My Beautiful Lecturer

Urgent

“ceklek” instantly heard the sound of the door open family and friends joxi friend immediately stood up and swarmed the doctor who just came out of the room “how my son doc?” Ask mr senses panic “lord you need to go to my room to talk?” mr. Indra nodded his head so that Mr. Handa and Joko went to the doctor's room.

“begini your master has severe bleeding in his head but the biggest problem is in the heart of joxi, does your child often consume alcohol and illegal drugs?”

Ask the doctor who makes the master of senses nod his head lethargic so that the doctor looks disappointed “your son suffers from cardiomyopathy is a condition of enlargement of the heart muscle so that this muscle becomes stiff and affects performance the heart pumps blood and circulates it throughout the body and now the condition is getting worse so joxi needs a heart donor as soon as” explained the doctor like an atomic bomb that exploded in the ears of the three men especially joko and his father looked very surprised and could not say anything more.

“i can donate my heart dok” arrived hani open the door and say it so that not only makes the occupants of the room surprised but also his two friends.

“what did you say just now don't joke han?” Tanya kara looks furious once being hani doesn't care “this is my fault because it's in like that?”desi's eyes widened and his hands spontaneously slapped the cheeks hani “plakk” did not reach there the hands of desi directly pulled the collar of hani clothes so that their two eyes collided just the eyes of desi very sharp as if wanted kill.

“you want to leave us for her so?” hani's eyes widened when the salt water fell on his face yes desi now sobbing “but I'm not alive will not be useful because I miss the people who have left me desi desi desi and Kara immediately turned away not believing the words spoken from the mouth just now.

“hiks hiks” kara who also joined in crying just nodded her head and smiled in her tears “kalo you want to catch up with atez and it makes you happy I am willing to release you han” kara said with a hoarse voice so desi's body trembled violently and his hands immediately took off his clothes.

“kara's right.. hiks hiks” desi also agreed so hani smiled happily and immediately embraced the bodies of his two best friends “ I love you very much and thank you very much for understanding” finished saying that hani also released his two best friends and now his feet stepped toward his father who looked devastated and sad.

“father please let me go as well so that I can go calmly” pinta hani full of sincerity which makes his father shake his head “father continues the same who if hani go?” hani's eyes immediately widened upon hearing his father's sharp knife-like question pierced his heart so many times that it made him feel pain.

“father..” hani's lips tremble when saying that sentence so that his father immediately hugged his body “good good darling whatever it is if it makes you happy father will accept” lord handa know his son's heart burdened all this time and stupidly he never realized it so now mister Handa let hani choose his own decision without the need to be blocked again.

“thank you dad..” hani immediately smiled in his tears then his father took off his body and immediately kissed his cheek “dad hope you will be happy with your decision this” said mister handa after kissing his beloved daughter “so you are right want to donate it?” Ask the doctor after a long silence.

“iya doc, and dad pandas, joko no need to worry anymore huh?” hani said then turned to mister indra and then to joko who seemed fixated to see it looked tough it was “ok lah if so you have to rest and fast” hani nodded his head and followed the doctor away kara and Desi followed him from behind.

Now hani is in a room with his two best friends “do you want to give a message I brought a book?” Tanya desi who made hani smile then nodded her head so desi gave the book to him “kara.” call hani in a soft voice made her best friend's head turn towards him “what hani?” Ask her and she approaches.

“desi come” pinta hani who made desi who held back his tears fell also then hani smiled and also kissed the face of his most powerful friend “you keep kara and remain a friend who good for him even though you will get married and have a life of each” desi mangosteen mangosteen mangosteen so that hani smiles happily “not yet we just cry apart while we will definitely meet again” said hani trying to strengthen his two friends.

“hani I love you so much” says desi and kara together that makes hani smile happily but her tears fall again also when her heart feels so sick and they re hugged “I love you too desi, kara” said hani in a soft voice and after being satisfied hugging desi and kara came out of the room because hani had to rest.

Hani could not sleep so he also berwudu then perform the night prayer “ya god now I give everything to you and hopefully my decision is not the wrong decision and I beg to be happy desi, desi, kara, my father, my father, joxi and her family aamiin” that is the sentence that was said hani mouth in his last bow and finish greeting hani also immediately wrote a letter in the book that was given desi earlier for her husband joxi.

Should I cry tonight? And I know tonight is so quiet, and tonight is so beautiful because of the many stars that shine. I want to change, I really want to do it. But I was unable at least until tonight.though it was so beautiful it was still difficult to comfort my disappointed heart.

When I look at myself, I have nothing – anything even about that spirit has vanished. When the time that passed had said goodbye, I knew I had wasted – please him when he came. And now even if I ask him to come back, it's impossible.

I'm having a lot of pain tonight that makes me cry. Tonight I listen to a beautiful song, tonight my tears fall, tonight I cry myself again. No one knows what I feel and what I experience.

It's not about love more than that. It's about purpose, hope, and happiness. It's about how I lose half or even everything that makes me happy. It's about failure and also to my disappointment of not being able to let go of my past.

Tonight is going to be one of the sad nights of my life. Because I just feel sadness. How can I hold back my tears now, while everything I have is gone. I should how? Tell me, what should I do. It hurts so bad it hurts me.

When in the darkest – times I had no one to brace me. I am also an ordinary man. I have a dream too, I have a goal and I want to make it all happen. But honey as hard as it is if it's not mine still I can't take it.

Joxi is still alive and I am willing to be a part of you because I am so grateful that you have loved me and forgiven me for not being able to change my feelings but I have never hated you. Goodbye and do not hurt yourself again, I was the one who was hurt until this moment and I alone had to go carry all the wounds you suffered and the wounds I suffered.

Hani cried reading the contents of the letter which expressed all the contents of his heart and then hani put the book and immediately laid his body “hiks hiks” again hani fell asleep in the sadness of his heart and the wounds were so real he doesn't want to wake up forever.