I[Not] A Perakor

Unilateral Love

I was stunned when I came out of the room mamah risma I saw bima sitting in front beside the corpse of the papah revelation was welcoming guests who still came to serve

and what surprised me was that he was not alone but sat down with his first wife and joined his hands

what a harmonious and romantic couple makes all who see him envious of me

I who have long put my heart on the figure of bima can only swallow seliva see the scene that makes the heart sliced, ironic right??

I have loved bima ever since we sat in High School precisely since we were the same sitting in class 11 and one class and even one table

faithful days together with her make me unable to turn my eyes on other men,but all I felt I had to hide was a meeting when I accidentally heard that bima never felt anything to me

even lightly he offered me to his best friend the baby to date me, it hurt when I hoped but before that hope grew it fell first.

and from that moment on I really tried to hide this feeling for her so that she never realized that I loved her so much

until slowly I can forget it because we rarely met because he continued college outside the city while I was busy with my work and my family

and I was getting convinced to forget about her 6 months ago when I heard the news that she was married to her college friend

and we got invited to her wedding, too,namu when he came there the wife who I know named alena was so very disliked me because it looks familiar with bima when we only talk potluck and with distance but I don't know what makes it not comfortable seeing me talking to bima

and from that moment on I decided to completely break off communication with him because he did not want his wife to misunderstand us even though what we did was natural even we were very distanced.

until one more day, the Lord seemed to be testing my patience when I heard that the revelation sir entered the hospital and he told me and my whole family to come to the hospital at that time.

and how surprised I was when I heard his request to marry the bima right then and there that made me even more surprised mom agreed to it without considering it first

but what the revelation sir and mother did to me and the bima was like it had been planned in advance until all the preparations went so smoothly that the legal word echoed and bound me with a complicated bond and relationship.

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I tried to neutralize my feelings of pain and disappointment since leaving my room

I also approached the mamah risma who sat on the sofa of the family room alone in a state of crying bitterly

"your patient friend, mah, let papah go calmly, huh mah" I said as I hugged the body of a middle-aged woman who was crying over the departure of her beloved husband

"you're okay, aren't you, son?"ask mama Risma who made me confused

"me?what is it with me, Mah?of course I'm fine" replied I who was still in a state of confusion

"are you okay to see your husband with another woman?"ah. I finally know why mamah Risma asked about my condition

"he's the first wife mas bima mah, it's precisely who should mamah ask her condition that alena is not yana"my answer is honest because it is indeed all that must be questioned his condition when later he knows his husband has married again.

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