Not as Beautiful as Angan

Feeling in anaktirkan

The next day, before the arrival of the dawn prayer time, as usual Cempaka was awake from his sleep.

If first after waking up and praying tahajud, Cempaka likes to wash dishes, wash clothes, cook rice, sweep the floor and mop it. Then after the morning prayer, he went out, sweeping and mopping the front porch, side and back porch.

Lastly he swept the lawn and watered the plants. After that, he took a shower and washed his clothes.

It is a routine activity Cempaka every day.

Cleaning the glass and ironing, he works once a week.

Almost all homework, Cempaka did it.

But now, after he was hit with deep and continuous betrayal and disappointment by those closest to him, namely his own family, all the routines he immediately abandoned drastically.

Of course, this makes the whole family miserable. Especially Carnation, which became the culprit of all those problems.

" Light wake up! Seruni's awake!" Carnations shouted while banging on the door of his room Seruni and his room Lightning which was located next to each other.

"What the hell is it about Carnation? Shouting so, noisily know!" Lightning came out of his room while mengedumel.

"Yes, this Carnation Brother is not like Cempaka, he never screams and banged on the door of the room if it wakes us up, is it not Kak Kilat?" Seruni compared her two brothers.

"Yes, if Brother Cempaka wakes us up gently, he goes into our room. Then mumbles the prophet sholawat, or listen to the holy verses of the Qur'an, not noisy like the brother of Carnations" said Lightning while turning his lips.

Anyelir was silent to the protests of his two younger siblings.

It is true that his brother this one, never fuss if waking up his younger siblings, including if he woke himself while still in school first.

"Yes, don't fuck around! Now there, take the water first! It's five o'clock" Carnation's orders to his two younger siblings.

"Yes brother" Lightning and Seruni then went to the bathroom, about to take ablution water.

"After the dawn prayer, Seruni nyapu! The lightning that mopped him! Brother wants to wash the dishes" Shouted Carnations, when his two sisters had returned from the bathroom.

"Noisy Brother! It's good to tell us to shake and mop, brother Cempaka is great! Everything was done alone, not shouting to tell others" Sumpul Seruni was upset.

"Everything because of brother Anyelir the same brother Lightning, so brother Cempaka angry, we get affected" said Kilat sewot.

"Pity of brother Cempaka, so he shut himself up in his room. From yesterday he did not want to eat, try if sister Anyelir does not make problems, the house every day is clean and tidy. Brother Cempaka is great"

Said Lightning while giving her two thumbs.

"I'm very sorry about Cempaka, he's a diligent brother, good and not bring kayak Kak Anyelir. Kak Cempaka is not fierce like Bunga and Kak Kenari" said Seruni, judging one by one his brothers.

"Kak Kenari and kak Bunga are like stepmothers, I'm horrified!" Said Lightning while bergidig horrified.

"Ha! Ha! Ha! If Brother Bunga and sister Kenari know we again talk about them, can be used with water one bucket, we" said Lightning while laughing.

"I'm afraid Brother Lightning, suddenly Brother Bunga and sister Kenari nongol at the door"

Seruni ran to her room, frightened by her own delusion.

You brat!

Meanwhile, Cempaka, who was in his room, was thinking hard. He wants to be free from the atmosphere of the house that is not conducive to him.

"I have to find an escape that will allow me to get rid of all the turmoil in my life. But how is it?" Thought Cempaka after he finished wiridan.

He was still sitting on his tongue.

Not as usual.

Usually after the completion of dawn prayer, he always struggled with all his routines.

But now all that routine he just took off.

Because of his disappointment, he does not remember all his routines. All he remembered now was disappointment, heartache and the destruction of his soul for the umpteenth time.

"Light! Let's go get the floor broom!" Shouted Anyelir startled Lightning who was folding the holster and the alphabet.

"Why is this Carnation? Usually just screaming, not like sister Cempaka" Rutuk Kilat very upset.

Lightning did not come out of his room, he was cleaning up in his room. As Cempaka always commanded..

Every morning after the dawn prayer, clean up in the room, the bed is neatened, the floor on the broom, the table and the bed on the dust rag.

"Oh, Lightning! Why stay in the room? Hurry up, mop up the floor!" Carnations were heard shouting again, louder than before.

"Germany!" Carnations call his youngest sister.

"I'm in bed again" Shouted Seruni from inside his room.

"It's about six o'clock, I can just wash the dishes, not yet cooked rice, not washed clothes, not yet nyapu, menggel and menggelapin home furniture. If sister Cempaka is not angry like this, most I help dry clothes and porch, it turns out that the task of sister Cempaka is a lot, every day she does this all alone without complaining, she said, without asking for help from his brothers"

Carnations pensive alone.

He only realized how important the existence of his brother who had been in pain.

"Germany! A lightning! Help brother! Hurry up?"

Shouted Carnations again, because his two younger siblings had not come out of his room yet.

"What's the carnation? Still early in the morning rame yells, embarrassed by the neighbors!" Bu Sekar reprimanded him.

"Seruni is the same Lightning does not want to help me" Anyelir complained to his mother.

"They usually clean and clean the room, nyepu and mengepel usually Cempaka who does everything" said Bu Sekar lirih.

"Yes ma'am, when I was not married also all the homework, such as nyapu, mopping, washing dishes and washing clothes, nyapu yard, ironing and so on brother Cempaka who did it. He was a good brother, diligent and affectionate to his sisters. But why do we hurt her heart and her feelings?" The new carnation realized it.

"Yes son, mother is also hassles and cape if not your brother who does everything. Indeed we are wrong, we do not care how he feels, I'm sorry your mother is my son" Ms. Sekar regretted it now.

"Everything before doing must be considered first the consequences, now all has happened. Means we have to dare responsibility, because we have dared to do" said Jati sir suddenly already there.

" Just one day Cempaka does not want to do the routine, we are too late. This means, the presence of Cempaka is very important and very meaningful for us" said Mr. Jati again.

"Yes, now don't talk, when do you want it done? Come on Carnation, you just wipe. Don't do heavy work! You will be pregnant young" Ms. Sekar reminded.

"Yes ma'am"

"Mother wants to wash the rice first" Bu Sekar divided the task.

"I don't think your job is so much, son! You mean so much to us, just one day you don't want to do all this, it's all abandoned. Champaca,. Cempaka ma'afuse us my son" Bu Sekar sat down limp.

"Today, I want to make Brother Cempaka forgive me" said Anyelir.

"Mother also hopes so" Sahut bu Sekar.

"After taking over his job, then you feel the weight of the work that has been done by Cempaka himself" said Mr. Jati.

Ma'am Sekar was silent and did not answer. His heart felt so guilty.

*

Last day Cempaka locked himself in his room.

He only comes out during prayer time.

He would not eat anything at all.

"Son, you have not wanted to eat a day, I am worried that you will get sick" Ms. Sekar said to her concerns.

"There's nothing to worry about, ma'am. I'm used to pain, especially heartache" Cempaka said from inside her room. He did not open the door to his room.

"Don't worry because I don't want to eat, ma'am. When you let me down and hurt my heart, no one is worried, right? Why now, just because you don't eat, you're worried?"

The phrase slid freely from Cempaka's mouth.

Because his heart and soul felt hurt, Cempaka who complacent, never denied, can now express his frustration.

"Son! Didn't you hear me wrong?"

His eyes began to glaze over.

"No ma'am, like a mother who covers up lies about Carnations" said Cempaka.

"Cempaka, I ask ma'af" said Bu Sekar slowly.

"Nothing to forgive, ma'am"

Cempaka Sahut.

"Then, come out a little while baby, mother wants to talk, and your sister also wants to ask ma'af" said Bu Sekar again.

"I'll be out soon, ma'am" Cempaka said.

"Eat first, yu! Mom cooks your favorite side dishes" Ms. Sekar seduced her so Cempaka would get out of her room, and eat together.

"Please ma'am, I'm not hungry" said Cempaka.

Mom was silent, she was speechless.

"Sir, how is this? Mother was afraid that Cempaka would get sick" Worry was evident in the look on her face.

"That's it, ma'am, let it go first. Later he will also be as usual again, after which he can control his emotions. He may want to calm down, want to be alone first" said Mr. Jati.

"Yes sir" said Bu Sekar.

" What do I do, mom?" Carnation asked worriedly.

"Wait for your sister to come out"

Sahut bu Sekar's.

"That means I have to do it again?" Ask Carnations as they are less like.

"Yes nothing here a few days, count mother's help. You know, the work that your brother used to do is a lot, as long as your brother is upset, yes you have to change to do it, because all this is a little you are the culprit, he said, so complicated everything because of you!" Said Bu Sekar with annoyance.

"Yes mom, I'm sorry mom! I'm the one guilty of "Sahut Carnation.

" Is it possible that I'm not his father's and mother's son?" Benak Cempaka is prejudiced in that direction.

"If I'm not a father and a mother, then who am I?" Cempaka Gumam.

"I need to know the truth, who are my parents? Whose child am I?" He murmured again, laughing somewhere.

"I'd better ask this all to mom and dad, let it be clear everything" muttered Cempaka, he looked at his face in the mirror, his eyes looked as big as his eyes because all night he cried.

"Alright, I have to ask about this" Cempaka immediately got up from his seat, slowly stepping his feet towards the door of his room.

"Simple!" The door handle of his room in his grasp, slowly Cempaka opened the door of his room.

"Sister! Thank God finally brother came out too, I want to ask ma'af brother"

Seeing Cempaka open the door of his room, Anyelir immediately approached his brother.

Cempaka pretended not to hear it, he continued to step his feet towards the kitchen, he said,

He was looking for his mother and father.

"Mom, sir!" After Cempaka found him in the backyard.

"Eyeh, Champaka! Thank God you're out, son! Here son! I miss it very much" Bu Sekar welcomed Cempaka happily.

Cempaka then sat down in front of his parents.

"Your eyes look puffy, son! Forgive us for making

You suffer and you are disappointed"

Slowly, Bu Sekar said.

"Yes ma'am, sir nothing" said Cempaka.

"You haven't eaten since yesterday, we'd better eat first, yu!" Bu Sekar invites Cempaka to eat.

"No, ma'am, I'm not hungry"

Cempaka.

"There's something I need to ask mom, sir"

Says Cempaka seriously.

"What do you want to ask, son?"

Bu Sekar asked in wonder.

"When I am, whose son is mom?" Cempaka asked firmly.

"What's? It means what you ask

Like that" Bu Sekar and Pak Jati were shocked to hear Cempaka's question.

"I want to know who my father and mother are" Cempaka said again.

"What else is this? I really don't understand what you're asking!" Said bu Sekar.

"Who am I, ma'am, sir? Who are my parents? And where are they?" Cempaka asked back about his parents.

"You mother's son and father, son! These are both your parents!"

"It seems I do not feel that I am a mother and father's son" said Cempaka lirih.

"Why do you say that?" Bu Sekar embraces his son.

"If I am a mother and father, why do mothers and fathers not treat the same as other mothers' children?" The question that really made the hearts of the two parents fell to the top of his heart.

"What are you talking about, son? Mother and father never discriminated against all our children. Mother never chose to love" Ms. Sekar panicked with a question from Cempaka.

"Who did you get your incitement from, son? Until you dare to talk like that?"

Furthermore, Bu Sekar, he was worried that his son was instigating him.

"No sedition, mother. There is only the kind of treatment that I received, so I feel that I am not the real child of you two" Sahut Cempaka.

"Jed outside!"

Cempaka's words felt so bad to the hearing of the two old men. It was like hearing lightning during the day.

"Trease! How dare you say that? Why do you think that? You didn't think for a second, that you were going to ask this? Something not to ask! Because you are our real son! This mother of yours conceived and gave birth to you!" Mr. Jati emotion heard his words Cempaka.

Cempaka was silent, he digested the words of Mr. Jati.

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