I[Not] A Perakor

Husband's Permit

"mas is asleep?"tanya ayana who has now been lying beside the bima and can never close her eyes

"why is there anything you want to talk about?"

"hmmm..."

"what?what are you talking about?"

"can I go back to work?"

"haven't you done it yet?not that you just said you just came home from work just like we were the same until here"

"yes, but I'm just a permission from you and still can't get permission from you"

"is it important what I think?"

"of course my husband yes even though only on paper hehehe"ayana chuckled meraaaa amused himself when remembering his current status

"if I don't allow you to decline?"

"yes, you don't want to have to" answered ayana a little limp when the bima seemed not to give permission for her to return to work

"why is the answer so lethargic?he said ask my opinion?"

"yes, too, but I'll get bored if I just stay at home,I'm confused to do something at home this big all the work already there is a megang not to mention mamah will not allow me to do homework"

"so may I work again, please" continued Ayana by putting on a face that was clear to ask permission from her husband

"dian..."

"what mas?"

"may I ask you something?"

"what do you want to ask?"ayana also changed her sleeping position

the one that had been stretched now tilted his body to face toward the bima

"why did you accept this marriage?"

"of course because of mother's request"

"can't you just refuse it?"asked Bima who did the same thing tilting her body which was originally stretched now facing towards ayana until now they can look at each other

"didn't you feel overwhelmed by this relationship?"

"no mama Rina loves me so much, andri why should I be burdened?"

"but I can't give what a husband deserves to his wife"

"yes I know Mas I also will not force mas to love me.If indeed Mas want to end this marriage yes let's end but later yes wait for the condition mamah improve first,so for now please be patient yes"heard the answer from ayana bima also feel full

during this time Bima only thought about her own feelings and also feelings without thinking about how the condition of the mother who is still in a state of slumped because of the loss of the very person she loves

Bima felt slapped with what Ayana said and the reason why ayana still survive the loveless marriage they live in now

"yes it's better we sleep this late at night isn't tomorrow you're going back to work"

"have you allowed me to go back to work?"

"as long as you can take good care of yourself, you will allow, one more thing you must also limit your relationship with the opposite sex"

"why is it so free to have a relationship with another woman, why can't I?"

"it's up to you to work follow the rules I made if you don't want to mean forget to go back to work"

having said the rules that bims apply in their relationship

bima also changed his sleeping position to turn his back to Ayana

ayana breathed her rough breath and followed the trail of the bima who had fallen asleep first and did not take long for the ayana to fall asleep lulled into her dreamland

a subtle snoring was heard which indicated that Ayana had completely fallen asleep

bima also turned back his sleeping position to face towards ayana

bima noticed ayana facial lines that look beautiful even without makeup polish

pliable eyelashes and a sharp nose add to the perfection of a beautiful face nan Ayu belongs to his second wife

Bima ventured to caress the delicate cheeks of ayana who was now sound asleep

"forgive me because I cannot love you and I am truly sorry" muttered the bima who of course could not be heard by ayana because ayana had entered into the world of her dreams.

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