Lika Liku Luka's

CHAPTER 18

"You don't see yourself in you? Remember what you've been doing all this time?"

"I pray for this country, helping those close to me, sometimes not close, but I always don't have the heart to see it all."

"Why are you helping him?"

"Sometimes I send my energy to them? Ki Juru, why did your face turn weird, tell me what happened?" I'm anxious to see all this, it feels like being stuck in a game that would really embarrass me, and all this makes me impatient. Yes, I realize fully, the impatience that arises in the name of indulgence to the elders as the only momongan who always obeyed all his wishes. Hm, yes I am fully aware of my indulgence and awkwardness in front of them. I took a deep breath and tried to control myself. Restoring self-awareness that I should not be too spoiled with them, because whatever the conditions, they will accept and love me sincerely.

"I'm sorry my son, we haven't done this either. But something seems to be wrong in your process. Because each spiritual journey is a journey of personal self-learning that will vary from person to person, as well as yourself with the elders. We have just seen you scattered everywhere, becoming the image of this land, at the eastern and western ends of this land, at every border of the land. In the place of your friends, why can you see and listen to them so clearly, because the energy you send is actually a part of yourself, your life, your spirit. And, hek hek, (Gusti Haryo Mukti is trying to hold back the laughter to continue his talk), it is only natural that now you feel exhausted and lost almost half your life, he said,  because it is your life without you knowing you give it to people who ask you for help. Hahhaha, oh my son, I'm sorry I can't bear to laugh, and your current body, is occupied by those who occupy empty places, he said, here are all the remnants of the burning energy while you're at work, the body heat that is all eating away at your body."

"My son, you are a manifestation of the ombo universe, where all parts of the country can shrink and merge within you. And what is within your reach is really yourself, and all this time what you do when you help your friends, when you help this country, you have sacrificed yourself. Without you realizing you have given your life and strength to them. And now you have to change all this, before it's all gonna run out and die after us." 

"My son, there's nothing to blame, because you learn while working, and not learning the package, in the bathin universe there is no writing package, which I hope you will be able to do, I hope you will be able to do, you walk without a teacher and without friends, alone and no one is with you. It is only natural that if you make many mistakes, even children who do not know fire, playing with fire will also burn, as well as yourself. A very understandable thing, and I can understand very well."

"Your job now is to go down the trail after trail you've been on your whole journey and pull back what you've let go of you, and the puzzles will come back and be completely arranged in you.  That's where your power is. And my son, now you can understand why those you are with become like you, because you have actually given them a part of your life energy. It is natural that you feel very weak and helpless, sick and suffering"