
After hearing all the explanations of Ms. Asih. I was no longer eager to work. I just wanted to go home to see my mother soon.
Upon arrival at home. I immediately clean myself. The plan I want to go to market. I want to shop and cook good, hopefully mom happy.
Now I was preparing to go to the market, but when I came out of the room, I passed by my mother. did my question last night benar2 have made my mother's feelings hurt?
"Mother, I'm sorry for all my mistakes all along. I'm sorry if I've been bothering you a lot. I promise I'll never ask you that again." I said while holding my mother's hand.
There was no answer from mom, but I saw her tears fall.she looked at me with an expressionless look, just the emptiness that I saw in my eyes. he let go of my hand and immediately passed from before me.
O Allah. I beg to heal the mother from trauma, and return the soul of my mother who used to be.Do not inflict sadness on her. have enough suffering.let the mother be happy, Lord. My prayer in my heart
I immediately went out, and went to the market to shop with my salary money yesterday.I will cook my mother's favorite food.
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After I finished cooking, I immediately called my mother to eat. I hope you like all my cooking. maybe I can not make you happy. but I wish there was just a little smile on the lips of the woman who means so much in my life.
"Mom, we eat first yuk. mom must be hungry. sorry ma'am, this morning I did not have time to cook, but today I cooked my favorite side dish Mother. mother must like."
Mom just kept quiet but she followed my steps.she immediately sat on the dining chair. "You cook delicious2 like this is not wasteful? later your money runs out quickly and not enough for one week," said mother let out her voice.
"It's okay, Mom, just calm down. will my salary this week more than last Sunday, so everything is enough anyway starting tomorrow, starting tomorrow, I will be more active and eager to make money so that I can always cook good food for mother." I replied with a smile.
I saw my mother looking at me with a sad look. like there was something she wanted to say, but her tongue was too meek, so that Kata2 did not reach my audience. but what made me distrustful and very happy, that is, my mother pulled the tip of her lips slightly to smile.
Thank God, I can finally carve a smile on my lips.
We ate soon, there were no more sounds or questions that I asked because I already knew what was the cause of my mother acting like that to me.
I have to be more patient.I want to try to restore half the soul of the mother who was lost because of her dark past.
After finishing eating. Mom immediately left the dining table. she went back into her room.yes, that's how her daily activities.before I knew all about Mother.I was always surprised and asked questions. why mothers do not want to socialize and why mothers are very comfortable reducing themselves in the room.
After I finished cleaning the dining table, I wanted to sit outside for the wind, because this afternoon was very sultry, but when I passed my mother's room my curiosity came. I opened the door to his room slowly.
I saw my mother smoking and stared straight out the window.I immediately went in and approached my mother.I sat next to her and took a cigarette in her hand, and I turned off the cigarette. I don't care if you're angry with me.
"It! why are you throwing away that cigarette?! you don't bother me. You better get out now!" sniffed mom at me
"I'm not going out Mom. I'm going to stay here. Mom can't be like this. Because with mom smoking and confining herself in the room. it won't lessen the burden on mom's mind."
Mom looked back at me in anger. "Do you know what you are with the burden of my mind? now you come out!"
"I know Mom. I know with the burden of mother's mind. I also know with mother's feelings. But until when do you want to punish yourself? isn't life going to go on, ma'am, but why are you still so late with mom's past?"
"Mom, I beg you. immediately rise from all the slump and trauma of the mother's past. Please don't be like this anymore Mom, I love you very much. I just want to see you smile and happy." I cupped my palms together with tears that were already flowing, and begged my mother
at that moment, my mother let her down. she cried with a whim.and I sat down before her. "Mother, I beg you not to cry again.I will always be there for mother.I will never leave mother.even I am willing to do anything so that mother can be happy and smile."
I hugged my mother's fragile body and my tears broke again. Because I felt my mother also returned my embrace.
"I'm sorry Mom, son. I'm sorry if all this time mom has hurt your feelings a lot.even mother deliberately has made you a stupid girl.all mom do. because mom is afraid to lose you Nia. I'm afraid that someday you'll leave mom. You'll be ashamed to have a mom like me."
"No Ma'am. Don't think that way.I never regretted being an illiterate and stupid woman.and I also never regretted being born a child without a nasab. I will never leave my mother because I only have my mother.I love my mother very much."
"Rania, Son.. Hiks..hiks.pardon mom son.sorry for all the abusive attitude of mother all this time. mother loves you very much son.even every waking up. mother always make sure that you are still with mom. I'm so scared if you suddenly leave mom."
"Nia, you don't be afraid, son. I promise to find you a good mate, and who can accept all your shortcomings, believe me son! I want to see your happiness."
"No Ma'am! mom don't think about it. I don't think about it. Now all I want is to live happily with mom. Even if I don't have a life partner, it doesn't matter to me."
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