ON THE EDGE OF LONGING

19. Perplexities.

"So you feel it too?" Azriel asked with her head lowered.

Azriel thought that only she felt the strangeness every time she faced Amar. Somehow he felt familiar with the figure of Amar, but as he remembered, he had only met a few days ago and it was also because there was a problem between Amar and Izza that made him inevitably have to participate in the matter.

"So not only do I have that feeling, or maybe our parents know something about our gut feeling? let me ask Mama Only" explained Amar and immediately grabbed the phone in his pants pocket.

Amar's hand came to a halt as Azriel's hand held him to dial the number by the name of "Mama" which was clearly visible on Amar's phone screen.

"It seems like we ourselves should try to pin down everything. Don't ask your mama, we start with each other's stories."

"If there's an easier way, why do we have to try so hard!"

"I started first. My name is Azriel Khairiel Taher, 7 years ago my family had a big accident, which made me have to lose both my parents, and also made Syapala lose her vision and her childhood memory, he said, I'm the only family member who was okay in the accident." Azriel stops her story, as she begins to be unable to control her grief. The shadow of the incident seemed to be clearly depicted in his memory. Every time he remembered that fateful day as if he had returned to the time where the car driven by his father was hit by a big truck, and not quite got there, his father's car even rolled back and hit the bridge barrier, to make the body of his mother and Syapila thrown out of the car. The accident was a nightmare that would always haunt Azriel's mind.

"Taher, I'm no stranger to that name. I must have heard this name before, but where is it? hm..."

"Taher Wijaya president director of BAT entertainment first, 7 years ago."

"bat entertainment's? are you sure about what you just talked about?"

"Banget, do you know anything about BAT entertainment?" Azriel asked curiously, with her eyes turning sharply towards Amar's face.

"My father, yes now my father is the director of his people, Bramansyah."

"Don't tell me you're Kadafi? aunt Aryani's son!"

"So all this time? So you are Azriel's recuperative brother? who often jahilin I was the same Nurul, and now I understand why I feel so familiar with Syabila, she is Nurul right? The kid who just keeps following me around!"

Without waiting for long Amar immediately hugged Azreil's body tightly.

"I really can't recognize you, we tried a lot." Azriel then patted Amar on the shoulder.

"Wait a minute, Aunt Aryani and you don't live in Singapore?"

"You mean? don't look for excuses, you're an invitation that forgets me and my mom, we've never been anywhere."

(If Amar is serious about his words, then is it possible that Bram has been lying to me? ever since the accident, Bram was the only one who came to see me and if only he came. Then why is it that every time I ask about Auntie and Kadafi he always says that if they live abroad, what is this really, why is it like he keeps his distance between me, Shapala, if, Kadafi and Aunt Aryani.) Azriel's heart began to float thinking about every possibility that was happening. What might be the reality that he had believed all along was just a lie. Then what really happened, what reason until Bramansyah lied to him for years.

"Is something wrong?" Asked Amar who found the uneasiness clearly visible on the look on Azriel's face at this moment.

"No, not at all. I'm happy to see you again, and I'm sure I'd be much happier to know who you really are. You know for yourself that from that time he was so obsessed with you, for him you are a riding prince, he did not want to get married if not with you." Azriel. A smile spread across her two cheeks Azriel, the sweet face of Syapala when she was still in SD first flashed back in her memory. She always said Amar was her husband.

"Hahahaha, very sweet memories. I hope that until now the feeling of Syapala is still as before. Oh yes, I told you all this same mama, and I will also invite mama to visit If ever and also meet you." Clearly Amar was excited.

"Don't you better not tell me about our meeting with Auntie!"

"Loh why? Don't you miss your mom?"

"It's not like that..."

"Then?"

"Hm, here. I just don't want Aunt to be sad to see the current situation. After Syapala's operation is over, then I and Syapala themselves will meet Auntie."

"Papa too, all this time he was busy looking for you and Anywhere. There is not a single day without talking about you and Shaba, he continues to blame himself for not being able to take care of you and if, and also he was so devastated because of the loss of om Taher his best friend."

(What is this really? Why am I confused by this situation, who is lying to whom? why is everything Amar said the opposite of what Bram told me all along? What's actually going on? Why is the situation like this?)

Again Azriel is made not understand with the explanation that Amar continues to explain.

He doesn't know which story he should believe. As if everything was full of mystery, very complicated, to make it unable to explain all that with his common sense.***