Love for Zahra (END)

39. Traumatizing

Zahra had been locked up in her room for two days since she came home from the hospital. He only goes out to eat if called by his mother or his sister. That made the mother worried.

"Sir, Zahra," called the mother from outside the girl's room.

"Talem, Bun," replied Zahra.

(Yes, Bun)

"There is Ega below, Nduk, you meet gih," said the mother.

"Sorry, Bun. Zahra couldn't see Ega, Bun," Zahra said, opening the door.

"Why toh Nduk. How come you never want to find Ega now? What's up now?" asked the mother rubbed Zahra's shoulder.

"I can't, Bun," replied Zahra with teary eyes.

Mrs Ratih led Zahra back to her room. They both sat on the edge of Zahra's bed.

"Mother. Look at her persistence. He is always here when you are in trouble. Mommy sure, she really loves you. Talk carefully with him," said Mrs Ratih carrying Zahra in her arms.

"Again, meet him. Give yourself a chance to be happy, son. Mommy wants to see your children find their happiness."

Zahra wept in her arms. Mother rubbed the melted tears that flowed profusely wet her son's cheeks.

"Come, pity Ega is waiting for you."

Zahra stood with her mother. He walked behind the woman who had given birth to him with mixed feelings.

"Mother stay inside yes," said Mrs Ratih after delivering Zahra to Ega in the living room.

"Yes, Auntie," answered Ega.

Zahra sat opposite Ega. He lowered his head without daring to look at Ega. I don't want to see the man in front of him. She felt ashamed and unworthy of him.

Ega moved to sit next to Zahra. Make the girl shift her seat to the end of the sofa.

"Why avoid it anyway?" ask Ega with a disappointed look.

"You don't remember me at the hospital talking to you?" continued Ega.

"Remember" Zahra replied briefly.

"So why are you still like this?"

"You don't know what I'm feeling, Ga. You don't understand" said Zahra, raising her voice a little.

"OK, I don't know, so I beg you, tell me the same," said Ega pleading.

"I don't think it's bad for you, Ga. I am ashamed of that incident. He almost taints me, he almost touches me, Ga," Zahra said.

"Now I'm asking, did she kiss you?" asked Ega who was answered with a nod of the head, because he remembered once when the man of the universe kissed his neck.

"Okay, beat me up. Whatever happens to you, it doesn't change anything. I love you with you. We're getting married, okay?" said Ega by holding Zahra's shoulder.

"Follow away your mind, no matter what happens, I will always be here to take care of you. So please, throw away your thoughts that you say are not worthy of me. Only I can determine who is worthy and unwilling."

Ega carried Zahra in his arms. Letting the girl cry in his arms.

****

Zahra was sitting with her parents in the living room. Looking forward to his parents talking to him seriously.

"Sir, Daddy and Mommy have been negotiating, it's good that you and your Mother Efelin also moved the village, how?" Dad started a chat.

"I'm up to what Dad says to Mommy, Dad," replied Zahra.

"If indeed you agree, as soon as I will take you there, the house there can already be lived."

"Yes, Dad. I agree," replied Zahra.

"Yes, Mother" replied Zahra.

"Dad wants to ask you something else, Nduk," said Dad again.

"Ask what, Dad?"

"How is your relationship going with Ega?"

"I don't know, Dad," he answered.

He turned his face, not daring to look at his parents who were looking at him.

"Dad wishes you all the best, son. A good man. I'd appreciate it if you were serious about it, '" Dad said.

"I haven't thought of that, Dad."

"You should think about it, son. It's time you had a family. It's appropriate that you have a priest and a man ready to take care of you, son," said Father.

"I don't feel right for it, Dad," said Zahra bowing her head.

"Why do you think like that? I know what happened to you yesterday really took you by storm, son. But, I'm sure there's nothing that makes you unworthy of your life partner. Think about it, son."

"That's what your father said, son. Mother also hopes you can receive Ega," said Mother.

"I'll think about it" Zahra replied at last.

"We do not force you, only, Mother and Father feel that it is Ega that we can trust to take care of you and make you happy" said the mother again by rubbing the shoulders of Zahra.

"Yes, you should rest, don't think too much. Take care of your health, too" said Dad.

"I go to the room first" Zahra stood up leaving her parents behind.

Zahra entered her room and locked the door. He threw himself on the bed. Look at the ceiling of his room which is bright blue.

Do I have to accept Ega as Father and Mother would?inner Zahra.

I even felt unworthy of him. He can get better women than me.

It's not that I don't love him. I actually love him very much. And with my situation like this. I feel despicable, unworthy of anyone.

Without feeling a clear circle flowing from his eyes. Crystals - crystals that can no longer be dammed. The girl cried again lamenting her fate.

The ringing of the cell phone broke his daydream. The phone that Ega brought this afternoon was still lying sweetly on the nightstand. He took that flat object. There was a call coming from the person who was in his mind.

Ignoring that call. Zahra put her phone back on. He looked back at the ceiling letting the thing go for a long time.

He was still not ready to talk to Ega anymore. He wants to calm his mind. Clears all the dirty thoughts in his brain. To be able to think clearly.

I heard the door of his room knocking from outside. Make Zahra change position from lying down to sitting.

"Who?" ask the person outside her room.

"I, Ma'am," replied Efelin from the outside.

"What's wrong?" asked Zahra again in a hoarse voice.

"There's a call, from Sister Ega. Want to say it. Open the door" said Efelin, who could not wait for her brother to open the door for her.

"Yes. Tell her later," replied Zahra who refused to talk to the man.

"Gee! How the hell? Open the door why?" the Efelin grunts on Zahra's doorstep.

"Say I'll call him later" Zahra said at last.

The girl who was waiting at the door was annoyed by her brother's attitude. He turned around by stomping his feet towards his own room. While walking he told the caller who had been waiting for an answer if the brother did not want to talk to him.