MOON IN PESANTREN

Difficult Situations

...The death of a person is not the cause of the difficulties we face,...

...Please, stop blaming me!"...

..._Zafar Candra Manaf...

Andra climbed the stairs one by one with gontai to the rooftop dormitory santri rijal MA. Hair as messy as not combed for days. The tie he used has been stretched. The school shirt is no longer in the pants. The shirt buttons have been removed some. While grafting shoes and bags Andra arrived at the rooftop.

Under the blazing sun of broad daylight, Andra spread her body while closing her eyes to the blue sky. He took a few breaths and exhaled slowly. Trying to calm your mind and find a way out.

It was three days after school he did not eat, only went here and returned to the room before the magrib. His friends could only silently look at Andra who was like that. It's free to ask because of course Andra didn't say anything.

The phone from inside his bag shook many times. There was no response from the owner until it finally stopped shaking. Maybe the caller stopped the call. Andra grabbed a pack of cigarettes from inside her bag. Then, his phone shook again. He grabbed the phone and shifted the green button and then brought it closer to the ear.

"Dra. The cave needs that money. You're selling cigarettes, aren't you?"

Andra has been involved many times. It was like punching something. "Gua can't help you this time. Please, bro. You understand also the state of the cave now."

"Fuck you! You're the cause of the cave problem now. You're David's killer. If David does not die, the cave will not be a difficulty like this. And lu-"

The phone connection was turned off unilaterally by Andra. Listening to the babble of his old friend would only make him blame himself. Feeling David's departure was not God's destiny but his own fault and stupidity. And it is clearly wrong, God has written destiny on each of His servants.

In Surah al-Ankabut verse 57 Allah says, "Every one who lives will feel dead. Then only to Us you are returned."

There are many ways for us to meet death. It could be through an illness, an accident or other means. It can even be without a reason. It is the will of God that we cannot avoid. Want us to go as far as anything, hide anywhere, age is not a benchmark of how long a person's life. When it is time, death will come.

The cigarette that was held, Andra put it back in the bag. Then he grabbed the silverqueen chocolate from his bag to alleviate his very bad mood.

"Dra," call someone up near the stairs.

His friend came approaching. "It's hot here. White-browed, "he said after sitting next to Andra leaning against the wall.

The one who was spoken to just smiled thinly. He was busy with silverqueen in his hands.

"Main basketball, yuk! You haven't been to the field for a long time. Girls on your waiting around, all right. I know a lot of your fans. Sok disappeared all over again."

"Again the cave leg pain. Can't play."

Every time Andra spoke using the cave-lu, he must have laughed inwardly considering Seli. How at that time Andra advised Seli not to use my-lo language on the grounds that Seli looks more gentle and polite. Though that's just the reason Andra can use my call-you with Seli. Very childish, he thought.

He was kicked by Andra's leg by his friend. "Lied you, ah."

"Udah, the cave is coming down." Andra grabbed her bag and shoes. Then, stand up and walk towards the stairs.

"Eh, where are you going? The field?"

"To room. Males there's you here" cried Andra who had begun to descend the stairs.

"Aishis. The abandoned cave."

***

Andra changed her uniform and cleaned her whole body. After that, he put his body on the mattress that was lined up on the floor. It's a santri rijal room habit, where things aren't in place. Clothes hanging filled the room while the closet was empty or only filled with food and toiletries.

In this room lived five people other than Andra. Three people are still berijtima discuss the new program at school, understand one of Andra's roommates the chairperson of the school. Another man was busy celebrating his girlfriend's birthday in the cafeteria. Though he has been repeatedly razed by people dating by teachers or security guards but still he update with his girlfriend. May Allah guide him always.

"Asalamallaikum bala. Andra..," her friend came in and immediately searched for Andra's whereabouts.

The wanted remained focused on playing the phone after answering his greetings.

"Dra, where are you? Never been to a mosque for almost a week."

Andra's friend is the chairman of the mosque and he should question Andra as a member who is not on duty for several days. "More upset, you?"

Andra nodded and made a sad face. "Morely break up." A few seconds later, the phone in Andra's hand shook, displaying a line of nameless numbers. Andra knew who was calling.

Seeing Andra getting a phone call, the head of the mosque takmir patted Andra on the shoulder and then left after saying hello.

The man with a sharp nose and narrow eyes pulled the green mark and stuck his phone near his ears as he ruffled his coarse hair.

"The cave is at the back gate. You can come here, Dra?"

After responding to his old friend's request, Andra immediately went down and walked towards the back gate. Arriving there, Andra met his friend through the sidelines of the gate.

"Gua asked for help this time, Dra. Sell cigarettes that cave love it. Gua tau you expertly hid haram goods from the era of Junior High."

Andra's teeth are grinding. He's holding back anger. "You're thinking you need money to pay for your mother's treatment, the cave can help a little, Bro. But for those cigarettes the cave can't."

"The cave needs aren't just that, Dra. The cave has to pay for the school of the cave brothers. Eat daily. You think, bye. You are a rich man, you need nothing to ask for. Boro-boro cave can school in the elite pesantren kayak pesantren lu this. The cave is not as lucky as you."

Andra looked at her friend with mixed feelings. Then, he rogoh his pocket to take out the money four hundred thousand pieces. This is not the first time the money his mother gave to the boarding school, Andra gave it to his old friend. "The guru can only help this."

***

This Magrib Andra intends to go to the mosque. While waiting for the shower queue because in each room only three bathrooms for ten people. Andra scrolled through various articles from her mobile phone, looking for as much information as possible about studying in Turkey.

For a few days he did not open whatsapp application because he did not know what to answer the message from his mother and also Vira. He asked himself who had received a cigarette from a friend. Suddenly, an incoming message notification appeared from Seli. Seeing that, Andra nimbly opened it.

Seli Hello Kitty's

Asalamallaikum Andra

^^^Waalaikumsalam^^^

^^^Knpa cells?^^^

Unknowingly, Andra smiled as she replied to a message from Seli. The dimples on her cheeks were obvious due to the smile from her thin lips.

"The cave is over, Dra. Shower at me."

"Ready." Andra picked up her towel on the balcony while humming ria.

A few minutes later, Andra was tidy with a light blue striped shirt, black pants and a prayer mat that she attached to her shoulder. Do not forget to comb your hair and apply a little hair oil. Then, he used his flagship perfume. Take his flip-flops and intend to go down to the first floor.

"Wei, earlier Ijtima new same teacher department. They again discuss the santri who brought cigarettes to the boarding school," said roommate Andra who has the position of santri chairman who just arrived in the room.

"Seriously lu? What force does he say is suspected?"

"Our numbers. Ane was shocked."

Hearing that, Andra gulped. He was upset because he brought a cigarette to the boarding school, the severity of the cigarette was still in his bag. He hasn't put it away anywhere. Andra did not tell her friends that she was the one who brought her, though she did not use a single rod. Because, the risk is the same if it is discovered by the pesantren. Enough of him knows.

"Yesterday the cave smelled of cigarettes in this room" said one of them until the whole room looked at him.

"In this room? Seriously, lu?"

"Yes. Serious cave. Not too kissed, anyway. The cave is the deck of Andra's closet."

***