friend Kania and also keep loving Syapala. Papa loves you Adam.#
Adam's hand felt stiff, his body like a lightning struck after reading the entire writing of the late Ajie.
For a few minutes just silent pecking, with tears continuing to drip, then the gallant body back up to the mattress, Adam tried to close his eyes, calm himself.
"What do you keep hiding from me? what's going on between papa, Bram and Taher? why did your friendship end in such a disaster?"***
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