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Other Memory

"Oh obviously dong tan" replied Fai.

"I just found out Renren has this many friends" said his mother Renren.

"Always have kok tan, both from the past until now" said Balqis.

"What's his name?" ask Renren's mom.

"I am Nea aunt" answered Nea and so on followed by another introduction.

"Wanna talk to me there?" asked Renren's mother, pointing to a gazebo at the funeral.

"By aunty" replied Arka.

"Yes, let's go there, son" take Renren's mom.

***

"Yes, Renren is a very jolly boy. Aunty used to like to bring Renren to play with his friends, but aunt forgot what the children's names were."

"Yes tan, Renren is a very sweet child" said Balqis agreed.

Nea and Fai are the 2 people who now only smile sweetly in response to the words of mama Renren and Balqis, the article both do not have so much memory about Renren. On the other hand Arka and Yaza were busy talking about automotive with his father Renren. Don't ask Derren and Ghai who are now disappearing somewhere.

"Renren's her son's having trouble eating. I know his body is weak but eating is hard. Aunt loves to wonder."

"When it's still in Holland it's hard to eat tan?" ask Balqis.

"Yes, same thing. In Indonesia, in the Netherlands everything is the same, it's hard to eat."

"Basar Renren" said Balqis accompanied by a wistful smile.

"Where are you guys going?" ask mama Renren.

"The plan is for the new year with the tan" Balqis replied.

"It is so. Where's the tea going?"

"Lembang aunty. This is in Nea's villa" Balqis replied, pointing at Nea.

"Be careful, baby. If this aunt abis wants to return to the Netherlands, the flight is around 4 pm" said Mama Renren once again.

"That's tan? Aunty's planning to settle there?" tanya Nea this time ventured.

"Oh, that's not it, baby. Just relatives om om many there, right, so aunty mah as a wife do not follow?" asked Mama Renren with a smile.

"What is that, tan? About back to his Indo again when?" ask Nea again.

"Hmm, if not wrong later April aunt came back here again because the om there is a project, but even then in Jakarta anyway. Later stop by the house there if you play to Jakarta! Auntie would have welcomed it well."

"Must be aunty" Balqis replied with a smile.

"Yes, you guys still have this planned out? Aunt deluan yes! Titip Renren, baby! Thank you for being Renren's best friend while Renren is still here with all of us" he said once again.

"Same aunt" answered Nea, Fai, and Balqis.

***

"Derren, where are you going? The others will look for you!" ghai's medal to Derren.

"Lo just wait there with the others, Gha, I have a bad business" Derren replied.

"Where are you going? Later on departing so I can follow you and immediately ngajak lo back" said Ghai.

"Ck! There is Diem why? I'll definitely go back if you call!" derren said, looking at Ghai who kept insisting on following Derren.

"Can't be Der! What if you try?" ghai.

Suddenly a movement appeared, it was pointing towards a bush not far from where Ghai and Derren were standing at the moment. Derren immediately turned to look for the source of the voice.

"You're back for a sneak!" derren's orders.

"A ghost is afraid of ghosts!" said Ghai who then stepped forward trying to check who is making Derren really nervous at this time.

"Ghi!" Derren gave a warning with his half-whispering scream at Ghai.

"What the hell?!" Ghai looked over with a breathless face.

"The danger! Get back here!" derren's orders.

"What is dangerous?" ask Ghai who then brushed the bushes. Derren was aghast from his place then took a step back slowly.

Ghai then turned his head, staring at the thickets he had just fallen before. Derren quickly took Ghai's hand. But it was too late, Ghai saw it. A boy with a thin body and shabby clothes was cowering among the bushes. His hair looks untidy, he doesn't wear any footwear. Soon the boy turned his head towards Ghai slowly. The dark circles in his eyes were clearly visible.

"Ghai, remember me?" his voice sounded chest tight.

Ghai was pulled into the hole again. Now, Ghai was in his subconscious. A view of the pine trees around him made Ghai realize, he had been here before. Ghai then looked back at the child, with his shabby clothes standing looking at another boy.

The dress is a sky blue t-shirt with the words "I Love My Mom" but looks full of dust and worn, the pants he wears in the form of light brown shorts. Ghai looked at the boy fixedly.

"Far from Ghai! Ghai it's my friend, don't be evil with him!"

Ghai knows his voice, if not mistaken it's Derren. Ghai took a step forward trying to see the face of the boy who was now talking to the figure he had seen.

"Ghai also my friend, why can't Ghai win with me?" ask that figure.

"If you are evil, you want to harm Ghai. Can't! You can't hide Ghai" replied little Derren.

"On that-"

"Derren! What's in there?" a small Renren figure emerged from behind the pine tree.

"The rendition?!"

The figure disappeared, leaving little Derren and Renren there. Ghai was then pulled back to another place. Now right next to the river, little Ghai was together with the figure of the mysterious little boy.

"I'm sorry, I don't want to be with you anymore" said the figure of Little Ghai.

"Why? If Ghai leaves later who am I? I don't have a temen" said the little figure.

"Arsa play with others, Ghai is the same as Ghai's friends" replied Little Ghai.

"But I don't have anything else, I want Ghai!" said the figure of the little boy who is now known to be named Arsa.

"I'm sorry Arsa, Arsa is fine. Ghai came home first, wanted by mama" said little Ghai who now began to switch away from Arsa.

Ghai can see his little figure being greeted with Yaza and Derren who then hug Ghai to immediately leave from there. The figures of Yaza and Derren occasionally look back at Arsa who saw Ghai's departure while crying. Ghai felt pity, until suddenly.

"Do you remember me?"

***

"GHAI! THE BREATH! Cool out! There we are here" Nea's voice sounded.

Ghai wriggled, his whole body ached. Somehow Ghai was now in place before he fainted, along with 6 other friends.

"Lo's okay?" ask Yaza.

"Jir! I don't know what to do! Aer dikasih also can not be drunk jir!" arka panicked.

"This lo apan the Ghai Der?!" ask Balqis to panic.

"Here, I'll bring you a drink! Who knows how to use" said Fai who was seen running towards Derren and Ghai.

Ghai began to be able to catch his breath, his eyes staring at his 6 best friends one by one with a tired look. Soon, Ghai closed his eyes for a while.

"Well, what's wrong, Gha?" tanya Derren tried to check on Ghai's condition which still closed his eyes.

"Udah, I'm okay" said Ghai who then began trying to rise from his supine position assisted by Derren.

"Gue panic an*ir! Do not know what to do" said Arka while hitting the shoulders of Ghai who was not held and ended himself who began to olleng almost fall, lucky Nea caught Arka's body.

"Don't make your eating style!" nea said to Arka.

"Yes forgot me! Sorry" said Arka.

"Why isn't it Gha?" ask Nea again.

"Yes, I guess what's prolonged? Now let's go to Renren's grave. So forget the same main purpose right" replied Ghai.

Ghai walked while trying to remember, who was the figure of the child in his subconscious. His figure reminded Ghai of the Heavy Voice that greeted him when Ghai woke up. Somehow but, Ghai felt the flashback of his life was too short and it was able to make Ghai feel like falling asleep a little longer.

"Yes come" said Yaza.

***

"Hi Renren, long time no here. Sorry yes" said Balqis.

"Hi Ren, here I bring the kids here ngunjungin lo. Lo where the hell is it? Often appear dong, Ghai same Derren aja often appear kok" said Yaza.

Derren lowered his head deeply hearing Yaza's words. One by one they put a bouquet of flowers he carried in front of Renren's tomb.

"Hi Ren, I thought about you not being that whole but, sorry. Sorry because I forgot about lo, sorry because I never visited here" Nea said.

"I'm sorry Ren" said Fai.

"This is for you, O friend that I again forget but now again I try to find out about lo. About your letter, probably just read the same to me, and I'm sorry about that. Hopefully your other letters can see me" said Arka while putting flowers in front of Renren's tomb.

"No one wants to be sidelined?" tanya Arka leads to Ghai and Derren.

"I'm sorry I just stopped by Ren. Anywhere and whatever the risk, I definitely find my memory of you really" said Ghai with a smile.

"Lo Der's turn" Nea said, allowing Derren to advance closer to Renren's tomb.

Derren took 3 steps forward approaching with his gaze still fixed to the bottom. On the other hand Nea and Fai began to step aside giving way.

"Hi Renren, long time no see? Sorry, everyone because of me. If I hadn't made the wrong move then, you would still be here with us. I'm sorry, I'm sorry for everything. If only at this moment I could face you. I want to say, please hate me, because only in that way can I receive the proper punishment. I'm sorry Ren" Derren said with a sob.

Everyone stared at Derren's back which was now shaking. Ghai walked over, rubbing Derren's back slowly. If only he could, Yaza, Arka, Nea, Fai, and Balqis would also want to do that to Derren.

"It's not wrong, Der. It's all wrong of us" Yaza said with a soft smile.

"Udah yuk cried. I'm sure Renren also does not like to see you like this" said Balqis.

"Mending now we caw to the next destination" Arka invited while secretly wiping away the tears that were present in the corner of her eyes.

"Yeah yuk!" bring Balqis.

Derren finally stood up, then began to take steps to leave the tomb of Izola Renata Anais, a sweet girl whose best friend status was someone Derren liked. While walking away leaving the body of a beautiful girl who has now been buried, Derren monologued in silence.

"Wherever you are, whatever the circumstances. Please hate me wholeheartedly, don't give me your forgiveness for which I obviously won't be able to pay even with my life, and again I'm here stupidly standing up just to say sorry for the second time to you, someone I love and I'm disappointed at once. Sorry Renren"