I'm Just a Substitute Doll

The Items Collected

"We say goodbye first" said Aiden.

"Tomorrow I will see you again after greeting Aunt Li at the company." Vivian said as she hugged Yelena.

Vivian let go of her embrace and waved her hand. Yelena who was standing on the house hatch smiled as she watched the two of them leave.

It's getting dark. The house that was crowded with laughter, now only the sound of crickets is heard.

Yelena looked around the house whose lights Aiden had lit. He smiled faintly considering how Aiden and Vivian cared deeply for him.

He sat for a moment on the terrace and looked at the starry sky above. Just like yesterday, there is no moon tonight.

Yelena bent her knees and hugged him. The cold began to attack him, but he was still reluctant to get up from his seat. He stared at the courtyard. There he once fell down, under the swift rain also a puddle of water that seemed to swallow him.

He touched his head. Lately his head has been hurting a lot. But he himself did not want to go back to the hospital to check on him. That was enough last time.

Yelena took a deep breath, then moved to enter. When the door was almost completely closed, a light hit his face through the gap of the door that had not been fully closed.

"What is Sean?" muttered.

Immediately he ran upstairs to his room and left the door closed. He jumped onto his bed and covered himself with a blanket. Then closed his eyes.

"Why am I running and pretending to be asleep?" muttered Yelena opened her eyes.

Klakk~

The sound of the door opening made him close his eyes again.

Sean walked into Yelena's room. He approached Yelena who was lying on her bed. He rubbed Yelena's forehead.

"Why do you frown while sleeping?"

"Basic sloppy! just closing the door is not right, what if there's a bad guy coming in?" said Sean.

'You are the bad guy!' inner Yelena in pretending her sleep.

Sean's hand still gently rubbed Yelena's shriveled forehead until it was flat again. He sat on the edge of Yelena's bed and looked at her with a guilty look.

He stretched out his hand again to rub Yelena's cheek. Sean frowned as he stared at a trace on Yelena's neck. Traces of his fucking deeds.

"I'm sorry, Yelena.." Sean held Yelena's hand.

He was eager to see how Sean's current facial expression was. How he showed his guilty face. Did he show those emotions on his face or not? Yelena wants to know.

If remembered, Sean always apologized secretly. Yes, in the circumstances as of now. He never said it directly to Yelena. It made his heart hurt.

She doesn't want to cry. Like slicing an onion, even though we do not want to cry, our eyes will always shed tears. Pain that forces us to shed tears. Just like this moment, despite not wanting to cry, the pain in his heart demanded him to cry.

A clear thread came out from the corner of his closed eyes.

"Why are you crying in your sleep? are you having nightmares?" sean wiped Yelena's tears.

"Yes, you are my nightmare, Sean." Yelena said with her eyes closed.

Sean was shocked. He pulled back his hand that was wiping away Yelena's tears.

"You're not sleeping?" sean asked suppressing his panic.

"Why are you always like this? what's wrong with apologizing in person?" said Yelena who still did not open her eyes, but her tears were rushing down her cheeks.

"Open your eyes!" sean raised his voice.

"Is that how people feel guilty? I don't like it when you raise your voice! you never thought about my feelings!" yelena said with her raucous voice.

"I said open your eyes!"

"I don't want to see you!"

Sean frowned. The woman who had always obeyed him, always resigned to whatever he did to her, now had dared to rebel.

He gritted his teeth, his jaw started to harden. His two hands also started clenching to suppress his emotions.

"What am I really? am I really your fiancee? why does it feel like I'm just stuff picked up from the street. I can't even remember anything! are you sure I'm really your fiance!?"

"Enough!" snapped Sean.

"Don't make me hurt you!"

"Are you unconscious? all this time you've hurt me enough, Sean.." said Yelena in the middle of her sobs.

"Please calm yourself!" sean said, who then left Yelena.