Not as Beautiful as Angan

Cempaka shut himself up

Cempaka view melang - lang buana somewhere.

His mind floated far away until it pierced into the clouds.

"I didn't think for a moment, why did you and mom get that much money on me?" Cempaka muttered to himself.

"Nearly two years is not a short time. They tricked me, lied to me without caring about my heart and feelings. What is their heart made of? I have been hit by the suffering of my own family since I was born, am I the biological child of my parents or only an adopted child?" Cempaka muttered with tears on his cheeks.

He began to feel sidelined, felt in his son, felt unthinkable.

"My presence in this house is no longer considered, everything no one cares about me anymore, as well as my mother and father, they even participate in this lie" he murmured again.

"This house, which I take care of every day, I take care of, seems to be no longer a comfortable home for me"

"Now, I'm like everyone else in my parents' house"

"This room only makes my heart ache, my suffering for the sake of suffering has been shed by the cries in this room, I can't stand all the pain my family deliberately inflicted on my heart"

Because of the disappointment is very, to make Cempaka have a prejudice that is not to both his parents and his family.

His daydreams go back to the past, where he will be proposed by Buana.

"If my sister Bunga had kindly allowed me to be lamar Buana, there was no way I would have experienced the heartache and disappointment that I am today"

"Because of my sister's selfishness, Buana finally chose another woman, the house that used to be in the house - the house that was for me to live with Buana after we got married, now occupied by others. How unfortunate is my fate"

"Why then did my father and mother disagree with the ocean? Had I been allowed to choose the Ocean for Buana's replacement, maybe I wouldn't have experienced the name being stepped on without asking my permission. All the disappointments that I experienced, starting from my own family, first because of the selfishness of my brother, my selfish sister Bunga, wants to always win alone"

"Luck my second heart, it's still my family's ego, too. My mom and dad. Wh why? Why must father and mother, who must incite disappointment in my heart for the second time, why?"

"Working Carnation, I'm sincere, I'm fine because Carnation asked me for permission. And, I realized because at that time I still did not have a partner. But why is there a lie behind it in the end? Why not be frank with me?" Question after question began to appear in his mind Cempaka.

"I ordered it to the upper room. I can't watch Carnation's engagement even though I forced her. Apparently, this is the reason. Means, it was not just an event fiancee, but the wedding event Carnation with Lightning, I really did not expect" Cempaka memory back to sa'at event fiancee Anyelir.

The more in memory, the more pain felt the wound that stained in the recesses of his heart Cempaka.

"When the father of the same mother, went to the invitation, could it be the wedding of Carnation which was held in her family home Lightning? At that time I was not allowed to come, on the grounds that I had to work. While Kilat and Seruni were invited by Anyelir to see his grandmother Lightning who was said to be sick, sister Bunga and sister Kenari also participated, only I who stayed at home, only I who stayed at home, because I can't come. Oh my God, what kind of family is this?"

"Everybody fooled me. To lie to me so much, all that made me disappointed, they worked together to hurt my heart and my feelings, they, my own family broke my feelings, I really didn't think"

The more remembered, the more tight his chest felt Cempaka.

A deep heart wound, which with all his might, Cempaka tried to forget him. But now that wound

in the back, by a thin sliver.

It's so painful, it feels painful!

"Sir! This how? It seems like Cempaka is really angry and disappointed with all of us"

Said Bu Sekar worried.

"Emh, you also feel confused ma'am" Sahut pak Jati anyway.

"Mom, how's this? I was afraid that Brother Cempaka would not forgive me" Anyelir said softly, his cries already

no more tears.

Only his stuff remains.

"For this sa'at, just leave him alone in his room, maybe he needs to be alone" said Mr. Jati.

"But, sir! I feel so guilty about this. My sister reminded him at the time. But, the mother did not obey him even a little, now the mother regrets because of the incident"

"The heart of our child is getting hurt, it feels difficult to heal it. Because, the wound in his heart was not once, but we have repeatedly incised the wound in the recesses of his heart. I can't face my own son, because of mom's fault"

Bu Sekar has now understood what is being experienced by Cempaka, the heart of Cempaka who was torn by his own family, Bu Sekar also now feel the pain.

*

Until it was time for dinner, Cempaka still did not want to come out of his room.

" Cempaka, it's time for dinner, son!" Bu Sekar tried to call him. However, there was no response from Cempaka.

"Tokay! Geck! Geck! Son, eat first!" He said again, knocking on the door.

Still no answer.

" Maybe he's sleeping, ma'am" said Mr. Jati.

"Come on, let's hope he sleeps" Sahut bu Sekar.

The parents then returned to the dining room. There is already Anyelir and his two younger siblings, Lightning and Seruni.

Carnations deliberately did not return to his father-in-law's house. He deliberately stayed at his mother's house, because he wanted to ask ma'af to Cempaka.

This afternoon after Cempaka entered his room, Lightning came to pick Anyelir up.

"Assalamualaikum" Lightning said a greeting before she walked into her in-laws' house.

"Waalaikumsalam, let's go, brother!" Sahut Lightning, she immediately greeted him cheerfully. He was happiest when lightning came to his house.

"You nginep? How come! Suddenly the plan?" Lightning wonder.

"Usually you do not say he likes to be lazy if you sleep here, afraid of the same brother Cempaka, now tumben want to nginep? What's up?" The lightning returned asking out of curiosity.

"Because Brother Lightning is also here, we must immediately solve this problem as soon as possible" said Anyelir made a question mark for Lightning.

"What the hell is it? How come! Like a puzzle" Lightning asked.

"It's not a riddle, brother! But, this is the truth. Brother Cempaka asked about us" said Anyelir.

"meaning?" The lightning was shocked

His mind was already on his wedding.

"Sir Cempaka accidentally heard our conversation, maybe so shocked and certainly his heart was injured and very disappointed, he fell unconscious for almost two hours. I feel so guilty, I'm so scared, I'm sorry" said Carnation slowly with her head bowed.

"What's? So, Cempaka already knows everything?" Lightning was surprised to hear it.

"Yes, what should we do? I'm so sorry, why at that time we did not ask permission before we held our wedding" Carnations very Worried looks.

"Had it all happened, I didn't agree at the time either. Only, my mother who insisted, my father could not do much if my mother already wanted to be followed. Mother is selfish" said Lightning, she blamed her mother.

"Why do you blame your mother?" Carnations are upset.

"Yes, because it was all the advice of my mother, who had intended to propose to you, eeh finally said my mother must all with the marriage contract, all walimahan only. My mother is afraid that the events of five years ago will repeat themselves again" Lightning said.

"What happened five years ago?" Bu Sekar asked in wonder.

"Five years ago, my sister got engaged, the plan was after the fiancee, another year they would have their wedding. However, it was only a plan, because before even one year, my sister's future wife was betrothed by her father"

"Why can? His father must have known that his son was fiancee, and wanted to marry another year, strange!" Anyelir said in disbelief.

"Yes already know, but after a few months of the engagement, my sister's future-in-law met again with her old best friend, best friend since school from school to work together. They were separated because my father was transferred to this area until now. Since then, the friendship was forced to be cut off, while they have committed to match their children"

"The commitment was formed suddenly, when his fiancee Kak Prima was born. While his future friend Kak Prima already had a son who was only four years old at that time. "Because your son is a girl, how about we get besanan? My son is a boy" and his parents Kak Prima's fiancee immediately agreed"

Continue Lightning.

"Their years apart, then Kak Lintang met with Kak Prima when they first schooled. From high school to college they were together until finally engaged. Both of his parents, Kak Lintang, forgot his promise with his best friend. And, a few months after they got engaged, they met again. Apparently, his best friend his parents Kak Lintang was already one year in the city of Bandung, only they are not one office like before.

Because of that meeting, they remembered their agreement long ago"

"Sister Latitude immediately want to be betrothed?" Ask Carnation.

"Initially he did not want to, but over time because it continued to be persuaded, in the sedu, finally because of fear of insubordination if not obedient to parents, fearing that his parents felt disappointed, because they were disappointed, with a heavy heart finally Kak Lintang want to be paired with his father's best friend's son" Lightning continued his words.

"That's what made my mother marry us right away.

Because, my mother did not want the same incident to happen again to her other child, namely me. Since Kak Lintang married someone else, Kak Prima so so so. He seemed reluctant to have another serious relationship with someone. He felt betrayed, hurt and disappointed" Lightning ended his speech.

"Ooh, so that's what made your parents take steps to get us married right away. But, why not just say it to both my parents, and also to my brother? I think, if at that time both your parents frankly said the real reason, maybe this will not be the case" Anyelir deeply regretted his actions in-laws.

"That time also Brother Prima suggested so. But my mother would not listen to him. Even say know what you are? You yourself have not been able to find a wife for yourself, said my mother at that time. In fact, brother Prima did not hinder my marriage, because I was already three heads, then for the time being brother Prima did not want to talk about marriage. He wants to really look for those who are ready to receive it, he does not want to experience the same thing as before" continued Lightning.

"Very dear, my brother!" Carnation.

"When we got engaged, our family didn't know that you had a sister who had the fate of my brother. If only we had known before, maybe we would have betrothed Prima to your sister, after that we just got married. That way, surely Brother Cempaka will not be betrayed by his own family, and we will not feel guilty" said Lightning.

"Yes, why didn't your parents speak to us? Perhaps we will consider it" Bu Sekar asked with a slight annoyance.

"Said my mother was afraid to reveal it, afraid even her proposal was not accepted" said Lightning.

"It should not be so, before we decide something, we must think first, try first in talking carefully, do not just make our own decisions. As it is now, so we are suffering and there is one more heart that is suffering, he was disappointed very much, his heart and soul was broken because of the rash actions of your parents" Continue Bu Sekar, spilling resentment in his heart.

"Yes ma'am, I asked for a big ma'af, because I don't know anything, I just obey the wishes and concerns of my parents. Previously, I also wanted to collect enough money first for our provisions after marriage later. However, my mother would not listen to me or Prima, as a child, we could not do much. Because, we are afraid of sin, and as a child, we are afraid of disobedience" Lightning said.

Bu Sekar mangosteen-beard sign understand. His heart was now irritated at his Besannya.

For some sa'at, they were silent speechless. Everyone was silent with their thoughts.

"You want to go, right? We'll wait for Cempaka's brother to come out of his room"

"It seems unnecessary, there are already you who represent" Lightly once the voice of Lightning. It seemed that he was unwilling to directly ask Cempaka for ma'af.

"Cock! So did sich say it?" Emotional carnation.

"I'll have to work, if I leave from here in the distance. Where I don't bring a uniform anymore" Lightning explained.

"Just send my greetings and ma'af requests to Brother Cempaka" said Lightning.

"Well then, be careful"

"Mom, sir, Lightning, Seruni, I'll go home first, Assalamualaikum"

"Waalaikumsalam" Our permission.

The lightning left his father-in-law's house.

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