Love Shielded Risue

regrets that still spread (Ummi Salma)

The day changes quickly until it meets the next weekend. Ummi Salma with her three grandchildren was eating breakfast on the table.

Because today, Akhri is still in Pekalongan. And they'll be back in the afternoon, so they'll stay at her grandmother's.

Ummi daydreamed for a moment after putting a mouthful of rice into his mouth. His lips chewed softly, while his mind wandered.

This morning after the dawn prayer, his sister-in-law reported that the woman who had been a daughter-in-law in this house had given birth to her first child in a normal process.

Ummi was flinching. Not a word came out, there was only a wonder also a sense of pleasure when Maryam finally could have a baby. After Arshila's mother finished speaking Ummi just smiled, saying thank goodness I was happy to hear it. After that, he continued his steps home.

Ummi's hand then took a glass of warm water next to his plate. Then drink it later.

The flashback

"Maryam knew Akhri was Ummi's only son?"

"Yes Ummi."

"Maryam knows too, right? that this is a big boarding house," he said with affirmation, making Maryam nod. "When Ummi heard you have a thyroid disorder that causes infertility in your uterus. It really makes Ummi sad, and concerned for you."

"Thank you, Ummi. But Maryam is okay. Even Bang Akhri did not dispute that. We've been discussing." Merr still smiled innocently, while Ummi himself did not like it. Because at that time Ummi was feeling disappointment towards Akhri who refused firmly his desire to find a new wife.

Umm Salma was silent for a moment before conveying her strong desire. He thought if Akhri could not be persuaded maybe his wife could. Because of its shortcomings, it will make its defense weak.

"But Ummi does not agree with the results of your discussion," he replied without further ado.

"Don't agree? Mean Ummi?"

"Ummi does not want Akhri to have adopted children. Who Ummi wants is a biological descendant."

At that time Ummi realized, the woman in front of him immediately choked. So that makes him immediately stare when he heard his words. Not wanting to waste the opportunity, Ummi immediately continued his words.

"You know, this boarding school needs a new leader, from the original descendants of Abdul Aziz. If there is a child present here, but has no blood from my son, how can he replace Abinya?"

Mary's eyes began to tear up, she felt worry over the words of her mother-in-law. But still silent in his gloom, digesting every speech of the mother-in-law. Although Merr already knows, which way this conversation.

"Don't be selfish! Because we wouldn't be perfect if we couldn't give birth to a husband."

Merr's hands squeezed each other. "So Maryam should what, Ummi?"

Umm Salma slightly smiled her faint smile, which was waiting for the question to be taken out from the sweet lips of her daughter-in-law.

"Give it, the right to have children. Even if she has to marry again." A gong is directly. Even without the slightest sympathy, since realizing the clear membrane had begun to bathe both eyes of the perian.

Flashback off

Ummi still remembered very well when Maryam just fell silent without refuting, along with that a drop of water that was accommodated in her eye bag was immediately dropped.

Yes Rabbi..

***

In front of Arshila's mother's house. Ms. Karimah was watering her plants. After cutting some dried twigs, as well as yellowed leaves.

For a moment, his eyes shifted to focus on a woman who was walking into the fence.

"Sister Salma?" he muttered while putting a water padlock in his hand.

"Assalamualaikum, Kaifem. Can I talk to you for a second?" take him with a sad look. Ms. Karimah nodded after answering the greetings, then invited in.

Inside, Ms. Karimah put down a glass of warm water. Umm Salma refused another drink. A moment of silence was created. Ms. Karimah herself was a little awkward. Because even though they are in-laws, still Ms. Karimah is not as close as sisters. He still respects his brother-in-law.

"Reply from you this morning, if I speak of regret? It looks like it's too late" he said. Ms. Karimah understands which news is meant. So he just kept quiet listening to Umm Salma continue her words.

"Akhri was never happy, as she was when she married him. In fact, the late Nia has given three hearts. He only fulfilled his duties as a good husband and father, but never brought his heart into his second household. You must have heard that a lot, right?"

Ms. Karimah nodded, for she was the best place for Maryam or Akhri to pour out their hearts.

"What should I do, Karimah? I apologized to Mary when I had the chance to meet, first. I hurt him too much because of my selfishness that wants to get the attention of your brother. I am a woman too, I know how she feels. But I don't care, I'm also an ordinary human being who has envy in order to show my ability to present a grandson to Him."

Ms. Karimah was confused to start her conversation because if she gave advice, she was afraid of being disrespectful. Only breath came out of his lips.

"A few weeks ago, I was shocked when I found her pregnant. Then today I heard she had given birth and was even a week old. To be honest, I felt embarrassed because my impatience was waiting for him to make things messy."

"Sorry, I interrupted. Maybe this is what is called good wisdom. I'm not defending Maryam because she's my son's best friend. But the woman was kind-hearted. So that he deserves what he expects after all this sadness."

"You're right, as if everything was a constant reply to me who once blasphemed it. Didn't we?"

"Astagfirullah it's not like that, brother. Sorry if I misspoke."

"No, that's the reality I feel. That's why I feel ashamed and sorry at this time. Maryam was happy, but not so with my son. The one still locked his soul inside the space was lost..."

"Akhri just needs a new heart that can make him forget Merr. After all, Akhri is not an unbelieving man. He must be trying to get Merr out of his heart. It's just, he hasn't been able to eliminate everything."

"I've been trying to persuade her to marry again, but the boy still doesn't want to."

"Patience, Brother. She was traumatized by both previous marriages. So that makes him unsure to be able to make his third wife happy too. He was worried about hurting his third wife as he felt he had broken the hearts of his two wives."

Ummi sighed sadly. "All my fault."

"No, Brother. This is his life path. Life will never be as smooth as we expect. Because sometimes we have to get past that pain point before we find the good afterwards."

Ummi pensively permeated the word for word that his sister-in-law said.

"Now it is better that Salma be patient. No more regretting what has passed. I am sure that over time Akhri's life will improve. He will meet his soul mate, and will be happy together. Like when he found Maryam."

"Aamiin, I hope so." Umm Salma was a little calm. He thanked Ms. Karimah for listening to the outpouring of hearts that had previously made her stuffy chest.