Notes Without Title

The Story of a Couple of Butterflies

Through hope they let go of longing

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"It's really bad Gha. I didn't think you'd be that cruel as Nea."

"You don't have to be Der's stove, it's my spontaneous reaction because I'm surprised to be held by humans. Instead of that, I want it. Did I know each other before?" ask Ghai.

"Huh? Why ask me that?"

"So, let me go back. There was a voice that looked like Nea's" Ghai said. The silence of Ghai's interlocutor managed to bring Ghai back into silence then pondered.

"Based on the trash who don't know it's lucky! I knew I was going to miss the bus. Where the words of Mr. Gajek kept on pouring into my head." Nea was still busy in the business of cursing Ghai.

Shortly after the phone vibrated, showing some notifications. One of them from Arka who asked for the existence of Nea, but ended up neglected.

**Absurd Man: **Woi lo where? Mother Esha came to me. He said your number can't be connected.

One of them was a message from someone named Yaza. Nea then sighed before opening and reading the message from Yaza.

Dwarf Man: Oii, treaty. I forgot to call you earlier.

Nea regretted having read the contents of the message from Yaza. Nea then replied to his message while grumbling.

"One is not willing, the other asks for a treaty. It's a weird guy."

Nea: There are no treaties. Point of absence comma.

Nea then stared at the crackle bag containing the food she had ordered earlier. Not long after, Nea immediately stepped foot to return to the music art building.

"Bodo very! I bought this. Mubadzir's name if I throw it away."

Nea then opened the Whatsapp application to inform her mother about her condition to go home today. There were several messages from his mother asking for Nea's whereabouts on it.

Nea: Mamski, Nea came home tonight huh. Nugas on campus, a lot of work has not been done.

Kanjeng Ratu: You from earlier mama WA not answered. Just who's there?

Nea: Hehehe, my beloved Mamskuy sorry. Just like the son of music art, Nea has been able to collaborate for the final task.

Kanjeng Queen: What girl is a boy?

Nea: Be thankful mama, because Nea finally found a man. Nyebelin.

Queen's Kanjeng: Thank God. Mama proud.

Nea: Call papah yes.

Queen Kanjeng: Be careful not to macem! Taro mamah pen next to KK, Family Card if less clear.

Nea: O God mama. No, Nea's not gonna fuck around. Promises.

Queen Kanjeng: Look out! Go home not night-night deck. Do not forget to tell your boy how.

Nea: Ready!!

Nea then walked away. Approaching Ghai with a crackle bag containing 2 chicken packs complete with 2 drinks of lemon tea as a thirst quench.

7/12/2018

18.45

"Ghen. Shhh, Ghai."

Nea's voice echoed, Nea walked cautiously in fear. It was thought by Nea to turn on the flashlight from her phone so that she could see more clearly. Because he never heard the answer from Ghai, Nea had thought that Ghai had returned home.

"Ghai, you haven't returned yet? Ghai?"

Soon Nea felt a presence of a creature. He felt that presence from behind Nea. Nea slowly twisted her body to find out who was behind her at this moment.

"Oi." Ghai greeted with one raised hand while tilting his head.

"Ghen! Thank God you haven't come home yet. What do you think of the head of the cake?" ask Nea.

"Well, you're still here? Didn't I tell you to go home? Pamali loh gals come home at night," Ghai said as he asked.

"Udah, diem aja lo. You also have not returned, so do not have to say all pamali. I'm here to do my job. Lo healthy? I am here yes. Hehehehe," said Nea.

"That's called Nea. I'm a guy, coming home late is okay too. You girls, you want to go home at night? Don't pantes know."

"Udah used to come home at night" Nea said.

"Lied."

"Seriously! You don't feel guilty about me? I know I missed the bus! So I'm back here again."

"Yes, sorry about that. Eat it not hold. Some here are a lot of strange, mending you work their duties in your own building rather than here. You know the rumors of the building in my direction?" ask Ghai.

"Why? Lo ngusir me? Any more?? Ghai, let me do my job here with you! Pleases. Besides, if I work in the building, I'm sure the kids are home too, so the same."

"Well, the others have gone home. Why don't you, try it? The more dangerous the night the girls go home alone," said Ghai.

"Cie equal attention me. Like it, "tease Nea in trying to distract Ghai.

"Ck! Dikasih know too. Difficult yes. You're not angry about me?" ghai asked so remembering how he had snapped at Nea.

"Wouldn't be angry again if you could I just play TA here."

"Yes it's up to you" Ghai said as he walked away.

"Yeay, fine. I feel like this building is also comfortable. Full of calm," said Nea.

"Clearly calm down, because you're a human who doesn't have a 6th sense. Try if you have, a lot of disturbing know," said Ghai.

Nea who heard it immediately shuddered in horror. Nea quickly ran towards Ghai to ease the fear that was approaching her at this moment.

"Ghen. Not funny ah," Nea said with a hearty look.

"Eh, seriously. Hahaha, the example is behind you," Ghai said in a ignorant tone.

"Ghi!" Nea jumped into Ghai's hand, Ghai quickly brushed him off.

"Weit. I told you not to touch. I don't like it" Ghai said.

"Lo jahil after all, so I was jahilin back," said Nea.

"I'm untouchable. Don't hold on to it it's ticklish tau. It doesn't feel good to be touched by a human being" Ghai said.

"Well, aren't you human? I love to hang out," Nea said.

"No" replied Ghai. Nea then watched Ghai from top to bottom.

"Well you're joking? Start off, your jokes are not funny. Hahaha," said Nea.

"But laughing" Ghai said.

"Gue appreciates your crisp laugh. It's hard if nobody laughs" Nea said.

"There is," Ghai said as he pointed towards the empty passage behind Nea.

"Who?" asked Nea while looking back.

"You," Ghai said.

"Yai. Ah ah buru. I asked for 9 songs" Nea said.

"Huh? 9 songs? I was only asked to make 5 before" Ghai protested.

Ghai now feels astonished, because his memory reappears. Surprisingly again, Ghai did not feel any pain when his memory returned. Whereas before every key of his memory opened, his body felt burning.

"Yes don't want to know. Lo-kan has agreed to collaborate with me," said Nea while holding out his palms, but Ghai did not say Nea's words.

"Woi, bengong mulu his work. Later you will know the taste of lo," said Nea.

"Heh the queen of the sea of the Bermuda triangle. If I'm dumb again that means I'm thinking, and the only thing you have to do is if I'm really dumb. Don't talk much and even make my mind run away. It is not polite to know, I have said what the conditions are," said Ghai who managed to make Nea stunned.

"Yes sorry Kang, Mas. I was wrong" Nea said.

"You don't, huh? I think if nemenin you nugas even become a part of the inn. I think my blood pressure is going up, you know? Mending comes home if I believe it," said Ghai.

"Eh! Don't dong. I'm sorry" Nea said.

"Repair your ugly attitude naujubilah," said Ghai.

"Yes, yeah. I'll try to fix my ugly nature" Nea said.

"It's cake" Ghai said.

"I'm sorry, the most handsome Mas Ghai in the world" Nea said.

Ghai did not reply, preferring to shut up and do his job. Shortly after eating Nea's order, they dissolved in their respective focus. Until the silence was broken as Nea spoke to Ghai.

"This is the truth, even I still don't know what the story is. So, how can I bring my feelings into the song try? What's more, didn't you say your project was an MV? Why did it suddenly take 9 songs?" ask Ghai.

"Huh, I didn't tell you?" ask Nea.

"Yet. Do you want to make animations with a duration of what? How do I need 9 soundtracks?" ask Ghai.

"Oh, that's kidding. Hehehehe, I just want to make you shock. The answer to the problem of MV so my lecturer suddenly specifically talked to me with the words 'I think Nea is better if you make short animations, you are also good at not telling?' so anyway, I moved the project from making music videos to yes, a kind of short cartoon film duration of 10 minutes is about," Nea said while laughing evil.

"Oh, so doesn't everyone have to be animated?" ask Ghai.

"It is not Gha" Nea answered.

"Ngaco. So how much does it take?" ask Ghai.

"Hm, actually 3 is also mostly not anyway?" ask Nea.

"Depends on the duration of your animation" Ghai said.

"I told you, at least 10 minutes. Eat it if people talk about it all right! How the hell?! That's the longest duration! I could die if I make it more than 10 minutes," Nea said.

"Enough. I made 3, 1 out of 3 that could be in reserve with you," Ghai said.

"Hm, it makes sense. Okedeh, please help, my friend," said Nea.

"So, what's the story?" ask Ghai.

"Oh yes. I forgot about it." Nea then patted his hands enthusiastically.

"Sok the story, I listened" Ghai said.

"Well, so gini. In fact, I want to make a story with the mandate of removing it heavy but necessary. Do you know that butterflies only have 3 days to live after turning beautiful?" ask Nea.

"Yes" replied Ghai.

"Well, so the main characters in my story are butterflies. Only later I make the cake giles that's the shape. In my story they are a couple, a boy girl," Nea said.

"OK, continues?" ask Ghai.

"Well, so the story is gini. There is a caterpillar that meets other caterpillars after hatching. They make friends, fall in love with each other, carve memories together. Yes, the point is that they are tea decoction pisan," said Nea.

"Continue?" ask Ghai.

"Well, the story is because they grew up together, their dreams were the same, the time came when they could fly high in space, they wanted to penetrate the earth's atmosphere to see the real stars. You know why?" ask Nea.

Ghai silently did not intend to answer, just waiting until Nea finally reopened her voice. Nea understood, she continued the story of the animation.

"Because, they both fell in love with the stars. One night, a lonely fairy came. She was a fairy who was estranged from among her, hated to be reviled as well. The elf is on the run and accidentally meets the only creature who can see and appreciate his existence, the creature is the caterpillar guy. I don't know if I want to make the character of the caterpillar in the shape of how, which I obviously want to make as funny as possible because I am also disgusted by caterpillars, or maybe I just use the concept of butterflies and my character will not be the same as the original? Don't know. Okay continue, because this fairy is lonely, after meeting this caterpillar guy she so have hope and obsession." Nea paused her sentence for a moment to turn her gaze towards Ghai.

"Ghi, do you believe obsession is beautiful but painful?" ask Nea.

"Why is it beautiful?" ask Ghai.

"Beautiful because, the obsession is the feeling that arises when you are very afraid to lose someone, beautiful because the sense that arises when you finally feel you have something you want to protect, you know, something that makes you know the word love, and please underline, love is not always about how we look at and express that feeling all this time, not always about girls and guys who end up happy, love can arise because of friendship or mutual trust. In essence, love is not always about what the public defines it, and that's why love is beautiful" Nea said.

"It still hurts because of what?" ask Ghai.

"Menyakitkan karena melalui obsesi itu sendiri, orang yang sangat berharga di hidup kita bisa menjadi orang yang paling pintar dalam hal menyakiti," jawab Nea.

Ghai masih tertegun menatap Nea dengan segala pesonanya di bawah sinar rembulan. Lengkap dihias senyuman sendu miliknya, mungkin di detik itulah Ghai kembali mencintai seseorang.

"Karena obsesi ingin memiliki si ulat cowok sepenuhnya, si peri melanggar hukum alam. Mengutuk si ulat cowok untuk hidup lebih sebentar ketimbang yang lainnya," ujar Nea.

"Loh kenapa lebih sebentar?" tanya Ghai.

"Karena peri itu mau si ulat cowok berada di samping si peri. Mau tahu kenapa lagi? Karena kupu-kupu yang mati akan berubah menjadi peri," ujar Nea, lagi Nea menghentikan kalimatnya sejenak.

"Tapi, tau gak apa yang didapat sama si peri setelah ngutuk si ulat cowok?" tanya Nea.

"Dia mendapatkan makna kesendirian dan kesepian yang hakiki. Obsesi yang salah menuntun dia untuk melukai orang yang ingin dia jaga hingga akhir hayatnya, melalui hal itu dia akhirnya dapat menyimpulkan bahwa rasa cinta yang dia miliki buat si ulat cowok itu salah. Bukan, mungkin bukan rasa cintanya yang salah tapi, bagaimana cara dia mengekspresikannya yang salah. Mau tahu apa kelanjutannya? Si peri mencoba memperbaiki dan menghilangkan kutukannya tapi, ternyata kutukan itu hanya bisa hilang ketika kita bisa merelakan, sedangkan jauh di lubuk hati si peri, dia masih sulit untuk melepas si ulat cowok, akhirnya dia malah tenggelam dalam rasa bersalah," ujar Nea.

"Gak adil dong?" tanya Ghai.

"Kenapa gak adil?" tanya Nea.

"Peri itu terlalu dibuat terpuruk. Kamu sengaja buat peri ini jadi karakter jahat yang gak bisa dibenci ya? Lagian sepasang ulat itu hidup cuma sebentar dan tau waktu mereka akan habis sebentar lagi. Bukannya artinya mimpi mereka untuk melihat bintang yang sesungguhnya itu mustahil?" ujar Ghai.

"Hehe, emang. Lagian siapa sih mahluk Tuhan di dunia ini yang betah berteman dengan rasa sepi? Nah, untuk waktu mereka yang sebentar. Justru karena mereka tau waktu mereka sedikit, mereka jadi menghargai waktu. Mereka belajar cara memanfaatkan waktu yang terbatas sebagai peluang mengukir kenangan indah sebanyak mungkin. Justru karena tahu hidup mereka gak lama, mereka jadi tau emosi negatif di dunia itu gak berguna. Lagian lo jangan lupa, mereka ujung-ujungnya juga berubah jadi peri setelah meninggal," ujar Nea.

"Terus akhir ceritanya gimana?" tanya Ghai.

"Kutukan atau mungkin bisa juga di bilang kesempatan untuk mengusir rasa egois yang diberikan si peri gak pernah disesali ataupun dibenci si ulat cowok. Tahu kenapa? Karena dia tahu makna kesepian itu seperti apa, dia tidak menyalahkan si peri yang sama-sama sempat terluka di masanya. Jadi, dalam waktu 1 setengah hari sepasang ulat yang berubah jadi kupu-kupu ini menghabiskan waktu secara indah bersama-sama. Saling berjanji tidak akan menyesali apapun yang sudah terjadi, saling berjanji tidak akan pernah menyalahkan siapapun atas takdir yang diberikan oleh-Nya."

Nea mengalihkan pandangannya menatap rembulan melalui balik kaca gedung jurusan seni musik. Selang beberapa detik kemudian ia melanjutkan kalimatnya.

"Ulat cowok yang bertransformasi jadi kupu-kupu cowok itu, memang pergi lebih dulu dari si kupu-kupu cewek, nah ter--." Kata-kata Nea terpotong oleh pertanyaan Ghai.

"Si kupu-kupu cewek emang gak banyak diceritain?" tanya Ghai.

"Lo pake mutus cerita gue sih! Nah, di sini peran si kupu-kupu cewek berlangsung, disisa 1 setengah hari yang dia punya, dia pergi nepatin janji mereka berdua untuk pergi melintasi atmosfer bumi untuk melihat bintang yang sesungguhnya. Bukan waktu yang sebentar, tepat di menit-menit terakhir dia baru sampai di sana. Di dalam kesendirian melintasi perjalanan jauh itu, dia belajar cara melepas. Sebenarnya kalau lo tau, sosok peri si ulat cowok itu selalu ada di sampingnya, cuma si ulat cewek gak bisa liat.

Nah, sesampainya dia di tempat tujuan, dia melihat bintang sambil mengenang sosok si kupu-kupu cowok. Memang benar selama di perjalan melintasi atmosfer bumi, dia merasakan pilu dan sakit yang dalam tapi, seiring dengan berjalannya waktu dia tau selama ini dia cuma memberatkan kepergian si kupu-kupu cowok. Alhasil, dia membuang segala rasa sedih dan pilunya, mengganti emosi itu dengan rasa rindu yang sangat berharga. Di satu sisi si ulat cowok hanya bisa menatap kepergian si ulat cewek tanpa bisa terlihat oleh si ulat cewek itu sendiri. Hingga akhirnya baik kupu-kupu aka si ulat cewek dan si peri, mereka mendapatkan sebuah pesan kehidupan bahwa melepas itu berat tapi perlu. Udah deh tamat!" ujar Nea sembari menghapus air mata yang turun karena rasa bangga.

Di sisi lain, Ghai terdiam untuk merenung. Matanya berubah sayu seketika kala mendengar akhir cerita dari kisah yang diceritakan Nea.

"Gimana, gimana?!! Baguskan?? Sedihkan?" tanya Nea.

"Kenapa endingnya kayak gitu? Itu mah namanya penghabisan karakter," ujar Ghai.

"Ya suka-suka gue dong!!" ujar Nea.

"Kenapa gak dibikin tiba-tiba si kupu-kupu cowok muncul lagi dalam sosok peri. Mengulurkan tangannya, terus membawa si kupu-kupu cewek pergi bersama dia?" tanya Ghai masih dengan tatapan sayu.

"Kan emang si kupu-kupu cowok selalu ada di sampingnya cuma gak keliatan aja," ujar Nea.

"Tapi gak bisa gitu dong, katanya kupu-kupu yang udah mati berubah jadi peri?!" ujar Ghai.

"Lo dapet maksud gue gak sih?? Kenapa akhirnya kayak gitu karena gue mau buat pesan melepas itu berat tapi perlu. Lagian yang bisa liat peri itu cuma kupu-kupu dengan bakat spesial," ujar Nea.

"Tapikan, dengan akhir yang indah juga penonton bisa dapet pesan itu lewat si peri kali! Buat aja si peri mikir dan ngelihat bahwa dengan obsesi dia, dia malah buat si ulat cowok mendapatkan kesedihan, terus dia jadi sadar juga bahwa, rasa sepi milik dia itu bisa hilang ketika melihat si ulat cowok bahagia," ujar Ghai.

"He em, emang gitukan! Ketauan banget lo gak nyimak ah! Tapi gak, gue lebih suka alur cerita buatan gue. Akhir kayak gitu udah paling pas," ujar Nea.

"Gak adil itu namanya. Gak rame, kisahnya gak seru," ujar Ghai.

"Ih, nyebelin ya!" ujar Nea.

"Nih, kalau misalnya kamu ada di posisi si kupu-kupu cewek. Apa yang bakal kamu lakuin? Mau punya akhir cerita kayak gitu? Dih, aku sih gak mau ya," ujar Ghai.

"Lah kenapa lo yang sewot?!" ujar Nea.

"Emang yakin setelah ngelepas si anak cowok kayak gitu, dia jadi bahagia?" tanya Ghai.

Nea kini tengah berada dalam posisi skakmat. Dirinya tak lagi mampu menyanggah kata-kata dari Ghai. Ghai kemudian kembali melemparkan pertanyaannya.

"Berarti anak cowok itu dong yang bodoh?" tanya Ghai.

"Kenapa?" tanya Nea.

"Karena dia berusaha berteman dengan luka, mencoba memaafkan walau dia sebenarnya yang paling terluka karena menjadi korban atas rasa cinta dari si dua karakter, ulat cewek sama si peri. Karakter paling menyedihkan ya?" ujar Ghai dengan tatapan sendu.

"Lah emang ngapa dia jadi korban rasa cinta mereka berdua?" tanya Nea.

"Ya udah mah hidup dia jadi sebentar karena si peri, terus karena gak mau meninggalkan si ulat cewek sendirian dia jadi terluka dengan terus mengikuti ulat cewek tanpa bisa dilihat," ujar Nea.

"Ya karena itu gue bilang melepas itu berat tapi perlu. Coba kalau dia bisa melepas si ulat cewek, mungkin dia gak akan berlama-lama terpuruk. Lagian! Kalau cinta, kenapa dia merasa terpuruk mendampingi si ulat cewek tanpa terlihat?" protes Nea.

"Ya kamu pikir aja sendiri. Berada di satu tempat dengan perasaan jadi salp laut yang gak kelihatan tapi ingin diakui keberadaannya tuh gak enak," jawab Ghai dengan nada ketus.

"Hah? Salp laut?" tanya Nea.

"Cari sana di internet. Lo manusiakan?!" jawab Ghai masih dengan nada ketus.

Nea terdiam. Tak ingin lama-lama memusingkan hal ini akhirnya Nea membuka suara.

"Lagian itu terlalu mustahil terjadi. Ya kalau lo tanya gue mau punya akhir cerita kayak gitu, ya jawabannya gak-lah! Mending gue menghindar sebelum terlanjur jatuh terlalu dalam ke ceritanya. Lagian ya! Itukan khayalan gue, udahlah gak usah di ributin lagi," ujar Nea.

"Lagi," ujar Ghai tiba-tiba.

"Lagi apaan?" tanya Nea.

"Lagi, udah ke berapa kalinya kamu gak sopan sama aku. Untuk hari ini udah cukup. Silahkan pulang," ujar Ghai yang kemudian berjalan meninggalkan Nea dan hilang ditelan kegelapan.

"Ghai! Ghai!! WOOY! ANJIR GUE DITINGGAL! DASAR COWOK SOK MISTERIUUUUSSS!!!!"

　

　

　

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