Loving You In The Dark

Dilemmas

I love you in the dark.

"Without seeing you, I can already feel that love, stay radiant, because your love, is all the reason for me to stay strong, to be in this solitude." Amira

*I can't hurt you, I can't beat you up,

I can't love you, because my heart has her, you can't have me with all my heart, I just want to be faithful.

I appreciate your sincerity, for your love, but I chose her,

***I just want to be loyal.

Dion shed tears again, regret came back to him, but what power, rice has become porridge, there is only a word for him, already Overwhelmed.

Dion could not sleep anymore, he continued to imagine Amira's face, Dion realized many women were captivated, because of his good looks, and he was used to all that, all the women loved him, he said, only because of his perfect physique, but Amira, he never saw Dion, but he loved Dion, a woman's sincerity of love, because true love, born of the heart, was born of the heart, that is what distinguishes Amira from other girls.

As the dawn of Azan reverberated, Dion awoke Tyas.

"Tyas, wake up Tyas, pray the dawn of Tyas. " Dion wiggled Tyas' body.

Tyas regained his senses and when he opened his eyes, someone he loved, was now in front of him, like a dream come true.

The figure of the priest, now in front, Dion increasingly tanpan with cocoa clothes, sarong and pecinya.

Tyas also rose up with the happiest feeling.

"Where are you going?" ask Tyas.

"You don't see what Tyas is, you go to the mosque."

"But Dion, I want to pray with you," pinta Tyas spoiled, he got up and wanted to hug Dion, but Dion dodged.

"Don't Tyas, I've been ablution, Yes I've been waiting," said Dion he stretched out his alphabet.

After the dawn prayer, Tyas immediately went out of the room, he had to prepare, because soon many guests will be present, because it will be noon, their wedding reception.

Tyas kedapur makes warm tea, a glass of milk chocolate, and a cup of coffee, all he brings into his room, all for his beloved husband, because Tyas does not know Dion's favorite drink.

After finishing the dhikr, Dion folded his alphabet, and put it in its original place.

"Dion I brought you a drink?" which one do you like?" tyas asked, smiling kindly.

" You brought all this for me Tyas?" ask Dion for wonder.

"She, I don't know, which one you like, so I made it all for you" Tyas said.

"I like everything, but it's like to drink all of this, I can't do it" Dion said.

"Then you choose the one you like the most, the rest let me drink it,"Tyas made a choice.

"I'm just picking coffee, pregnant women aren't good at consuming caffeine, you're just drinking Tyas' milk."

"You're so concerned about Dion that you know pregnant women shouldn't consume caffeine" Tyas said.

"I know, because now my wife is also pregnant with Tyas, she is there herself, is pregnant with the fruit of our love," said Dion, her eyes turned red and slowly began to tear up.

"Sorry Dion, because I have brought you into this difficult situation, but I do love you Dion, I would even be willing to be second, "Tyas put his head in Dion's arm.

"Take care of Dion with my sincerity, I will accept you as you are," he grabbed Dion's hand and kissed her with all his feelings, Dion's hand wet with Tyas' tears.

I appreciate your sincerity, your love, but I chose her.

**I cannot love you, because my heart belongs to him, you cannot have me, wholeheartedly, I just want to be faithful.

"But sorry Tyas, I can't love you, let alone betray my wife, after the reception, I'll stay at my boarding houses back Tyas, I'll try to work to support you, I will, although while in college, but I can't stay here" said Dion.

Tyas cried, "But Dion, give me a chance to be a good wife to you, I beg Dion, this time do not disappoint me again Dion."

Tyas sobbed, he clasped Dion's hand tighter, as if he didn't want Dion to leave.

"I've pinned all my hopes on you Dion, don't leave me Dion," Tyas said softly, his cries breaking Dion's heart.

Dion, moved by Tyas' words, involuntarily pulled Tyas' body, and embraced him in his arms.

He could not leave Tyas.

***Do not know where it started, this feeling grew sincerely, and whether all this would end, everything was beyond my control.

Dion was no longer able to hold back his tears, this situation was increasingly exaggerating.

After the dawn prayer, Ummi immediately called Dion, Amira was very enthusiastic, almost all night he waited for news from Dion, so he could not sleep, all night Amira was on guard, and he was waiting for news from Dion, resisting anxiety and to the great hardness of heart.

The phone hooked up and rang on Dion's phone, Dion releasing his hug towards Tyas.

Now that Dion's heart was slashed, the message was from his Ummi, Dion moved a bit away from Tyas.

"Assalamualaikum, Ummi" said Dion.

"Wa'alakum greetings Dion," replied Amira.

And as tears spilled on the two, Amira, who missed Dion so much, seemed to have an oasis in the barren desert, Amira was too thirsty, eager for her to embrace Dion, giving up his desire and longing for Dion, until now, he was unable to speak, now heard in Dion's ear, only the sound of Amira's weeping.

The same thing happened to Dion, tears spilled just like hearing his soulmate cry, holding back the longing for him, for a moment without a word, both dissolved in emotion, haru at once happy.

"I miss you, Dion, I miss you so much" Amira said stammeringly because she was tired of holding back her tears, and that was all she could express, because that was all she felt.

"I also miss you the light, very long." Dion's voice, no less soft, he was like limping to hold back his feelings, between the longing and the guilt that now haunts him.

Tyas was no less haru, he was also sad and tried to hold back his tears, in addition to hearing the song of the longing of the two people, Tyas also haru because now, he became the second among them.

For Amira to hear Dion's voice, enough to be her solace medicine.

"Where have you been, why haven't you called me Dion, all night I watched, my heart didn't calm down, just waiting to hear from you Dion" Amira said.

"Sorry baby, I'm busy, I forgot to call you?" dion replied, while enduring the tightness in his chest, this was the first time Dion had lied to Amira.

"Don't do that again, Dion, you know for yourself, I can't live without you, Dion, I could die if I lose you, Dion." Amira is getting better.

Amira's words were like a high-voltage electric shock to Dion, Dion now wept silently, enduring the tightness that was tormenting him even more.

"Dear, I can't live without you, either" said Dion, this time keeping the phone away from his face, so that the sound of his mischief could not be heard.

While Tyas is also moved by everything he sees, but what power, he also loves Dion, and wants to have it.

Amira who trusted him so much, Amira who without seeing Dion, he was sincere