Not as Beautiful as Angan

Remembered by the past

"Mom, how is this? I don't like the guy, I don't know him either" Cempaka complained to his mother.

"I guess you don't want to?"

"No, ma'am, it feels weird. Masa, just saw the photo! Get married to me, weird right?"

"What, don't don't don't?" Bu Sekar stopped his words, his eyes looking at Cempaka.

"Don't - don't what, ma'am?"

"As has been" Bu Sekar reminded Cempaka of the behavior of Kenari long ago.

"Yes mom, I'm scared too"

"Then, how is this? Reply not to the letter? I was confused, mom. If it's returned, it means I want to be with him. But, if not in reply, I also know for myself what kind of kak Kenari? He must have vilified me again everywhere, just like it used to be" Cempaka became confused himself.

"May you read the letter?"

"This is ma'am, please" Cempaka gave the letter to his mother.

"Lha? It's like applying for his words. How is that walnut? Without asking the person first"

"I have to how's mom?"

"Mother's as well"

"Eh, you know what. You have not met the same person and you do not want to be with him. Yes, just say frankly if you don't like" said Bu Sekar after a moment of silence.

"Or put it this way, you just reply to his letter as a friend, nothing more than that" continued bu Sekar.

"Oh yes ma'am, that's the answer! Thank you mom" Cempaka shook her mother's shoulders, so happy. Because her mother found the answer.

"Hopefully with the answer to that simple sentence, he will understand" said Bu Sekar.

"Yes mom, I'll try. And, I'd be a little bit of a lie if I had a candidate, no nothing, ma'am, a little bit of a lie for our safety?" Cempaka asked for his mother's opinion.

"God is nothing"

"Thank you ma'am, then I want to take a bath first is too late in the afternoon, soon want to enter Maghrib prayer time" Cempaka a little calm.

"Yes my son"

Cempaka passed to the bathroom. While Bu Sekar continued his knitting that had stopped.

"Cenary - walnut, what else is on your mind? Hopefully this time he really fights for his sister, hopefully there are no ends as it has been" Bu Sekar hoped in his murmur.

After bathing, Cempaka reopened the letter given by the Walnut earlier. He read it again and again. She looked for a corner in her heart that there might be a bit of hope in accepting her love.

But many times he tried. But, he did not find it, because it was indeed a sense that it was not there for him. There is even a sense of worry and worry that envelops his heart and feelings.

"Ah, lazy me. I am not at all interested in all the words he has spoken in this article. I regret reading it too. Unlike when acquainted with Buana and the Ocean first, everything was so beautiful to make my heart beat erratically"

"Well, Ocean, why is it that none of you are my soul mate? Of the two, there is a match in me. But, why only come a glimpse in my life? Why are there so many obstacles to be with him, why God?"

"If I had been determined to accept Buana or the Ocean with no regard for my family, I might not be as miserable and miserable as I am today" The fear of Cempaka even melanglang buana considering the two lovers who had once stopped in his heart.

"Women who are always gentle when greeting me, he never leaves congregational prayer in the Mosque, even though it is raining heavily. Buana who is polite and always take care of me, he never messed with me, he who does not worship and always keep his company. That's what attracted me to him. Ma'am, how are you, baby? Do you still remember me? Your first love. I'm so hard to forget about you, my first love" Cempaka dissolves into her memories with Buana, her first love.

He also cried remembering the time, a time that greatly made his heart and feelings shattered.

His eyes glanced through the ceiling of his room, like there was something he was looking for. There was not a word to reply to a love letter from Karmin, a person he had never met, a person he had never met.

"The fabric of my love with Buana, extinct already by his selfishness sister Bunga. There is no way I can get her love anymore. At that time I had given up my heart and my feelings were broken by Brother Bunga. Why would anyone come to replace Buana, my parents insisted on being ashamed of their neighbors. Just because Buana hasn't given me a broken statement yet. Though in fact Buana was married to another woman because of the tradition of ktp resistance in the area where Buana was assigned" Gumam Cempaka lirih.

"The good Ocean, who was persistent in fighting for her love for me, was willing to suffer just from looking for me, looking for her love that my parents had hidden in my own room. I'm guilty of that, why did I let him go to look for me out of town? And he came home empty-handed, forgive me the ocean, forgive me!" Cempaka cried again, regretting all he had done to the Ocean.

"Why did I stay in my room? While in the living room I heard he was going to come looking for me out of town. How stupid I was then! Ocean, where are you now? Wherever you are, please forgive me! At that time I was afraid my parents had problems with his family Buana. Forgive me Ocean, maybe my life is like this because I'm guilty of you, me and my parents have hurt your feelings" Tears of regret fell rolling from the corner of his round eyes.

"Samudera, if we could meet, I would like to ask you for a sincere apology, so that my life would not be burdened by this shadow of regret. I'm sorry for rejecting you by lying to you, even though I love you, even if it's for my parents. Actually I hope you're my Buana's replacement who has become someone else's" whispered Cempaka to the wind that greeted him through his bedroom window.

"Trease! You slept?"

The voice of the canary spread the dream Cempaka.

"Tokay! Geck! Geck! Champaka! Open door!" Repeated Kenari while knocking on her bedroom door Cempaka repeatedly.

"Emh, my eldest brother wants something else? Night - night like this, his work only disturbs people" Cempaka grumbled annoyed himself. At least he does not remember the letter given by Kenari this afternoon.

Cempaka did not immediately answer or open the door of his room, he instead looked at his photo Buana and Samudera, two men who had and still loved him to this day.

"Just past the Maghrib he's asleep!" Ngedumel.

"Maybe she's tired, so overslept" Ms. Sekar defended her.

"I'm here to make sure about the reply letter from him, make it mas Karmin. Pity him not to go back to Indramayu, because he wants to know his happy reply from Cempaka"

Said Canary While stomping her buttocks on the chair in the middle room.

"Mom doesn't know that problem either. As far as mother knows, the problem of love is his business with the heart, can not be forced" said Bu Sekar trying to advise him.

" For the age of Cempaka today, it is no longer important with matters of heart and love, the most important thing is that there are men who want to marry him, that's all!" Walnuts.

"Can't be so! Why is that Cempaka? Until it has to be. As if there was no self-respect anymore. You must not be so insolent as to judge your own sister! He's fine, it's okay, he doesn't embarrass the family! Matrimony is God who rules! It's as if you said that, just so it's okay!" Bu Sekar ignited his emotions hearing the words of Kenari who disfigured Cempaka.

"Yes if you want Cempaka to be single, so a spinster and do not do any good, I will not interfere, it's up to you if you feel comfortable having a single child" Said Walnut as it passed from before his mother.

"Based on a brat! Don't know manners!" Bu Sekar ngedumel accompanied the steps of Kenari.

"If the Cempaka won't reply, let me make a reply! Bodo! The important thing is that he should marry the Karmin! At any rate" muttered Cempaka in a furious manner.

Upon arrival at home, Kenari immediately picked up the paper and ballpoint, she would write a reply letter to Karmin.

"To Karmin whose presence I wait day and night. Always present in my dreams.

It turns out that now is the time for God to send a prince of worship in my life, I am willing to be your wife, as soon as I wait for your presence! From me who always longs for a man's love and affection, I'm waiting for you" Kenari wrote those words to reply to Karmin's letter.

"It seems that the words are suitable for Karmin, he will definitely like and immediately flowered his heart. Cempaka, you won't reply to her, let me return the favor, and tomorrow morning I'll give it to the Karmin with a note, that it's a letter from my beautiful sister, Cempaka the village flower" Walnuts smiley - his own smile, his hands busy folding a reply letter to Karmin.

He was so happy to use his sister's name.

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