Let Me Hate

Episode 70's.

At Sudrajat Astari's family home, she has been lonely since Kevin left for work, and she calls her sister-in-law and asks Sisil to accompany her.

" Why ?, why tumben?," Sisil teased Asta.

" I don't know, sister, it's been a few days I feel uneasy every Mas Kevin left for the office," replied Asta.

" Aren't Kevin in 5 days to go to America?, if you're worried why not accompany him when he leaves later."

" Maybe it's better, brother, than I'm restless here and it'll make him unsettled. Alright I'll say it when she gets home later," Asta replied smiling.

They were peeling mangoes in the back garden and suddenly the knife used by Asta to peel mangoes hit his finger to bleed quite a lot, because the wound was very deep.

" God, how can you get hurt?, let's treat your hands!, bi...bibi...quickly get me a bandage and..., what are you doing bi ?," said Sisil panicked because he saw aunty carrying a freshly picked cassava leaf and a snail.

" Sorry Mom, please chew this cassava leaves to stop the bleeding!" said the aunt to Sisil, while he broke the snail and gave his mucus to the wound in Asta's hand.

Sisil without understanding did as requested by the aunt and covered Asta's wound with the cassava leaves after it was just covered by a bandage.

Asta stared silently at his wound making Sisil worried and not how long Madam Sudrajat approached them.

" Your wounds must be treated immediately. We go to the doctor now" said Mama in a voice that sounded soft but also vibrated making Sisil look at her in surprise.

" Sisil, you accompany us" Mama's orders .

They rushed to the hospital at Mama's request, while Asta just stared at her wound.

On the way Sisil receives a call from Rizky.

" Is Mama with Asta?" asked Risky slowly.

" Yes, Mama and I were in the car accompanying Asta, his hands were hurt deep enough and Mama looked really hit. Frankly I don't understand, isn't Asta just a slashed wound ?."

" I think Mama's got word from Papa. Listen Papa, Mama must accompany Asta continue and do not leave him. Kevin is in critical condition, and the surgical team is currently trying to get a bullet out of his chest. The surgeon will try although it is very unlikely to survive," Rizky spoke quickly while Sisil just silently stared too shocked at the news. Until finally Mama held his shoulder made him realize.

" Good Mas.." he said softly.

Sisil looked at his mother-in-law and sister-in-law with sadness that he could not speak and he saw his mother-in-law smiling despite the hue of sadness on her face asking her to calm down so that Asta did not fall.

They arrive at the hospital where Kevin is also in rescue. Sisil and Mama brought Asta to the doctor's room so that the wound was treated immediately.

The doctor examined Asta's wound and smiled as he removed the bandage that wrapped Asta's wound.

" Sorry doctor, we were so panicked when we saw the blood coming out that we followed what our housekeeper was doing. Is that a danger?," asked Sisil worriedly.

" No Ma'am. Actually this is a good first aid traditionally, because mucus locus or snail is very good for treating wounds and stopping bleeding, and, while cassava leaves in addition to having the same function to dry the wounds of cassava leaves are also useful for removing scars when they are dry," replied the Doctor made Sisil nod in understanding.

" It's over, hopefully it will heal soon" said the doctor.

They walk out of the practice room and meet Dini and Rizky who ask Asta to see Kevin.

" Did something happen to Mas Kevin?, where is he, I have to meet him?," asked Asta with a look of guts.

" You will meet him, but you must be strong and survive for your child who is still in your womb!," said Rizky.

" Alright I promise to be strong and to hold on for my son, even though I know it's very heavy" Asta said and he stared at his family who stood staring at him full of sadness.

" I knew and could feel for a long time, just not expecting so quickly," Asta said to their surprise.

Rizky immediately takes Asta to meet Kevin in the room and he looks at Kevin who is lying helpless.

Asta gently held onto Kevin's hand and placed it on his lips .

" I will be strong and survive Mas, even though it is very difficult. You also have to endure her whispers gently.

Kevin felt tears welling his hands and he opened his eyes and smiled gently.

With his eye signal he asked the nurse to listen to the message he had recorded before the operation.

Without letting go of his hand Asta hears Kevin's message trying to survive his self-destructive grief.

" I'm sorry, I can't keep you company until we get old, our togetherness is only until death. I'm sorry for making the decision unilaterally without talking to you. I have given up my responsibility to take care of you and our son to my friend, and also my helper god. Right now he's probably in the recovery room for donating his blood to me out of bounds. I beg you to forgive me and accept it as my substitute."

Kevin looked at Asta full of requests and on the screen the monitor looked a very alarming change made Asta forced to agree.

" I'm not going to accept it Mas, Mas Kevin must survive." said Asta.

Kevin looked at her pleadingly while his eyes began to dim until he became hysterical.

" I'll take it as long as it's cured." he said loudly.

" Alright, I'll receive Mas Kevin's message, just to make Mas calm down ," he said and the sound of the monitor screen that displays the performance graphics of the organs of the body turned into a flat line until Asta was hysterical and finally unconscious.