My husband is not my love

that despair

a handful of rainwater left over last night still dripped on the leaves and this very cold air began to enter my bones

I saw the clock still showing at 02:00 in the morning, I who was awake immediately rose from my bed,

I immediately went to the bathroom and took ablution and I rejoice I will ask for smoothness in every face of this all

do not ask where anto, because as usual he has not come home at this time, he usually comes home at 04:00 or even 05:00 in the morning and after that he sleeps until noon,

in my prayer I ask God, I ask God to strengthen my heart, if my soul mate makes him change and open my heart to him, but if he is not my soul mate then show me your way out and break this bond, then,,

like it always was, after I finished looking at my phone I opened all the chats and I opened medsos there was a girl's name asking for friendship, I think well I accept your request,

while continuing to see the post I fell asleep again, and did not realize it had been 2 hours more I slept, and I saw already at 05:00 I woke up and I did my duty, morning prayer, morning prayer,

papa happened to have gone to the mosque, by chance,

I prepare breakfast, today I only make fried rice as it used to be almost every day mama always asked to make fried rice, alhamdulillah my whole family really likes my cooking

and this was my test again, at that time I was having breakfast with papa because it was 08:00,

want to add pa I offer papa, while still feeding his rice mouth

just a little more, bring papa

when he arrived to wake up he saw on the dining table he was angry, angry,

you don't cook, it's still slow

here I make fried rice all my family love this, I replied a little annoyed

in the morning eating fried rice can hurt my stomach later, a little up the tone of his voice

why can it hurt, my family and I have been eating gorwng rice but they are fine, trying to defend themselves,

ngeles, answer me continue you dare to fight you, you,

I could no longer continue fighting in front of papa, I decided to make him another menu, it didn't take me long to finish,

here's his cooking, I put my cooking on the table where he was sitting I put the plate in front of him too, I rushed to go wash the dishes used me and papa breakfast earlier, I was,

after that, I heard my phone vibrate when I saw that there was an inbox when I read it was the name of the woman who asked for friendship last night, and I was shocked after I read the message,

o woman belonging to my ex-boyfriend,

I reply, uhm sorry what it means yes, I wonder

I waited a long time for a reply

don't be your innocent ass, yeah,

plain how, I don't know you huh, and he sent some photos and messages

this is a photo of our memories you can see, your man is my mark

I jumped when I saw the photo,

what is this, this kind of relationship that was ever lived anto, crazy, crazy,

I'm getting humiliated, I want it to suffocate myself, I'm not sad that she's in touch with that woman, but I'm sad that I gave myself up to her,if you know from the beginning where I might want to serve anto, then,

I decided to ask Anto when I also showed him the photo,

what does this mean I put my phone in front of him,

anto was confused to see the photo, the photo,

the one who gave you this asked him to be laid out in a brick,

that's who you are willing to do that while you're just dating,

how many women have you dated, I'm investigating

you already know about my ex, he told my ex before I married you, we love each other, I do all this because I love each other, but his parents don't like me,at first I did it so she was pregnant and we could get married, but it turns out she wasn't pregnant either, I did it with my other ex for the same reason, too,I've never cheered on my ex's parents

I was downcast imagining the disgusting scene they had already done,,

hemm and I you made the collision so, why don't you force both parents, I'm angry

I tried, but in vain

well then I want us to separate, I don't want your past shit inside of me,

the debate didn't stop until I asked him to take care of the split letter..

seriated