Love Shielded Risue

The imprisoned ego

It's been a month, Ummi came back to Maryam.

"Have you said, not yet?"

Maryam understood, she shook her head slowly too.

"Why, not yet?"

"Maryam just isn't ready, Ummi. Is it not easy to accept honey in the household."

"It was just a moment. You have to teach more, so you can add knowledge. Out there, there are many polygamous marriages that are even worse than ours. Ummi alone no matter what is important 'the husband remains fair and responsible."

Maryam. So much was his desire to have grandchildren, to have to force his daughter-in-law to sacrifice feelings.

"You've met Nia, haven't you?"

"Ummi," he replied.

"Have a chat? That girl is nice and friendly, isn't she?"

Ummi spoke as if introducing a friend to me. But unfortunately the girl was introduced not to be made a friend but my honey, this hurt me a lot Ummi. –Maryam smiled wryly.

"Don't waste your time, Maryam. Later if Nia hunted in lamar people how? You see Ummi there is no other candidate sreg for Akhri."

Maryam bit the tip of her lips, enduring the sadness she was about to spill back then. His hands were squeezing each other firmly on the lap. The net shifted up, looking at the ceiling.

I want to reject Ummi, I want to reject him.

Before long the sound of Akhri's car was heard entering the fence of the house. The mother's smile was perfect. He could not wait to speak directly, because waiting for Mary seemed to be too long.

"Assalamualaikum" said the man on the door lip. His tired face looks brightah see the sweet smile of two women he loves, sitting next to each other on the same sofa. Ummi's hand held it strong. "Ummi's here?"

Akhri kissed the back of Umm Salma's hand, then to her cheeks and forehead. Connect to Maryam.

"Ummi's here because he's having an important discussion with your wife."

"Oh, huh? About what, huh?" Akhri was curious, He was sitting next to Maryam. Gets the wife's hand. Bringing him his lap then tightly linked.

"About Cania."

"Cania? Who's Kania, Ummi?"

"That's a loh, santri princess who memorized ten juz. His son Ustadz Fatayat. 'And go down here."

"Oh, Akhri doesn't understand what the person is like." Chuckles softly. Because he did not understand what discussions they were discussing.

"Well, so Ummi's intention is to introduce you to him."

"Include, what for? Akhri doesn't think it's necessary Ummi."

"That's exactly what it's necessary. Because Maryam, and Ummi agreed. Will match you with Kania," he said slobberly, without further ado.

"A–what?" Half-dead Akhri was shocked. That quickly his head turned. "Sir, what is this?"

Maryam smiled, the other hand piled on top of the two of them clinging to each other.

"Yes Bang. My brother got married again, Merr is not papa. Seriously..." That bitter smile appeared forced. But able to be packed sincerely by Maryam.

"What are you talking about, anyway?"

"I just want to, Brother be happy."

"Abang is happy with you, less what else? Don't be weird. Ummi?" Akhri turned his eyes to his Ummi.

"Bang–" called her softly. made Akhri turn his head again. Honestly, his voice was a little bit raucous. Just, as hard as he could try to hold it. Normalize to not sound clear. "Maybe it's true, you're happy. But I want my beloved husband to get more happiness from what Merr has given so far as Brother's wife. If you have a child from your second wife, you will feel more perfect. Not only is my brother happy, but Maryam is also happy because finally someone called me by the name ... Ummi."

His eyes were already really heavy, holding tears. What he said did not come out of his heart. Even if Akhri could read his gaze, he wanted Akhri to refuse directly in front of his mother. It helps them keep the promises they make.

"What your wife said is right. You'll be much happier. Kania's son is good, after all, and obedient. Surely being on good terms with your first wife, they can be like brothers and sisters getting along."

God ... Can I wake up. Wishing a situation like this was just a dream. Ummi really did not use his veil when speaking so as not to hurt me too much. (Mar)

After Akhri entered, Ummi then moved to sit next to Maryam, grabbing her hand. "Thank you, you've helped Ummi to talk like this."

Maryam did not answer, except for her bitter smile.

"After this, he will definitely consider. Ummi was so impatient, to ask Kania directly, if he had any candidates yet."

Oh Allah, Ummi. Can it help me a little with my broken feelings right now. Not getting flatter with the ground.

Mary sighed, she couldn't take it anymore. Both of his eyes had already splashed water onto his cheeks without him noticing. While Ummi seemed excited, until he said goodbye.

Maryam shut the door of the house limply, not daring to go up to her room. Can't see the lover's face for a moment.

Don't let me cry in front of the Akhri bang. I have to look ordinary, so as not to burden him.

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Her night...

They both ate at the same table, but not a word came out of each other's mouths

Since the conversation earlier, it was as if Akhri was inhabiting his wife. Same with Maryam who has no power to ask anything. So the two chose to be quiet.

At nine o'clock, Akhri who fell asleep first fell silent. His sleeping position was tilted back to Maryam.

there was the sound of Maryam activity behind him, it seemed that his wife had not slept either. Akhri twisted his body, making the wife surprised, because it seemed he was also about to touch the back.

"love Brother explained, why did you say that? do you seriously want to mate with other people?"

Maryam returned the gaze with a wistful nod. "yes, Bang."

"Why?"

"For my brother to have children."

"By, you say, Dik? know not the consequences if Abang to say yes. Are you sure you won't get hurt?"

Maryam tried to smile, "said Brother, the woman who longed for heaven must be devoted to her husband. Maryam just wants to be filial with Brother, wants you to be happy."

"By how to tell a polygamous brother?"

"Bang, don't be angry. I'm sorry, because I can't do anything. I'm flawed as a woman. Doesn't that mean Maryam shouldn't be selfish? Maryam must give the child's right to brother."

"Sik, do you realize you're talking like this? it's the same as being desperate. And your great desire is to have you marry again, as if to show that Brother means nothing to you."

"Not so much..." Mary held her husband's hand. "Look, Merr just wants you to be happy...."

Akhri did not answer again, he let go slowly of Maryam's hand while exhaling a rough breath. He took his pillow out of their room. Maryam who saw that could not say anything. He looked down and turned his head back on the pillow.

While Akhri who was still standing in front of the closed room door seemed upset and very disappointed with the unilateral decision given by Maryam.

Not once did he confer with her, he suddenly had arranged a plan to match her up.

What am I? You can play matchmaking without negotiating. Do you really not want you to fight for our marriage without a second woman? Really not out of thought.

Akhri continued his steps, choosing to approach the Sofa near the bed. There was another room in the house, but he preferred to sleep on the sofa.

Switch again to Maryam inside. He woke up again, silent for a moment thinking that if He just stayed in the room, the problem would not be finished. She should be able to explain the situation to her husband. Maryam got out of bed, and walked out to find her husband.

Ckla...

When the door opened, he saw that Akhri was already asleep on the sofa. Mary also shed her tears, which were soon removed. Then walked slowly closer to him, after which crouched down near Akhri's face. Because he slept in a right-hand position.

I've been tormented with this thought for over five months, Bang. Merr wanted to refuse but could not. Merr does not want to be considered a woman of disbelief and selfish.

He grabbed his own knees, his shoulders shaking. His cry broke but he immediately shut up so as not to make a sound. Then walk squatting to the side of the sofa, forcefully removing the tears that were soaking her cheeks.

Sincerely letting you share your heart is a lie, I do not know will be strong or not later. But I can do what, living in an environment of idealism while I have many shortcomings that cannot be accepted. Help me, Bang? Merr what should, I should how? –the body was increasingly shaking strongly, to have to use both palms to silence his own mouth.