My Beautiful Lecturer

Memories

“cekit” now car hani stop at a parker page and hani out of his car, hani, her footsteps relaxed her lips smile happily while her hands carry a bunch of roses that are still fresh “ini for you” said hani lirih then her hands put a bunch of roses into the grave peg of Atez.

“after you leave it feels like my world is getting darker and the loneliness is so real, I wish I could tell you as many things as before but I pour it all out to god according to your advice first..” hani talk casually and his heart still feels better if it is here somehow it can be so but hani love towards atez is still the same yes at least that's what felt hani so far.

“I'm married and all that time I suffered my husband not as well as you but I still try to accept it but do you know still he's not your match You still remain the most man I love” hani still speak for itself even though it feels futile but hani still do it.

“atez I don't expect anything, I just feel colder now and my heart feels empty even I don't feel pain anymore is this feeling of despair?” hani again said and again there is no word from every word “ah maybe you will stay well there, sorry I'm still expecting you back even though it's impossible”

finish saying it hani immediately smile ketir somehow arrived his heart ached because in this place too hani again feel hurt “atez I go may god always keep you at his side” hani finally left the bunch of flowers and returned carrying a wound in his heart.

“bremm” hani car also drove on the streets now hani listen to the perfeck song by ed sheran that is often sung atez first for him “well lah lah I will eat soto betawi near campus kita” said hani happy then turned his car towards the restaurant “cekit” hani was back out of his car and now enter the restaurant “pak I order 1 soto betawi spicy ya?” pinta hani at the cashier and then he sat right in the chair that he used to sit with Atez.

“good luck enjoying nona” said the friendly waiter then put the soto betawi bowl on the table “thanks a lot pak” finished saying it hani start enjoying the afternoon meal “indeed never change always just yummy” guma hani while spending the soto then hani pay for his food order and get back in the car.

“bremm” car back drove and now leads to the bay beach where hani will see twilight there “beautiful masayah” said hani when his eyes sparkled to see the eyes of the day who want to break the light so tranquilize.

“allah huakbar..” hani directly woven when hearing the sound of azan reverberating “turns out to have been mahgrib faster 5 minutes” hani also parked his car and went out to the floating mosque in the middle of the sea flowing quietly because of hani this is not a tide, finished berwudu hani directly wearing the mukena provided by the mosque and then follow the congregational magrib prayer.

“ya god I missed my college days because there was someone I loved there but now I am married please remove my race against him and help me love my husband and forgive him.. aamiin” is a prayer that is offered with a heart that is very pleading to his god Because he is aware living in the past will not make him happy and it only makes him will continue to pretend.

Finished performing the prayer hani also back join the group of pilgrims on a boat to return to the seaboard hani immediately smile when he arrived at sea “formerly desi and kara drunk to want to splash into the sea and atez directly kualahan helped them” hani chuckled as she remembered the beautiful mass at sea with her two dilapidated friends and her caring lover.

“drtt drtt” arrived mobile phone hani vibrate so he took it from the bag “joxi?” hani also directly received a call from her husband that “ada what?” Ask a quick hani “where are you?” Ask her husband back that makes hani silent for a moment “I was in the bay” sea of course joxi jolted to hear the answer of his question.

“that's far away, who are you?” hani smiles hearing it “I am alone, I am again enjoying my night while looking at the many beautiful stars here. What are you doing?” Tanya hani who makes joxi smile “I am waiting for you home” hani flinch while her mood returns bad “I will go home tomorrow” finished saying it hani directly disconnect the call and turn off the phone.

Hani did not speak only heard the sound of his calm breath and wind that greeted his clear skin “you can catch wind” hani eyes widened when he heard the heavy voice of a man “I am not that weak” a relaxing hani sahut that makes the man smile then sit far enough beside him.

“you haven't been here in a long time?” hani smiled then his eyes looked at the friendly man “you little boy who became our tour guide I didn't expect you to be this big?” now it's the guy's turn to smile “it turns out Shoot still remembers me? Nih wear my jacket first you will catch wind” hani received the jacket given by the man and then put it on his body.

“according to shoot?”

“entah lah, now you are 20 years old right?”

“yup is still too early if I get married again mbak youth does not come twice right?”

“you're right.”

“kalo Shoot, married?”

“i married van” somehow the answer to his question made the young man named Evan look surprised and clearly visible on the look of his face expression of disappointment but hani did not realize it “apa with mas atez?” hani smiled wryly then his head shook his head “I married another man van” evan eyes immediately widened.

“lah instead of shooting bucin very same mas atez I remember very well you used to very often ngelendot him every vacation hani hani hani hani hani back smiling only his smile this time made evan frightened because hani give the bitterest smile of his life and the once very bright hani eyes were withered as if by enduring the excruciating pain.

“dia has died” evan can not describe his condition now because of his surprise that makes him can not do what is he just fell silent while his eyes continue to look at the beautiful sky.

“forgive me” hani smile at the soft voice of evan “it is not a mistake so just relax” sahut hani equally softly “lalu how two friends embak terribly dilapidated it?” hani chuckles at evan “'s questions they are now lecturers and working one campus with me but they are not married maybe another year or two?” evan head direct mangosteen mangosteen.

“what do you want to buy coffee or warm chocolate milk I can buy for you?”

“hmm can and let me treat you to sate sea food?”

“ah well, later you stay at my house only my sister is at home and both my parents will also be happy you visit there?”

“well well, yes let's go” evan immediately nodded his head and they immediately ordered a lot of food and ate it together.