Love Shielded Risue

the heart begins to give up

I am a fool, if I think constantly of succumbing to Nia, because the more here He is like the braver I am. I could have fought him, after all He had to respect me as a first wife.

But what I can do, my rank may have fallen far below that woman. He's got the best position on Ummi's side, and also Brother.

The woman had many things that made Bang Akhri entitled to defend her. Then me?

Is it time to give up? It's also been a year running. I can't stand it anymore. Especially not for another month, entering the fifth year of my marriage.

Maryam wiped her tears rough. He wanted to escape from this prison. The prison that made him could no longer feel the joy in the days like he used to. Doing any activity, still he can not be happy.

If only there had never been a problem with her body. Or maybe he knew this early, surely he would prefer not to marry alone. Why marry if you can not give offspring.

Mary took a long breath. Enough already! It hurt too much, but why did his leg still not want to step away.

Love, right .. I already love Bang Akhri. I already loved her. Even today I still cover, the polygamy is Bang Akhri from Koh Yohan. If Kokoh knew, what would he do?

A few minutes later...

Akhri came out, he had even changed his clothes once. Still holding the towel, drying the hair.

He approached his wife, with slow steps.

"Sik, sorry?"

Maryam just nodded. She rubbed her husband's arm down and grabbed his right hand.

"Thank you for your inner living tonight, Bang? Maryam is happy, at least my miss is treated." Then peck the back of the hand. Without smiling.

Allahs...

Akhri was pensive, he really did not have the heart. Just immediately kissed the head of the gentle wife, then embrace her slim body Maryam.

"Sorry dear, Brother is really sorry."

Mary was silent, she could no longer say a word. Because if he spoke, his efforts to hold back the cry would be in vain.

"It's okay to go home." Lirih Maryam said that.

Akhri knew, it seemed that the eyes were glazed as he said it. But he could not refuse again, if it was Maryam herself who asked him to return.

In fact, if only Maryam would hold him back from leaving. Akhri will definitely do it, stay here until tomorrow morning. Maryam then released Akhri's embrace. After that hold a towel in Akhri's hand.

"Here's the towel."

Slowly, Akhri let go..

"I'm sorry, Bang? Maryam didn't take you to the door. Maryam wants to take a shower. Please lock the door and the fence from the outside."

Akhri nodded slowly, he peeked again the forehead, the cheeks, and lastly the lips of the wife long enough.

After he left, "Abang went home first to Nia's house, yes."

"Yes, careful. My best wishes to Hussein."

"Yes, honey. Assalamualaikum."

"Walaikumsalam warahmatullah."

Akhri walked towards the door, he turned his head for a moment before touching the doorknob of his room. Maryam's smile still did not fade to him, he also replied wryly.

Astagfirullah...

Along with the closed door, Maryam's body slumped down to Kelantai.

He closed his mouth with both hands.

Withstand strong enough, so that no sound comes out. He was afraid that Akhri was still behind the door, who would automatically hear him.

Because it was true, the husband was still at the door. Waiting for a while, he worried about his first wife.

His hand was even raised again about to touch the doorknob. The desire to return was strong, but the phone in his pocket shook. After he started it again.

He saw the name Kania there. Apparently his second wife had called him several times, up to dozens.

Allahs. Forgive me, O God....

Akhri continued his steps away from the door of the room.

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Back to the inside...

A few moments later, the sound of the house fence was heard.

Mary rose up, peeked a little.

The husband was silent for a moment while looking at the window of Maryam's room.

"Bang Akhri–" Maryam, still hoping he won't go. Such is the heart that is sometimes out of sync with what appears on the outside.

But Maryam's hopes were dashed. Akhri again faced the fence, he opened the lock and pushed the gate wide open. After that, step into his car.

Like what Merr asked. Akhri closed the gate again before returning and taking the car away from his house with Maryam. Leaving the beautiful flowers one after another began to fall off her petals.

Maryam pressed her chest.

Why does this bad thought always come, why does it feel so claustrophobic!

Why should I feel, like a mistress who is come to sleep only, after that in staying away. Though I want Him to go, I want Bang Akhri to be two. I asked her to have a child with another woman.

Then why am I crying like this...?

Mary roared with her cries. Pull the sheets up to the pillows and blankets on them scattered on the floor.

One of the pillows he took and he threw it at the dresser. Making some of the items on it fall, even the flower vase that was there also became a victim. Falling and breaking until it is destroyed irregularly. Unsatisfied with that, he also threw two other pillows alternately towards the photo of his marriage to Akhri.

PRAAAAANG.

"Yahaaaaaaaaarrrhhhh!!! Bang Akhri, you evil Bang....!" Maryam squeezed her head, sat down on the floor.

His heart really hurt. Pain that cannot be explained. He wanted to escape and run into the rain outside. Shouting, telling the crowd, that He was at the lowest point of his life. He was angry, yet could not be angry, He was hurt but forced to understand.

Is this how it ends?

the consequences I have to accept. And I had to force myself to obey this destiny.

Mary was crying in that room. He really can't hold it anymore. It was already too painful, but her lips were not yet able to say she was giving up on the husband.

"My husband!! That Bang Akhri is also my husband, Nia..." At a glance, Maryam lay her body on a bedsheet that was slumped irregularly on the floor. Squeezing it, with a strong clenched hand.

I don't know... He felt he could not take it anymore. Namu still can't say it. Because part of his heart was still not sincerely giving Akhri completely for Nia.