My husband is not my love

hope is lost

after my relationship with ifan maembaik everything was normal like a lover drunk love, I and ifan always make phone calls every night,I always pray that he is the best mate God sends me, and as soon as I ask that all be according to our plans, I will work to seek new experiences,and after all this time I've been looking for a job I finally got a job and happened to be pretty far away from work with my house, and I couldn't have stayed there, and I couldn't have stayed there,because of this work problem I became noisy again with ifan, but how I have already accepted this offer, and I promise I will always be loyal, then we also rarely meet, so we rarely meet,negotiating with ifan is difficult,

baby I beg you to understand, I know it's hard for us, I'm afraid to be away from you, I'm afraid you'll be tempted by other women as long as I'm not here but it's my dream to make a job,I convinced ifan

hemm let out a long breath

baby I know yesterday we could but that's because I can still see you even if only a glimpse when I pass in front of your house, but now you go where can I miss...

ifan dear look at me, I hold his hand and I hold it tightly while saying,

you really love me right, trying to find a loophole

suddenly ifan was surprised I clasped his hand and stared fixedly at me, taking my hand back, and holding it,

but there's a condition that if you want to work there, I have to take you to your place of work,

although the weight still has to be said, I'm sorry if you take me there how can I see you go,,

after a very long debate finally let me go,,but it's true that only 2 months of work I can no longer resist the longing and finally I decided to return and I thought I would accept the offer ifan to marry only,he will also support me, too,

when I came back ifan was very happy but somehow again made a tantrum and this time I was really very disappointed to culminate in our regrets,

at that time ifan called me and it is still natural that we miss kangeen through hp, hp,

but like there was lightning on a very beautiful night with a view of the moon, he said

dek I want to say please don't be angry he said

yes, why else, do not make me disappointed again with your words,

that's why I said don't be angry baby, I already love you so much, I don't want us to separate, I don't want to,

you just want to say that, why should I be angry instead I am happy, even I want to ask you if your invitation at that time still applies

prakkkk hp in my hand fell to the floor, my body was limp

ci, dear you are horrified by me right, but I promise I will only marry him for the sake of the child and after he is born I will separate from him and marry you,

I was so angry, so disappointed that I cried so much,,, you know,,,

even ifan tried to calm me down, I kept crying uncontrollably,

you have the heart, you are really evil, you took it out on me, you broke my heart.

honey, I beg you to calm down, still try to calm down, please,

how can I calm down, you fool me by telling me you love me, I don't know what else to say,

I ended my phone call and I cried, kept crying, for days I didn't even eat I just kept crying, so in the end I told my mom about everything that happened,

and mama just said maybe she wasn't your match,,,, uh,,,

ifan kept calling me but as long as I reeject, and one night a new number called me I thought it was ifan but then I picked up, it turned out to be a cloud of my friend when Junior High was ifan's best friend,he told me

ci origin you know, actually ifan never do as cruel as his ex-girlfriend, but it's true that his ex-girlfriend is pregnant but with his new girlfriend, his new girlfriend,but because his ex's parents know ifan his girlfriend until he holds ifan accountable, you should know that, you should know that,

wan are you serious, I'm sure

yes you have to believe,

and then I asked ifan to meet

seriated