Meeting Because of Grief

I've Never Appreciated

When Keysha's cries had begun to subside, Julian left Keysha to fetch water for her. Julian just wanted Keysha to be quieter first.

" Drink Key.. You must be thirsty right now. "

Keysha took the drinking water doubtfully. He was feeling very embarrassed at this moment. He shows his weak side to Julian who is a stranger to him.

" Key, if you're embarrassed right now, that's not really necessary. Because I'd rather see you cry and express your feelings as you are now than you are self-fulfilling and make you work like a robot. "

Julian seemed to know what Keysha was thinking right now. So he said all that to make Keysha comfortable.

" Key, I might be someone who just met you. But I've seen you every day. Your behavior is how I've memorized it. So, don't you ever think I'll believe in your good word. Maybe I'll believe it or just shut up when you say all those things. But not at the moment Key. I'd rather you laugh freely without burden. And be yourself. So Key, if you want a story with me, you can do it. I noticed you were different from when we first started shopping this morning. But I'm silent because you seem to want to enjoy your life and make yourself happy. But just now, your attitude like that, made me unable to bear to reprimand you "

Julian says it all like he's known Keysha all along. Keysha was shocked by Julian. Turns out Julian was so keen on all his behavior all along. But he was silent because he did not want to make Keysha uncomfortable.

" Want a story now? "

" I'm from a family not capable. The first of two brothers. I've always been asked to be perfect and to be proud of my parents. Must understand and understand the economic condition of the family. So my path was all set and directed so by my parents. "

Keysha paused her story. He felt claustrophobic every time he remembered the story. But he won't tell Julian the full story. He would only tell her the outline at this moment.

Julian listened patiently to Keysha's story and tried to understand what Keysha was feeling at the time. Julian didn't interrupt Keysha's words and focused his attention on Keysha. That's all he did so Keysha felt comfortable and appreciated when telling stories.

" I broke all the rules that bound me and played crazy with an unapproved person in a relationship with me back then. My relationship with that person was too late and I ended up pregnant and married that person. Since then, all these bad things have happened to me. I chose the wrong man to marry. He has a high temperament and likes to play rough on me. I have often had KDRT. I often tell my parents everything. But it all happened. I was pregnant and married to him. Hope I just want later when the child I bear is born, he will change. More responsible and loving to the family. But it turns out it was just wishful thinking. She didn't turn even worse until she was violent with my baby son. "

Keysha again felt a tightness in his chest from remembering all those things. He still felt pain and anger when he told me about his past. Julian just found out that Keysha was married. She always thought Keysha was a girl. Keysha was supposed to say women aren't girls anymore.

" My maternal side showed up when my son was hurt. I decided to leave the house and choose to separate from him. My parents also agreed with all of that. They do not want their children and grandchildren to be hurt by this irresponsible man. So I thought that all would be able to come back as before when I separated from the man and returned to my family. But apparently, they treated me differently. They always tell me that I made a mistake in the past and don't repeat it again. All those words were taught to my sister by them. So every time I get angry, my sister always curses me and says why do I come back home after choosing to get married? Why was I accepted back home when I put the family to shame. There were many other things he said when he was angry. And I get sick when I hear that. But every time I have money, I make money. They all approached me and were nice to me. "

Keysha's view is empty at the moment. There was no emotion like before in his eyes. He looked straight ahead but it was as if his gaze was looking far away at this moment.

" I was asked to make a lot of money to meet my sister's lifestyle and meet household expenses. I originally really wanted to make them happy because I thought they still considered me a son and brother to them. So with my own efforts I got a scholarship here to go to college. I came here without asking them for a penny and as long as I'm here never once did they ask me how I was, am I healthy or have I eaten yet? There was never that question. There are only complaints, asking for money and quarrels. "

Julian stroked Keysha's back to calm Keysha who was currently injured. He did not expect that behind this strong-looking female figure, there was a figure who was lonely and needed attention. Julian felt really sick seeing this side of Keysha right now.

" I worked so hard all this time to be able to give a good life to all of them later. But it turns out that all is not enough for them. Until they keep asking for more without wanting to know where I get the money and how I get the money all this time. "