I[Not] A Perakor

Bima Tang

"yet not asleep?"ask bima on mamah risma who is still focused on reading the book on her lap

"mmm.."but only Deheman was able to come out of that mouth because he had to suppress anger and also disappointed in the child

"i used to go to the room, ma'am, you should also quickly rest" said Bima again and then moved from where he stood to his private room.

"how mamah can rest bim is right until now mamah do not know the condition of ayana and where he is now"gumama mamah risma when the bima has left her

mamah risma did have time to go to the house of Ayana's parents after reading the letter and how surprised mamah risma when he found the house was empty from its residents

not to mention the answers of the residents he met to ask the whereabouts of the ayana family

mama Risma was so shocked when she found out that the Ayana family had been expelled because ayana was the mistress of a businessman.

while Bima himself walked gontai to climb one by one the stairs that would take him to his private room where the person he was looking for was there, thought Bima at this time.

bima sighed and threw it away violently before turning the handle on her bedroom door

bima scrunched her forehead as she opened the room door looking so dark

"assalamualaikum, is he inside?how is the room dark?"bima said greeting while asking the occupants of the room when entering into a room that is still dark

back the bima fused his eyebrows together because there was no answer to the greeting he said

bima put his hands on the wall of the room right next to the door to turn on the lights because the switch is located there

bima grew more astonished when his room looked clean and neat there was no sign or trace that someone inhabited the room

bima continued his steps towards the lemaru clothes that had been occupied by ayana to store all his clothes and personal belongings

bima was again stunned when he saw that the two cabinets had been empty from the contents of his

bima ran out of the room to the lower floor where the mother was sitting reading a book

but his steps stopped when he saw his youngest child stopped in front of him with a breath that was not bored

"ay_ayana where is mah?why is the room empty?"ask bima to the mother

but mamah risma flinching only her hand that moves to take an envelope from the dela book that she read earlier

"let's read..."

"this is what mah?"bima asked as mamah risma thrust a white envelope at her

"this is ayana for you, you're tired mama doesn't want to discuss anything at this time so you better read this"

mamah risma also died bima who was still fixated staring at the envelope that had been given by mamah risma.

bima walked over to the sofa and sat there, quickly opening the envelope

the first thing he saw was 2 atm cards that he had given for a living while being his wife

and Bima went back to reach the contents of the envelope and found a letter in her and bima began to open and read the letter that Ayana left for her.

["hi bim, how are you?I'm sorry if I didn't have time to say sorry to you,sorry if all this time I have been a burden for you and also mamah risma really I do not intend to use you in the least because I really love you.I also want to thank you for you have given me the opportunity to be your wife, I go yes bim may you be happy with her.Goodbye Abimanya Peadipta Hernawan"]

bima squeezed the paper and unwittingly the clear liquid had fallen from his eye pellet

there was no love he felt for ayana yet but somehow when he knew ayana went his heart was so painful

bima covered her face with her palms, her shoulder seemed to tremble indicating that she was now crying a mouthful

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