ON THE EDGE OF LONGING
10. The Struggle of Adam's Feelings
"What's going on? Adam tell me what the hell is this?" Emotionally Bramansyah looked at Amar and Adam in turn.
"Pa, relax. Adam, what about Amar's leg condition? is the wound bad?" Ariyani asked worriedly.His two hands gently touched both of her cheeks Amar.
"Amar's legs are fine Auntie, just a little scuff, just a week's rest her legs will heal Auntie." Adam Obviously. Trying to cover up the wound on Amar's leg.
"Quick leave that stupid major! papa's gonna put your name on the lead director of our company." Bramansyah.
"No, I'll never get out of that department, I want to be a high jump athlete. Besides, my legs are hurt not by training, but it's an accident outside of training." Obviously Amar is still muddy with his choice.
the debate between Amar and the father was inevitable, both of whom insisted on their own decisions. Realizing what was going on in the room, Adam immediately grabbed Shayna's hand and took her out of Amar's nursery.
"If so, let's go out. Doctor thirsty, let's get a drink!" Adam tried to lead Syaba, then say goodbye to om and tantenya. "Adam get out first, um, Auntie, excuse me."
"Papa did not seek your consent Amar. Papa himself will drag you out of that stupid department." Bramansyah was determined when Adam and Shabail came out of the room.
"Do what you want, and I will do everything I can to survive my own choices."
"Amar stop worrying mama, what's wrong if you follow your papa's will, stop harming yourself!" Pinta Ariyani who began to not be able to hold back with the decision of her only child. For Ariyani, high jumping is a dangerous sport, he does not want his son to get injured or it may be worse than just an injury.
Ariyani himself did not understand why his son could love the sport so much, in terms of genealogy of both sides of the family there is no one who works as an athlete, he said, especially high jump fields that are not many who like it.
"Pope and mama should stop worrying about things that are not necessarily going to happen.don't keep stressing your desires in my life, I also have dreams, I also have dreams, I have the right to decide my future!"
"Well, if you're going to war with papa, we'll see who wins, papa or you." Bramansyah muttered and went straight out of Amar's ward.
"So, try to think mature. Papa just wants to give the best for your life. If indeed you want to fight then do it, mama is also tired of the stubborn nature of both of you. Amar, you know your father will do anything to fulfill his ambition, if he does not succeed in a good way, then even dirty ways will he take. Amar thought, mama leave all the decisions to you, even if you fight you will still lose to your father."
Ariyani's hand gently stroked the hair of her beloved son, then smiled sweetly and finally stepped away, trying to give time so that Amar can think things through with a calm head and then decide wisely which choice to take by him.
"Mama, I'm sorry for making you worry. Believe me everything will be fine. I really can't stop here, ma, actually I don't like high jump sports either, this is not my dream, but I still have to do it, I still have to survive, I still have to survive, I just want you to stop making me like her doll. I want to wake papa up if everything he thinks is good is not necessarily good for others. Ma, I'm sorry!"
Amar continued to try to calm himself down who could no longer hold back the cries, resentment and anger that had peaked into one. Her own eyes could only stare at her back, completely disappearing from her nursery.***
In the hospital cafeteria there, precisely at the end of a table in the east which is located near the window, there is seen Adam who was sitting still in his medical uniform, he seemed to keep smiling happily while looking at Syabila who was sitting opposite him. On the table there are two glasses of orange juice that only stay as grand again.
Adam continued to look at the shady face of Syabila who looked fun sucking her juice. A voice finally turned Adam's eyes.
"Doctor Adam." Greet the Kejora doctor who walks towards Adam and Syabila.
"May I sit here?"
"Can." A spontaneous answer made Adam look back at him.
"The truth? Did I not bother you?"
"Ah, not at all. Sit down!" Clearly Adam after observing the look on the face of Syabila who was still focused on his drink.
Gaining the approval of Adam and Syabila makes the Kejora immediately take place next to Adam.
"So he's your patient?" Ask Kejora while glancing towards Syabila who was seen from earlier was so focused on the drink. Even Syabila's lips continued to stick to her sedot.
"No, he's Kania's patient. He's in line waiting for an eye donor." Adam Obviously.
"Doctor, if you're done drinking, then if you'll be back in the waiting room, excuse me." It was clear when I got up from my chair. His right hand immediately grabbed the stick on the right side of his body, then stepped from the table guided by his favorite stick that has always been faithful to accompany wherever he goes.
"If you wait, let the doctor deliver!" Adam rose and quickly got up from his chair.
"No doctor, anyways Syapala also has somewhat memorized with this hospital road anyway, well although not all. Then doctor happy dating, good luck!" It was clear when he smiled kindly and immediately left Adam with Kejora.
"So how? want to date me?" Kejora asked then immediately turned his eyes away from looking at Adam's face, as he felt awkward he immediately gulped down his drink.
"All right."
Adam sat back in his chair. The two began chatting about work and personal life.
(Dating? she advised me to go on a date even while smiling happily. Adam what were you thinking all along? why hope for things you can't possibly get. Of love? you think a girl as good as Syapala will fall in love with a guy who is too old for her. Stop wishing Adam, he'll never have you.) Adam's heart slowly felt a slashing sense of wound so deeply.
Although his mouth continued to speak with Kejora but his heart and brain could not lie if he was really injured at the moment. Wanting to feel he was crying but he had to endure it, he did not want Kejora to realize what he was currently feeling.***
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