Love Buried With Regret...

# 33

" Ren, precisely because the nadra is your best friend, the nadra is entitled to keep you and protect you as much as nadra ren can.." I said to iren...

" You have every right to say, hey nad, you're not my parents, so you have no right at all to me." Iren replied to me...

" Ren, if the nadra does not have the right to keep and protect you, then why is it your best friend ren...??? " my word to iren...

" Ren, as long as you know yes ren if nadra like that ama you because, nadra it does not want if you are to experience what has experienced ama nadra ren..."

" Ren, your future is still long, ren, so you don't want to be a stupid girl who is willing to exchange her future for such cursed pleasure ren..."

" Hey, I said yes to you, you never equate me to anyone, because I'm a great person, you know, and I also know better what I have to do for my life." Iren replied to me...

" And one thing you should remember, is that tonight you've hurt the feelings of my future fiance..."

" So from tonight on, you're not my best friend anymore, and from tonight on we'll take care of each other's lives..."

Then Iren immediately went to the hotel room, and left me who was standing next to the hotel bed that night...

And, my eyes continued to be directed towards Iren who was standing that night in the balcony...

That night, my heart and my feelings were so painful after I heard all the insults that came out of my mouth...

The words that came out of his mouth that night, like a knife that my heart had thrown out...

I really did not think that, the person I had always considered like my own brother...

Then, with tears streaming down my cheeks, I went straight out of the hotel room...

Then, I set my foot on the lake to calm myself that night...

On the edge of the lake Toba, I also cried because Iren's speech that was not consumed by my heart...

And that night I asked myself, am I wrong if I want to take care and protect my own best friend...???

And, am I wrong that I saved his honor from a jerk like that jimy...

I swear, that night I was really devastated by what I had done to me...

And that night beside the lake of Toba, I said to the LORD...

" LORD, why are you so quick to take my father..."

" If my father were still there tonight, he would have embraced me and immediately calmed my heart when I was like this.."

" And why after my father is no more in this world, my life is always full of suffering..."

" And why am I living alone in this world without anyone caring about my feelings..." my words were full of tears that were relentlessly drenching my cheeks this night...