Must Choose

Part 19| Circumstances That Can't Be Changed

#Rifky Pov's'

For 3 months I did not meet him. I know I don't have the right to meet him. I realized when her father said a few words to me and made me think for a moment about all that. I remember it very clearly. But I miss him so much and I miss my son so much.

#Flashback

3 Months ago

"I hope you don't see my son again and this is the last time you set foot in my house. I will forgive all your faults, for you are the son of my friend and the father of my grandson. But never meet them both and disturb their lives because of your ego. You think I'm stupid not to know that you have another woman. I know that, for that stay away from my son's life, understand!"beno.

At that time I was silent and saw Zania who was brought in by one of the workers at my in-laws' house. I fell silent at the entrance and my mother-in-law approached me.

"Go home, Nia's gonna be fine. Mama will keep Nia and the child in the womb well" said Dewi.

"I'm sorry ma, it's all my fault" I said, so embarrassed to face my ex-mother-in-law.

"Everything's happened. But mom is disappointed in you too Ky. You hurt too much not only Zania, but your mom, dad, and dad. We were really disappointed" said Dewi glanced at me and then asked me to go home.

"Go home" said the Goddess again and I immediately obeyed her.

"Rifky asked for help to take care of Nia and my future son ma" my father said, saying goodbye to go home.

Sad that's what I feel, I should be away from them, the unformed child-to-be and the woman I love.

#Flasback off

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When I remember all that, I feel like a fool and always blame myself. But on the other hand for now, there is a sense of wanting to see him. But I always imagined what Papa Beno said to never meet Zania. I feel frustrated at this time. I miss him so much and the child in his womb. I would love to accompany her in these difficult times. Because I don't want to make the same mistake I did, but things can't change. My life is too complicated.

At that time I saw him carrying some plastic bags that seemed to contain snacks etc. I was so worried about it, her stomach now looks more bloated than I last saw her. I saw him smiling with someone and it turned out to be Kevin, the man next to him and his best friend Riri who was my cousin.

Wanted me to switch places with them and be able to laugh like that with him. But what I'm doing right now, I'm just observing it from afar. Call it I am a loser man who does not dare to face papa Beno or rather himself, the woman I missed.

A thousand apologies that I always wanted to make to her. Maybe he'll feel bad about all that.

Suddenly Azka called me and asked to play with me. I love my son so much with Bella, but I also love and miss my son in Zania's womb.

"I'm sorry your father is a darling, I'm a bad man. Hopefully you won't be like dad" I said as Azka walked into the park.

"Dad's a good man, Daddy's not bad. Who says the bad father has to deal with Azka" said my adorable son. I hugged her and apologized to her a thousand times.

"Azka loves my mom and dad" said my son back and unconsciously my tears dripped. My selfishness in all this is toying with the two women I love and the children I care about.

Sorry for my selfishness.

#Rifky Pov's end

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The hospital is currently in a busy state. Because many patients arrive due to traffic accidents that have just occurred. Zania is currently getting a night shift and she is treating the patients with fellow nurses and several doctors on guard.

Zania was so tired of handling the patients, that Zania held her cramped stomach. He thought it might be because of fatigue, but suddenly his stomach felt tight and cramping made him stop the activity and lean against the wall.

Zania did multiply her work during this pregnancy, because she did not want to laze and always took 2 shifts, meaning that she could take a longer vacation later. But the unexpected experienced from the stomach that began to cramp, to tight. Suddenly, Zania bleeding and making her co-workers panic and bring Zania to the cage.

Zania's condition is very weak there is no energy. Zania's parents were called to come and give their consent for a sudden operation, because Zania had a miscarriage at the age of 6 months.

The goddess was weak to hear that, while Beno held her throbbing head to hear the words of the doctor who explained the chronology of the incident.

Beno signed the letter of approval and brought Dewi to sit down.

"Why all bad things happened to Nia pa" said Dewi lamenting the fate of her poor son. From having to accept an arranged marriage that ended up being a divorce due to a crazy agreement. Until pregnancy and miscarriage. The goddess lamented the unfortunate fate of her son.

Beno just fell silent and hugged his wife. Beno also felt guilty about all this. From wanting to see his son's life happy, so to see the life of his son who became poor because of him.

"Maybe it's the best ma. Grandchild opa, may it be quiet there, son" Beno said, holding back his tears lamenting the child and grandson.

***

A week after that incident. Zania returns to her parents' house and shuts herself down when she learns of her miscarriage.

"Honey, open the door, eat first" said the Goddess to her son. There was no answer and suddenly the door opened.

"Yes ma, soon Zania down" said Zania hoarse and slow. The goddess nodded her head and smiled.

"Dear, my mother down first yes" said the Goddess directly to the dining room and her tears dripped seeing the state of her child like this. She knew that Zania was crying and that Dewi could not see that when Zania tried to smile at everything that happened to her.

News of Zania's miscarriage was heard in Rifky and Bella's ears. Rifky condemns all his mistakes so far and Bella sees Rifky change like that, which is to be a very cold person and rarely smiles at him except with his son Azka.

Rifky keeps himself busy with work and work. Until he chose to take care of the company in Singapore and took Azka and Bella with him. Rifky blames himself with a workaholic without remembering if someone is waiting for him.

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