I'm waiting for your Candandamu

Diary Mother part 2

At the hospital where he was treated, Dinda is now accompanied by her brother Yanti. After being contacted by Mrs Aditya, Yanti immediately rushed to the hospital. After Yanti got there, Madam Aditya and her husband came home to take her home and keep Arka at home, because it is not good for Arka to continue to be in the hospital.

Yanti clasped her sister's hand and looked at her sadly.

"You must be patient Din, at the end of this disaster there must be a silver lining," said Yanti.

Dinda smiled as she returned her brother's hand.

"I have much to learn from you, brother. You can continue to live your life with freshness. While I always live it with tears," said Dinda.

Her brother was a strong woman. Maybe because from childhood he had lived a difficult life, because after their mother died, their father also left them for the sake of the woman of his dreams. So that his steadfast soul had been imprinted, as he felt responsible for his sister.

While Dinda who always had a place to depend, made her soul become weak and obedient.

"No, I'm not as strong as I look. When I was convicted of not being able to have children, I also felt desperate. Until I felt reluctant to continue living a life that no longer had a perfect future for someone who was married. But your Mas always gives his support, so I can get back up," said Yanti.

Drrrr...

Dinda's phone located on the nightstand vibrated. They turned to the nightstand.

"Let me get it," Yanti said, rising up to pick up Dinda's phone and handing it over to her sister.

"Vino is calling, sister," said Dinda, staring at the screen of her phone.

"Yes, already. You just lift up, Brother wants to come out for a while," said Yanti, then he went out.

"Hello Vin, what's wrong?" ask Dinda.

"I'm sorry I was forced to call you Din, I don't know who to share it with. My heart was completely broken at this moment," Vino's voice sounded hoarse and weak.

"Why Vin?" dinda asked worriedly, she was surprised to hear such fond words from Vino.

"It turns out my mother loved me Din, it turned out her life was so painful" said Vino.

"What do you mean Vin? Surely Mama loves you very much" said Dinda. Although he actually did not understand the direction of Vino's conversation.

"I don't mean Mama, Din. But my real mother" explained Vino.

For a moment Dinda was silent, because she did not know what to answer.

Why did Vino suddenly discuss his birth mother? Thought Dinda

"I'm at my mother's house now. I'm so sorry that this time I called her my mom. When he was no longer here. When he can no longer hear it," said Vino lirih and again sobbed.

Dinda who listened to Vino's words was getting confused.

"What do you mean Vin? Why is your mother no more?"

"He has left this world. He was the one who helped you in the accident. He's determined to push you until he gets hit by himself."

Dinda gasped at Vino's words.

So it's true what he felt, that someone pushed him during the accident. He could not see who had been hit, as he was in a lot of pain at the time. But he did not expect at all that it was Vino's real mother.

"I just read my mom's notebook, which is why I know she came back that night to take me with her, but she had an accident" Vino said.

"I couldn't continue reading because my heart wasn't strong, but I wanted to know everything my mother had written. Will you accompany me to read it? You don't need to be here, you just need to hear it over this phone. I will feel you are here, be my support so I can be stronger" said Vino.

Dinda felt her tears well up. He wanted to be next to Vino, and hold him tight.

"Yes, of course, honey, I will always accompany you" said Dinda.

After a while, Dinda waited for Vino's voice, but there was only silence. Dinda began to feel anxious. Then then, there was the sound of Vino reading slowly.

**After you're released from prison, Mama goes back to look for you. And Mama was so happy to find you were in such a wonderful family and and I was so grateful to find out they loved you so much.

Vino paused for a moment, and turned the pages of his book.

11 January

Since morning Mama missed you. Today Mama ventured to see you up close. Mama came to your company, son. And Mama is so proud, you have become a CEO that everyone respects. But that day Mama also felt very sad, because Mama heard from your employees that you hate women. Mama knows it's all a result of your hatred for Mama. Forgive Mama Vin.

14 March

Today Mama is very happy to hear that you will soon be married and happy again Mama, when she finds out that you are married to her son Darwanto. Maybe you hate Darwanto, because you think Mama left you for him. But you know, son, he's a very nice guy. My mother has nothing to do with her. Mama met him at the hospital, every time she was treated for the wounds your father gave her. Darwanto is on medication for his heart disease. He's the one who told Mama to pick you back up. Because at that time Mama was completely unaware of anything, there was only hatred that filled the heart. He always helps Mom. Even for taking part in bringing Mama to escape, she was also jailed for two years. Mama can only pray that you don't hate her Nak**.

Vino stopped reading for a moment, as he heard the sound of Dinda's crying from his phone.

He took a deep breath to reduce the tightness in his chest.

"I'm sorry honey, because I've made you think badly of your father" Vino said regretfully. Because all this time it has been mapped in his memory, that the man who threw it away with his mother that night was a bad man.

"No Vin, I myself from the beginning had been thinking badly of my father. Because I thought that my father left us for your mother" Dinda said.

Vino sighed, and began to read again.

**27 March

Today was the happiest but also the most painful day for Mama.

We're back in the face after all this time. Your gaze that Mama had longed for, is now staring at Mama. But your gaze is full of hatred and fear, son. My mother's heart was sad and hurt. Forgive Mama who can only give you a gloomy childhood. Sorry Mama...

30 March

Mama was so happy when she found out that your wife was pregnant with Vin. I can't wait to buy something for my granddaughter. In the toy market, Mama arrived like a dazed person when choosing her toys.

I hope you like my gift.

April 1st

For some reason, this morning Mama wanted to fill out this notebook early. Looks like Mama's going through something good today. Maybe we'll meet?

Oh Allah... I just want my son to not hate me anymore. May it?

Vino again sobbed bitterly, his body to the point of shaking at will. He closed the book slowly, and held it in his chest.

Seriate...