I'm Not a Killer

Strange feeling 2

Shaka leaned his body on the chair while sighing deeply. This morning, he felt strange about himself. When he woke up this morning and found Rinjani in his arms, Shaka felt that something was different from his relationship with the girl.

Every time Shaka hugged her, the rhythm of her heart rhythm was always changing faster. His blood flow also felt more flowing. Shaka is often confused himself if that is so.

Even this morning when he left and took the time to scramble Jani's hair as a form of saying goodbye, then the girl returned with a smile, Shaka felt more and more strange. And even stranger because somehow Shaka likes that smile.

"What's wrong with me?" the question came back, he murmured. Jani is his wife. But it's not that he doesn't love her at all. And Jani hated him so much. Why are they smiling at each other now?

"Hey, Boss. " Shaka's reverie is startled by the presence, Randi. As usual, the secretary and his close friend were never excused if you want to enter the room of his big boss. Not very polite.

"It's lunch time, you're not out?" The man approached his boss who was still pensive.

"I don't want to go out. Just have someone drop me off for lunch?"

"Don't want to go out? the tumben? "

"Ck don't ask too many questions. Work fast. " Shaka is upset because he thinks his secretary brengs*k always wants to know his business. But not Randi's name if not urgent. The more Shaka looks to be hiding something then the man will definitely ask more and more questions.

"Why? Rinjani is torturing you again, or are you missing Re? "

"Re..? " Saka repeated the name. Right, it seems like it has been a while since Shaka did not mention and even remembered the name of his former fiance.

"Yes, do you miss him?"

"Hindu? Eum, I-" Suddenly Shaka got confused at being asked about missing. Because he himself forgot when was the last time he missed that girl. Is it possible that his busyness taking care of Rinjani makes his longing slowly fade, I don't know. Not even Shaka knows.

"Of course." Shaka shook his head.

"Hey, don't you miss him anymore? or have you even forgotten about it? well, well, well, Jani is so great, yes, it can make you forget about Re, even though you were crazy about that girl before. " Look, instead of stopping Randi even more as he pleased to talk.

"What are you talking about? stop talking nonsense or I'll throw you out."

Oops, hearing that his cold Boss had started to bleed up only then did the man close his mouth. But still with a mocking smile on the corner of his lips.

Shaka took his breath back. Randi's question about Renisa made her even more confused. He had almost gone crazy before because he had to leave the girl. Why does it feel so ordinary now? as if the loss was gone.Is that so?

"Eum did he ever call you?" shaka asked suddenly which made Randi frown in wonder

"Contact me? mean Re? "

Shaka nodded.

"Well, to ask about me maybe?"

Randi seemed to remember for a moment and then shook his head.

"Never. "

"Ooh great. " Shaka breathed a sigh of relief.

"That means he can really accept my decision. "

"What?" Randi knitted his brows in wonder. There seems to be something strange about Shaka's sentence just now.

"So you asked him because you wanted to make sure he could accept it or not? not because you miss him? "

"I-yes I-"

"Fix, you must have forgotten, "cut Randi quickly to hear Shaka's confused answer.

"Stop taunting me stupid ! Am I really confused right now? "

"Haha..!" Hearing her friend confused just makes Randi uproar. It's funny to see a latitude Shaka with his confused face. Usually all this time that is drawn from his handsome face is just a cold and stiff impression.

"You're confused as to why, sir. Confused by your own feelings? "

Shaka shook his head.

"Either, " Again the sentence that is said indicates he does not understand his own feelings.

"Don't confuse Shaka, "Randi put on a serious pretentious face.

"Jani is your wife. It doesn't matter if you like it. That's one thing.."

Randi paused his speech while raising his index finger, while Shaka listened carefully to what the man was going to say.

"You can't go into depression like Jani."

"Hey, what do you mean? " Of course Shaka protested with the phrase Randi.

"No, Shaka. I'm serious .. Taking care of a depressed person is exhausting. Sometimes it makes us depressed. "

"Huh, do you think I'm that weak? " Such Shaka, he never wanted to be considered weak by anyone. No matter how tired his soul is, he will always hide it.

"I know you're strong, but anyway people must have a weak spot in their lives."

"Enough, enough, Randi." Shaka shook his hand. He felt that Randi's sentence had gone too deep as if Shaka looked so apprehensive.

"Trust me, I'm not that sad. It used to be, but not anymore. "

"you mean? are you enjoying your role as a nurse for the depressed? "

"Come, Randi. Stop taunting me. "

"I'm not mocking you, Shaka. I seriously asked. " Randi refused to be considered mocking because in fact he was a little surprised by Shaka's answers earlier.

"I've seen lately that you're not like a depressed person anymore. Rinjani is getting better or are you enjoying your role? "

Shaka pensively, looking at Randi's question. True, his heart had indeed been feeling a little relieved lately. Do not know because of Jani's improved condition or because he already enjoys his role. Or because of both, I don't know? Again Shaka did not know the answer.

"Come, "The man replied after previously taking a rough breath.

"Oh, don't talk about it anymore." Confused by Randi's question, Shaka finally asked the man to stop talking about Jani.

"Oh yeah, I'm confused too. " Randi scratched his own head as if he was clenching not understanding what happened to his big boss.

"Go get me my lunch now, you've been wasting my time too long." Remove Shaka while shaking his hand. Randi in it feels too many questions and almost all the questions are difficult to answer. Besides the boss here is him, why even Randi who so many questions.

Randi came out while nodding his head with a face that still looked confused

Shaka actually why yes, lest he also had stress like Jani. More or less that's what's on Randi's mind right now.

After Randi came out Shaka somehow realized not suddenly muttered.

"If you knew how sweet Jani is now. "