My Silver Star's

Broken Glass

Dreams that were built with blood were also shattered into pieces due to blood ...

It was 23:00 PM senior Jo invited me home. He took my hand and put it in a jacket pocket. After a few steps he stopped and looked at me.

"Your hands are so cold, why didn't you wear a jacket?"

"It's okay, it's summer."

"Stay ..."

Senior Jo took off her jacket and put it on for me. It's true, it's warm. The fragrance of Jo's senior perfume is also inherent, this mint scent is very fresh matching Jo's senior charisma. The jacket is quite thick and oversize when I wear it. I stared at Senior Jo and he also looked at me for a long time, until he finally took my hand again and took the road.

"Is senior not cold?"

"It's okay, I'm used to it."

"Later senior is sick. The day after tomorrow is a match."

"Do you know? An athlete has to endure the weather, I've also been soaking in a cold pool to train endurance."

"Really?"

"Do I look like I'm lying?"

"Hmm the current senior expression was like a pithy cat."

"I'm a good guy like this."

We continued our journey to my home. Senior also said it was likely that after this we would rarely get in touch and meet until match-day.

The night wind breathed out. It felt cold to the bone. I saw the silent senior staring at the street, was he not cold? When I got home, Eomma's shop was closed. We parted in front of the gate of the house, before parting I returned the jacket.

"Thank you for being with me today."

"It's okay senior, I'm happy too. Go home and rest, the game has to win! Fighting!"

"Fighting!"

Senior turned around and left stepping, I still saw the shadow of that back disappear. Sometimes he turned towards me and smiled. He also told me to come in immediately because it was cold. Slowly the shadow disappeared, I turned around and entered the house.

It seems like the residents of the house have fallen asleep, I headed to the kitchen and downed a glass of water relieving thirst. Then I went back to my room, I saw my reflection in the mirror with my neck covered in white gold. The Yin Yang symbol that is now on my neck indicates that there is now someone who takes care of me indirectly.

"Hi .. You must be surprised today, take good care and rest. There's gonna be a day you're really looking forward to, Fighting!"

I said to my reflection in the mirror with a smile. That's how to encourage my own version. When we are at the lowest point, look at ourselves in the mirror, how we struggle and try not to give up. It's just in ourselves, love yourself.

.....

Today is the day-H of Jo's senior match. I came with Sora and also senior Nam, some senior gang comrades also came. We sat in a rather high seat and were in the middle position. We saw some teams from our school, as well as Sabeum who coached Jo's senior. But the senior hasn't looked, I walked around here and there and then he showed up in his black uniform. He seemed focused, gathered with his group.

Ahead of the senior game had looked at us, so suddenly we encouraged him. He smiled and then returned to his seat. In accordance with the numbers obtained, seniors compete in the middle. During the start of the game his face looked stiff and serious. Several times it appears he often massaged his left shoulder. Hopefully this match gets the best result.

It was time for senior Jo to compete, we voiced support for him so cheerfully. He is very serious and focused this time, starting from junbi, chaeryeot, even in the position of miong sa senior like not the person I know so far. The first half of the game went well, the senior breath was so stable. Deonjhigi and Keokki made me worry. Again he massaged his left shoulder and relaxed his body.

"Yeon Seok Oppa, do you know why she massaged her left shoulder?" ask senior Nam

"... It's okay, it must be because it's sore."

answer Senior Nam

Before answering my question senior Nam seemed hesitant to answer. His face was so serious and his expression was a little worried. I am not calm ...

The second half started, this time more brutal than the first half. I glanced at Senior Nam who was now more silent. I'm back to watching Jo's senior match. Various Deonjhigi, Nakbob, Makki, Keokki, and paegi this time often launched. I felt a bad feeling at the climax of the match. Opponents from seniors did Deonjhigi high and slammed him so hard. Senior Jo shouted loudly and held onto his left shoulder. Suddenly all shocked, senior Nam who had been silent just now stood up and ran away to where. The surprised me also stood up and could not see it, my tears falling. Sora hugged me and asked me out, before coming out I saw senior Nam approaching the sabeum in the arena. The medical staff came and I saw senior Jo in so much pain.

Sora pushed me out, he kept hugging me and tried to calm me down. I was so shocked to see it, senior Jo's last game why is it like this? I'm still speechless watching it. I still clearly remember the screams of pain from senior Jo earlier.

.....

Senior Nam called Sora, Sora said senior Jo told me to go home soon. How can I go home like this? I'm worried about him! I was still silent and wiped my tears.

"A .. Let's go home." Sora stammered

"No! I don't want to go home!" My answer is firm

"But ..."

"I want to see it! Where're they? I want to see it now!"

"Oppa says they're in the medical room ..."

I clasped Sora's hand and took a quick step into the medical room. Sora was forced to follow me to the medical room. I was too harried and in a hurry, I was confused by the room.

"Vivi, let me show you. We just slow down, yeah. Come ..."

Sora turned around to hold my hand and led me to the next corridor. It was written "Medical Room" and on the doorstep was senior Nam who was sitting. Senior Nam looks surprised because of our arrival. He did not say a word, only hinting for us to sit down. We sat and waited, who was waiting.

"Sabeum will be out soon ... " Senior Nam said opening his voice

"Senior knows about this too?" I asked her, I'm still trying to hold back my tears. How not? The night before we were still at the comic rental and it was still fine. Why on a H-day does something like this happen?!

"Actually .. only relapses. But it came back at an inopportune time."

"Take a hit ..."

"After the incident last year he was like a hopeless man. Quiet all the time, until finally he went out of the room and received a jongging invitation with me."

"Then?"

"Although jogging with me but I know he is still 'empty' I who was then negligent to unconsciously let him alone. A pick-up car transporting goods accidentally grazes her. His left shoulder suffered a clavicula fracture, he underwent treatment and also therapy. Sometimes it does recur, it feels pain he said. But this time, it's coming back at the wrong time. Before the match he underwent therapy, physiotherapy had told him the risk. And he said ..."

"What's? What did he say?"

'This is the last game for him and the first game for you to see."

I can't speak anymore. Senior Jo is this stupid or what? Have you ever watched a hapkido match? Too risky for him.

Soon Sabeum came out, saw us and walked away. We are welcome to enter the room. Senior Nam and Sora chose to stay outside, they let me in for a one-on-one talk with senior Jo.

I stepped in and looked at senior Jo whose shoulder was refuted by a special shoulder decker. Senior saw me a little surprised, I approached him. Without a word, he tidied his Dobok. We stayed long enough without a word.

"Why forced?" I asked him to break the silence

"Because .. this is the last game."

"Yeon Seok Oppa said you relapsed ..."

"I don't want to worry about you, because I haven't told you yet."

"I'm worried! Do you know how shocked I am?!"

"Sorry ..."

"Do you want to leave me senior?"

I couldn't hold back my tears, he wiped my tears with his right hand. Miris saw her who was so hard working instead ended up on the medical table.

"Don't cry .. please ..."

"What did you mean by the other day?"

"It's not time I told you ..."

"Oh? Then when? When you suddenly left? Just disappear? Then how am I?"

"No. .. not so ..."

Senior Jo held my hand and looked at me fixedly. His face was no longer cold, it looked like someone who would be gone forever.

"Listen to me ..."

"...."

"I've had surgery, done therapy, not that I don't care about my body. For the last time .. I rise with Hapkido then I too will fall with Hapkido. Sorry this match disappointed you ..."

"Senior ... Trust me ... I Will fix you! You can't be sick! You can't go and make me cry! You'll recover and stay with me!"

"But this time ... after graduation I'll move to China and get treatment there."

"You didn't disappear, did you? You'll heal, you .. This fracture will heal!"

"Gomavis ... My Star."

Senior Jo kissed my forehead and his face seemed to be trying hard. His face was pale and his smile felt bland. I don't want him to be sick, even if it hurts don't go and leave me alone.

"... I will fix you, I promised."