My Silver Star's

Violet

I see you up on high

I see you every night

I'll hold you in my heart

To the end

I was silent and didn't know what to say when I saw the brochure. It was like standing on a high cliff alone. Senior Jo tried to hold my hand but I pulled my hand away. Isn't this too fast? Or am I never ready for this situation?

"Senior ... I want to go home" I told senior Jo

"Allah ... Let's go home,"

"Can I keep this brochure?" I asked him

"If it's just that you're not keeping it away from me, it's okay,"

I put the brochure in my bag. Senior went to pay for our cake and drinks. I waited for him to get down and go to the car together. Finished senior pay, he and I went down together. The two of us headed for the car parked in front of the store.

The car went to my house. All the way I just kept quiet and looked out the window. Yeah it's my mood breaker, I need my mood booster.

"Eunsu, don't you want to stop by somewhere again before you go home?"

It's not usual for seniors to call me by my Korean name. I looked at him and was still silent yet to answer.

"I just want to go home."

I don't want to go anywhere anymore. Going home and just resting, going back to school also needs energy.

"Eunus ... I don't want to disappoint you. If you want to be angry, just angry, it is natural that in every relationship there are ups and downs. Rather than walk with monotony ..."

I didn't answer, all I wanted was to get to that house. It felt like the car was traveling slowly, a long time ago to get home. My chest felt tight and my voice stuck in my throat. Not long after, the car arrived home. Outside, my grandfather was talking to Han's driver.

The car was there, I got out of the car and entered the house without greeting my grandfather. I also left senior Jo who just got out of the car. I ignored my grandfather's voice calling me. Entering the house I went straight to my room. My door closed and I locked it, from the window I saw my grandfather chatting with senior Jo. My grandfather also held onto senior shoulders and they conversed with smiles.

Unknowingly my tears trickled down looking at senior Jo's smile. I sat on my bed and cried without a sound. I took out the college brochure that senior Jo gave me. I grabbed the brochure and cried. I wasn't ready, never ready for this situation. I was too emotional and left senior Jo just like that.

The door to my room was knocked and the voice of my grandfather called out to me. I was still messed up, still crying so I ignored her call. I cried for a long time and decided to take a shower. I wiped my tears and prepared to take a shower. Without me knowing, time was almost showing dinner.

I finished my shower and went out to dinner. Grandpa, grandma and my eomma are already at the dinner table. We're probably going to have dinner with Appa. I sat down with my grandmother and drank water from the glass I poured myself. We all fell silent without a sound, My Eomma also looked at me with a smile.

"Eunsu ..." My grandfather opened his voice to start a conversation.

"Y-yes?"

"Regarding Jo Eunbyul ..."

I stopped drinking and put down my glass. This situation, a serious conversation. It sounded from Grandfather's tone which was also serious.

"... He will continue his education to China, right? I know it's a difficult decision, you're young too. So ... Do you really like it?"

"Vivi!" Said my mother firmly.

Grandfather raised his hand a sign of my Eomma to let me have an opinion.

"If I like it, why? Don't you approve?"

"Look, my dear, maybe before or after graduation you'll see her family, right? Maybe the two families will meet. So ... Are you ready for the engagement?"

"Huh?!?"

"We're not forcing you, baby, it's not for family gain either. It goes back to your decision" said my grandmother, stroking my shoulder.

I haven't answered any questions from Grandpa, but I'm home. My Eomma stood up and headed out to greet Appa. I drink again because I am thirsty. Thinking about what Grandfather said earlier, there was no way that Jo's grandfather and senior family had yet met. I'm sure that on the pretext of business they've met, I'm a little objected to the feeling that this engagement is not because I like Jo's senior but like the union of two families to expand relations.

Appa comes in and sits down for dinner. Grandpa didn't say anything more, and we started to have dinner. After dinner, Eomma and I cleared the dinner table. Grandpa and Appa were in the living room to talk. Grandma also headed to the living room, before she asked ahjumma to make a drink and was taken to the living room. Eomma told me to go to the living room, she said later Eomma would follow as well.

I headed to the living room and sat down next to Grandma. Not long after I sat down my Eomma came also sitting beside Appa. Grandfather sat in the main seat as the leader of the family.

"Thus ... We don't want to delay any further on this discussion" my grandfather said.

"Right, we can't force Eunsu," said Appa.

"May I speak?" Me and Grandpa gave the signal to let me talk.

"Well, regarding my engagement actually I don't mind but I don't want both parties to feel burdened because of this engagement. I will not break the rules set. I respect both families and the decisions of each family. My journey is still long, about a mate or not all depends on the time. If both families agree, I don't want to disappoint you either. I will keep the trust given and will certainly keep our family's good name."

Everyone fell silent, grandfather had not yet opened his voice. Grandma got me a drink, Appa drinks. I know this situation because of the tense situation, I've never felt like this.

"I've heard my granddaughter's opinion, the point is that you agreed to this engagement and are prepared for the risk. Go back to the room and study, you also focus on school."

I nodded and finished my drink. Then I went back to my room, and I peeked out of the room. Grandpa and Appa are having a discussion, I don't know if this is the right decision. But I accept this risk, either now or in the future, I am ready to face my risks and decisions.

I closed the door and sat down at the study table. I have no intention of studying, I just put together a book and do one or two exercises. Then I decided to go to sleep, I closed my eyes and tried to sleep. But I can't, it always crosses senior Jo's shadow every time I close my eyes. I stared at the ceiling of the room and was surprised by the sound of my phone. I saw my phone turned out to be a call from senior Jo.

Lift it or not? I hesitated to pick him up, but I missed the senior's voice. I decided to pick up the call ....

"Hello? Senior?"

"Let's go tomorrow to Gangwon-do!"

"Huh? You drunk senior? Why go to Gangwon-do?"

"No, I'm not drunk! I'm serious! After school we will go there. Saying doesn't mean you ask to be picked up by me, saying yes means you agree!"

"What do you mean?"

"I closed it! See you tomorrow, bye sweetie!"

I haven't had time to answer that senior Jo has already closed his call. What's wrong with this guy? Why are you suddenly taking me to Gangwon-do? The trip from Seoul to Gangwon is not short. Then ... What's in Gangwon-do?