Not as Beautiful as Angan

Contrition

The ocean was sitting listlessly with its face bowed weakly. The bones that supported his body seemed to have all been removed. He's helpless.

It felt like the sky was falling over it. His face was deathly pale as if blood flow had stopped flowing through his entire body.

The world felt pitch black, he was bowed languidly, his eyes did not dare to look at the face of the woman he loved so much, who was now

right in front of him.

"Wanna marry another woman?.., Cempaka frankly I do not want you to be hurt by Buana. Wasn't that time, your parents didn't accept my proposal just because Buana was about to marry you? This can't be allowed. What is Buana's real name? And where's the den? in the police or in the police? where's Cempaka? Let's tell me, I'll make a calculation with him!" said the Ocean with rage.

"Ocean, awake. There's no need for you to do that, I'm ashamed that you hit him. Especially until there is a commotion, I don't want it to happen. Calm your heart, if you love me, you don't have to go to him. Maybe this is all my fate" quivered Cempaka's lips said.

The ocean is getting more and more regretful. The woman he loves has been abandoned by the man of his parents' choice.

Now, the woman had left him. Even if it is unconsciously. Because he was driven by emotion because the news was not necessarily the truth.

Even if he didn't realize it, he hurt her. Injuring his heart and feelings Cempaka, the woman who has made him have the spirit to become a soldier, a servant of the country.

"Samudera, what are you? You should be happy to hear the news. Because, I did not marry Buana"Cempaka asked in his ignorance.

The ocean is getting dulled.

He seems to be shedding tears.

She was crying out of regret, having taken rash action.

"You're crying...? Why?" whispered Cempaka while trying

raised his face Ocean. He wiped the tears that were still wetting both of his cheeks.

"Forgive me" he said.

"I'm sorry" he repeated

his speech.

"Why are you asking ma'af?"

Cempaka doesn't understand.

"I've hurt you" he said again, bowing his head again. It was as if there was no strength to stare at Cempaka's face, which she was so dear to her.

"You..., hurt me? Meanin?" Cempaka is getting clueless.

"Because of hearing that you are married to Buana, then...,

soon I married a woman I didn't love"

with a slow and heavy voice, the Ocean finally said it.

" Bab!" as soon as Cempaka let go of the Ocean's handrails, he distanced himself, staring in disbelief at what he had heard just now. Straight from the mouth of the man she loved.

"Am I not hearing wrong?.., you..., you're not kidding, are you?" Cempaka did not feel confident about his listeners. With trembling lips he made sure of it.

He felt the corner of his eyes begin to heat up, a clear circle of tears he could not stand. It felt like he was beating at the corner of his heart. Sick and painful.

Cempaka was crying bitterly.

"Listen to my explanation

Cempaka, I don't intend to hurt your feelings"with

panicking, the Ocean tries to calm Cempaka down.

"You mean...,? not hurt but, let me down, hurt my heart, revenge you mean?" Cempaka.

"Not that, at all I don't intend to do everything you're accusing of" the Ocean tried to temper Cempaka's emotions.

"You better know what happened to me. After I came home from your house that day. My heart is broken, my soul is broken, disappointed, sad, sore, hurt and various feelings roll into one. I couldn't control my emotions and feelings, I destroyed Cempaka" The ocean began to describe the suffering she was experiencing at that time.

Until he rampaged and in the score of the unit where he served he told all.

Cempaka listened incessantly to take a deep breath, then let go slowly, as if wanting to release the burden that was in his heart.

"When I met Mang Ramdhan with his wife. Who was going to your house at that time, to attend the wedding reception. When I asked, who will get married? He said Neng was getting married. There my blood was boiling, no longer could I endure all the suffering that your family had given me, I could not control myself, I floundered" he said

Ocean, he sighed deeply.

Cempaka took it seriously.

a sense of regret that was very emanated on the face of the Ocean at that time.

"I thought you were married to Buana at the time. That's why I immediately looked for a girl I wanted to marry, whose face was a little like yours. Although, I don't love him. I just want to vent my disappointment, and all my heartache. I'm sorry!" Further again.

Cempaka could not speak anymore, his tongue was twisted, his blood seemed to stop flowing. Somehow should Cempaka accept this reality? Should sad?

Or...., happy?.., should she cry?

All he can do is stumble and sculpt, silent silence a thousand languages.

Cempaka could not blame the Ocean, because he did so because he had gotten disappointment from himself and his family.

"I'm sorry Cempaka, I'm sorry" he said, crying with regret.

She shed her tears as the Ocean embraced her.

The two hugged while tearfully. Her cries represented the regret that raged in her heart.

Regrets that have plagued a soul that has almost collapsed.

"Ocean, "Cempaka whispered softly. The hand that hugged her slowly. Then in his hands, while in his eyes a handsome face that is now right in front of his eyes.

"I am so sorry to have rashly married another woman, had it been.., I knew that the one who got married was your sister, surely this regret would never have happened. Forgive me!" said again. His eyes stared at Cempaka.

"Maybe we are not a match" said Cempaka, after he took a deep breath and exhaled again. He hoped, his little burden would go along with his breath.

"Don't say that!" samudera's hand ration was taped to his lips Cempaka. He did not want to hear the words coming out of his mouth.

"I hope, one day we will unite" said Ocean

slowly.

Clear circles fell from the corner of his eyes Cempaka. Maybe as the answer.

"Save your tears, I wish you'd forgive me." In the wipe of the tears that drenched Cempaka's cheeks.

"You're innocent, I should be the one to ask you to forgive me. Because I am the one you do that. Forgive my parents, too, for letting you down and hurting your heart" he said.

"I want to be back with you, I don't want to live with a woman I don't love.

You want to take me again?"

Ocean hopes.

"You just married her, even if it was forced. It's not that I don't love you

it's not like I don't want to take you back. But I don't want a wounded heart. Stay with him, even if we are not united. But, my love and affection are only for you" said Cempaka lirih.

"Your heart is very noble, it makes me love and love you so much" said Samudera.

I want Cempaka to tell a lie about the village of Jangkurang. However, he did not want to add the burden of suffering to the Ocean.

He did not want to incite a slogan, on top of the wound that had not dried. He didn't want the wound to go back open before it dried.

Let him bear the burden of that pain. Let it be painful

that thin cut his heart.

"I want to go to the obras shop" said Cempaka, after some of their sa'at mute. An atmosphere enveloped the hearts and feelings of the two of them.

"I still want to be with you. Allow me to accompany you"

sahut Samudera pmemplek.

Cempaka nodded his head in agreement.

"I don't want to part with you anymore" he whispered.

However, Cempaka realized, if now the Ocean already has.

"I didn't hear it, can you repeat it again? I want to hear it clearly" the Ocean asked for it.

"Already ah.., come on! It will be noon, hot in the way." take Cempaka while getting up from his seat.

They finally walked together, side by side. Removing the longing that is shackled in lies.

And.., that togetherness might be the last time.