Let Me Hate

Episode 68's.

Time continues to pass, now Asta's gestational age has entered 4 months, and he has never felt nausea again.

" How are you?" asked Kevin as they relaxed.

" Why is Mas asking like that?," asked Asta looking at Kevin curiously.

" Next week I'm going back to America, are you willing to come with me?" asked Kevin expectantly.

" Not that I don't want to accompany Mas Kevin, but who am I with when Mas works ?. I know not only I'm a pregnant woman whose husband works, but when you go I want to be with Mas's family" Asta said regretfully unable to accompany Kevin.

" That's it. I won't force you. I can visit you any distance I have to travel" he said, embracing his wife's shoulder.

The night was getting late, but Asta could not close his eyes yet, he felt a fear that was completely incomprehensible.

" Why not sleep?, does my departure make you restless?, I'm just leaving next week. Now go to sleep!," he said tightly hugging Asta's body.

Not how long Asta has started to fall asleep and he dreamed when he just came to do an interview at the company Wira Pratama. In his dreams he always noticed the big painting in the waiting room and he always held it like he felt an attachment to the painting.

Asta woke up and saw a new clock showing at 02 am, then Asta decided to pray at night to be given inner peace.

After finishing the night prayer, Asta again laid his body, Asta's movements apparently build Kevin and he looked at him questioningly.

" Do you want to tell me what makes you nervous?" asked Kevin.

" I don't understand myself. Does Mas Kevin still remember what Mas asked me the first time when he entered the room where the job interview was held ?,"

" A question?, what is... Yes, I asked about the painting. What's up ?,"

" Tonight I dreamt of what I did during that waiting room . I was very interested in the painting. Isn't that a painting of Mont Saint Michel's tourist area?," Asta asked making Kevin look at him in disbelief.

" How do you know ?."

" I don't know, I just felt an attachment to the tourist area. It seems that I left behind a painful memory for me to remember, a sense of despair while waiting for someone who never came to fulfill his promise. But I don't remember who I was waiting for. The shadow looks unreal?," replied Asta staring blankly ahead .

" How old were you then?" asked Kevin.

" i don't know. I just felt like I was there waiting for him to come see me."

" Do you want to visit that place?, I will accompany you if you want to go there ."

" I don't know, I don't know.Thank you, Mom."

" For the ?."

" Now go to sleep!"he commanded gently.

When Kevin was in the office, he remembered Asta's remarks last night and he immediately contacted Rizky for lunch together.

" What is it?, you don't usually invite me to lunch?," asked Rizky while they were at the restaurant.

" There's something I want to ask you about Asta. Why does he not remember what happened to him."

" What do you mean?, does this still have anything to do with the question you asked Bima ?."

" right. Did Asta ever visit France?, and why does he not remember it?, I hope you can say honestly. I really can't stay still if Asta feels restless and unsettled, let alone carried away by a dream."

" What do you mean Asta was restless and carried away in a dream?" asked Rizky worriedly.

Hearing the question from Rizky makes Kevin feel confident that Rizky knows more about what happened compared to Bima.

"So tell me what happened to Asta !."

" all right. Seven years ago, Asta participated in a tour because he won a speech competition in French held by a travel company owned by a foreign businessman. At first we forbade it, but Asta wanted it so much that Papa allowed it. Asta was only 13 years old. And he was the youngest participant. Papa asks for bail to keep his daughter without giving up his supervision. But what we heard the travel company did not do what we ordered. Asta leaves with a stranger he just met. We all panicked and Papa and Brother asked for special permission to find Asta in the country" Rizky spoke as if he still felt panic when he heard his sister did not return to his arrogance.

" Went with a foreign man?, how could he be so careless and irresponsible?," asked Kevin not understanding.

" I don't understand either. Asta is a girl who is just a teenager with a tall body that is different from her peers .I feel like as a teenage girl she has her own fantasies about a man."

" How long has Asta been missing ?."

" Papa and Brother searched Asta for 3 days and we finally found him in the chapel in Mont Saint Michel. According to the chapel administrator Asta never left his seat near the altar. Her actions were like a woman waiting for the groom to marry her. Papa and Big Brother brought Asta back and did an in-depth examination. We are concerned that Asta accepted the act of sexual assault and suffered psychically. Fortunately, the violence we were worried about did not happen to him. But she becomes a different Asta, no longer a cheerful teenage girl, but a girl who always wants to work to achieve success, like wanting to prove something."

" Why then did Asta not remember that he had visited France and only felt an attachment to one place and like he was waiting for someone but he could not see it clearly ?."

" To be alone in a foreign place has a very deep influence on a teenage girl. Frankly our family decided to do therapy so that Asta forgot the incident that happened to him."

" So that's why Asta wouldn't come with me to America, because he was afraid of being left alone even though I went to work."

" Most likely Yes, although to settle alone in the area has absolutely no great influence."

" right. Well thanks for the information. This made me understand more about him ."

" Receive the tie. Been willing to take care of our sister."