My Wife is a Letter Blind

Mother's Anger

"Nia, wake up. Let's get up! mom's hungry, let's cook there!"

I woke up when my shoulders shook, I slowly opened my eyes. It was my mother who woke me up

"Ah, yes ma'am." I immediately woke up while fixing my hair

"Nia, you've received the money, haven't you? where's mom asking for more money on your groceries."

I immediately took my salary that I had not been able to give to my mother. "this is Mom. This is all my salary is still intact, because I have not been shopping, and my salary this week is quite good Mom," I said while giving the money to my mother.I hope that she will smile and be nice to me a little bit.

"Good.the work must be diligent in order to get a lot of money.this you save money shopping, mom take it this way."

Mother took some of the notes, and gave the rest to me for the groceries I would usually bring tomorrow to the market.

After taking the money, my mother came back out of my room and I could only smile bitterly, "Ah, O Allah. I still could not make my mother smile at me. but it's okay.I believe someday mom will definitely love me." I encourage myself.I can't be sad, I have to be tough

Now I started cooking for dinner. It was too late, because I was so tired today, so I fell asleep. I just cooked the ingredients in the kitchen. although simple but I am very grateful because Allah still gives us halal sustenance.

After my cooking is finished, I immediately serve it on the dining table that should have asked to be replaced, but just be grateful for everything in this house.

May Allah grant me abundant sustenance, that I may replace all the furniture of this house, and even I may buy a nice housewife, so we will not have to contract any more. my intention is in the heart, may Allah listen to my good intentions.Aamiin O Allah

After all, I immediately called my mother in her room.But when I opened the door to the room.I was so shocked, I saw my mother smoking.

I'm approaching mom soon. "Oh my God, mom. Why do you smoke? since when is mom like this? it's not good for Mom's health." I love you.

"Here is Nia. You must not interfere in my affairs! do you know what you know about my health? even until now I am still sick, you will never feel it! that's where you came out!" mom snaps at me. Mom looks at me with hate

I went back to the dinner table with tears already floating on my eyes. What exactly makes a mother like that, God? why have I never seen my mother happy? why does Mom hate me so much? many questions in my mind.

My tears just fell. I always asked in my heart what I was hiding from me.

"No need to cry, don't be a whiny woman" said the mother who suddenly came

I wiped my tears and immediately I gave the mother a plate. We finally ate quietly. There was no sound but my curiosity came back.

"Mom, why don't you ever smile? am I the child you don't want? Why does Mom hate me so much? if you don't like me. Why don't you just give me to my dad? then mom doesn't need to"

Brakk!!!

"Shut up! Shut up!!. stop your rant. Don't ever talk about it again. You'll never know. with what I feel!"

Mother kicked the dinner table, she was so angry.she immediately left me alone at the dining table.I stared at the departure of mother with tears that returned to the river.I immediately cleaned the dining table.

I immediately went into the room, back to my tears broke. My chest felt so tight. I opened the wooden window of my room, and I let the night breeze in to boil my sad face, and I let the night breeze come in, I hope this pain and tightness in my chest will go away carried away by the wind.

I was still at home staring out. I stared at the darkness of the night, there was no light, everything looked so dark like my heart at this moment. I don't know how long I spilled the tightness in my chest, I didn't see it, so I feel the salty liquid on my eyelids no longer flowing.

Now the night was getting late.I felt the breeze of the night that was no longer healthy entered through the window of my room that was still wide open.I immediately closed the window door. and I put my body back down, which is getting tired. Yes, I am tired of my heart, tired of my mind and body.

***

Morning has come. after the dawn prayer.I immediately do all the tasks at home.I want to go to the garden as soon as possible. although it's a holiday that I usually use to go to the market to buy all the staples for me and my mom, it's been a week ahead, but because the incident last night made me not eager to do it. I prefer to go to work.

Somehow my disappointment in mother made me not want to see her this morning.I want to give mother time from all the questions I always ask her because with all my curiosity.

After finishing doing homework.I immediately want to go to work.but when I pass the mother's room.my heart is sad again.I want to hug the body of the woman who has given birth to me in this world.

Even though I didn't get any affection from her, but mom still wanted to raise me, and take care of me when I was sick. Yeah, yeah, although with all her scolding but she never let me endure my own pain.

Back my tears fell, but soon I erased.I opened the door of the mother's room slowly.I saw her sleeping uneasily, and I saw her eyes also swollen.Did mom cry all night? "I'm sorry Mom. I'm sorry if my questions have made my mother sad." I muttered softly as I closed the door.

***

This morning the air felt so cool.yes, maybe because this village is surrounded by mountains, so the air is still clean and beautiful.Morning fog that still has not disappeared in the sun. it indicates that I left too early, and passers-by were still not much, probably because this is also a holiday so the villagers rest a lot in their homes, to release fatigue after a week of activity.

I was still walking down the street leading to the tea plantation. Returning my memory of my and my mother's debate last night.I was more and more astonished, inexplicably why mom was so angry when I mentioned about dad. I'm also surprised to this day that I never knew where my father was.

I was still focused on my own mind, so without realizing that I had eaten the road.

"Heeiii... beware!"

Buugg...

I rolled on the side of the asphalt road.I opened my eyes slowly, because I felt being on someone's body.

When I opened my eyes.my net met with those clear eyeballs that were soothing.I was stunned as I stared at a face so handsome.that my heart was beating so fast.

geez, why is he so handsome.

"Are you okay2?" that voice broke my daydream staring at that perfect god-like creature.

"Ah, yes, I am ok2 only. thank you mas, for all his help.sorry if I have been troublesome," I said sincerely

"Yes, same thing, but can you stand up first because we're on the side of the road" he replied, leaving me aghast when I realized I was still on top of him.

"Ah, sorry mas." I immediately stood up and fixed my messy hair and my clothes were dirty.

Seriate...