I Am Not Crazy's
CHAPTRE 07
...Just curious not to care...
❗WARNING ❗
THERE ARE SCENES THAT ARE ADVISED NOT TO REPLICATE.
The doorbell rang, Sana began to put the school supplies in her bag. Since the lesson after the break, he did not focus at all.He thought about whether he would tell his best friend or not. After going through a debate with himself, he decided to tell now. But, he had not found the right moment, because, both of them were busy chatting from earlier.
“Cindy, Dilla,” call There
“Aduh, benar San,” said the two of them without turning their eyes away
“Oh,” muttered Sana implied a disappointed tone from the word ‘oh’ he said.
Sana has put her equipment into the school bag, she intends to leave the class. However, it stopped because someone called out to him
“Sana,” call Cindy
“So what to say?” Ask again
Sana turned around and answered the question from Cindy
“Ga so Cindy,” replied Sana because she was not in the mood to tell you again. He immediately turned around to leave the classroom, however, he listened to the conversation of his two best friends.
“That's right there, she wants to say what?”
“Udah lah Cind, if ga so means ga important,”
“Lagian lo napa really complicated anyway,”
“Ih, instead of that, I've been to,”
“Can-can be kepo, kirain want help,”
“Yes, I also want to help Dil times, just kepo me bigger heheh,”
“Aneh lo,”
“Dih, kek lo ga kepo also,”
“Engga, anyway, yes, sorry,”
“Sih,"
After that they laughed, Sana became saddened to hear the conversation. He tried to hold back his tears from falling from his eyes, because he was at school. On the way to the gate, Sana accidentally saw Erlangga in the parking lot.
“Erlangga,” call Sana
“Sana?” replied Erlangga and Sana immediately walked over to Erlangga in the parking lot
“What's San? Erlangga asked while he was busy wearing a helmet as if he was in a hurry
“I want to tell you something Er, can we go to the cafe?” ask Sana
“Aduh San, I can't be very busy making preparations for the OSIS election and there is also a little problem with my parents, ” Erlangga replied while taking out his motorbike
“Ga should now, later in the afternoon also gapapa,” said Sana still hope
“You said what the hell San? It important? If it doesn't matter much later, yes,” said Erlangga riding his red Ninja motorbike and turn on the motor
“Ga can yes? Do you have any problems with your parents?” ask Sana
“Ga can San, you don't need to know my problem, understand me dong San, don't see if I'm in a hurry,” said Erlangga
“I go home first ya San,” he continued again while advancing his two-wheeled vehicle leaving Neozone High School.
Again and again, Sana only got disappointed, but she was eager to devote all the activities and events that she experienced with the people she loved.
However, it seems like they are all busy, and sometimes Sana thinks, that in fact she is alone. Behind the smile that Sana always displayed, there was a hidden wound. Sana was eager to tell the wound, however, no one really cared for her, even more so her parents.
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Right now, Sana was relaxing in her room after coming home from school earlier. He decided to watch a Korean Drama titled “It's Okay to Not Be Okay” according to him from Korean Drama many things can be quoted.
As he was watching, he heard the sound of a door coming from below that showed someone entering. There came out of the room to see who was coming, and the mother went home. Even if it's just a layover, she's very happy.
“Mama,” call Sana while running down the stairs to meet her mother in the living room. However, his mother did not respond to his call. But Sana didn't give up just like that
“Mama why are you here?”
“What do you need ma?”
“Ma, I want to tell you about my activities,” said Sana in a row, but, nil, only the wind was heard.
However, Sana still did not give up she wanted to tell a story that she experienced some days.
“Ma, I've been experiencing a lot of events for a few days, mama want to know ga?”
“I'm not interested in your story,” Mama said coldly. Hope Sana was destroyed instantly
Sana did hate her mother a little, because she never defended her from the raging of the father. However, he still loves his mother, although it is undeniable that the wound remains and imprint. The reason he survived until now, because of a mother who did not care about him, he thought maybe one day he could get love from the mother. Funny and weird, right? hoping for the uncertain, it hurts. But, thanks to that hope, it makes a person strong and trying to survive.
“Oh yes I am here just want to say soon you want to go to college, me and papa you have agreed to tell you to enter the business department,” said Sana Mama Sella
“But, Sana ga want to enter the department ma,” lirih Sana
“I do not accept rejection and if you want to refuse yes please, however, you can also bear the consequences of anger ‘dia’,” Firm Sella
“Why is my mom kayak gini to me?” lirih Sana's
However, Sella kept walking without caring about Sana. Sana stared at the back of the woman who had given birth to her, who was now walking towards the door without caring about it at all. Maybe, Sana was invisible to that woman.
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After her mother left, Sana immediately locked herself in the room. Don't ask me again how he and his room are, because it's so messed up. Items were everywhere, messy hair, puffy eyes and also a drop of blood fell to the floor surface from Sana's hands. She was fed up, so she hurt herself. Lately Sana always keeps a cutter in that room. The cutter was used when he was tired and tired.
Sretti...
A cutter landed smoothly in Sana's smooth hand. Fresh blood emerged from it, and a rancid smell began to fill the room
“What am I wrong? Until they are so,” shrewd Sana
“WHY? AS HARD AS IT IS TO GIVE AFFECTION,” shouted SANA
“ARGHHH, I'M CAPEK,” yells again while randomizing her hair
“Hiks,” cries Sana broke she hit her own head as a form of emotional impingement from earlier she sniffed.
“ARGHHH,” shouted There he was really frustrated, and fed up with the life he was having. Not once did he try to put an end to, however, not yet allowed by the Creator.
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Sana's crying had subsided, she had calmed down again. However, he still felt quite claustrophobic to be in this house. He looked at the chaos in his room, as well as looking at himself in the mirror reflection that was no less chaotic. Sana decided to take a shower and went out to get some fresh air.
After taking a shower, Sana wore long jeans, a plain white T-shirt and a black knit cardigan, not to forget the sling bag. He decided to go to the park not far from his house. However, this time he did not wear the jacket Mahesa gave him. Because the park was not far from his home, so he felt safe.
When he arrived at the park, he looked around the park which was filled with various people. The average visitor to the park, no one is alone. There goes around looking for air. When he was walking around, he felt empty and lonely approaching him. In fact, at this time, he was still surrounded by many people who were in the park.
After touring, Sana decided to sit on one of the benches in the park. He daydreams, why is his life so complicated? he was also sad, why was he always ignored by his parents? because he was daydreaming, he did not realize that beside him there was someone sitting earlier. Till...
“Kak,” call the person, Sana who was aware of the daydream, immediately looked towards the person who called and it turned out that it was Risa.
“Eh Risa, Alone?” ask Sana
“Iya sis, was the same brother, if brother?” ask Risa back
“Iya, alone, deket also from home,” replied Sana
“Oh yes, sometime Risa play to sister's house can?” risa said enthusiastically
“Bby dong,” replied Sana and thought Risa was funny
“Oh yes, Risa at that time did not know the name of sister,”
“My name is Sana ris,”
“Oh that, brother now what class?” ask Risa
“I SMA Class 11, if Risa?” ask Sana
“I'm still Junior High, class 9,” replied Risa
“Oh yes, that time Risa said again sick right? How is it healed now?” ask Sana
“Not yet, this is still the treatment stage,” sad Risa
Sana was actually curious what disease Risa suffered. But, he expressed his intention to ask further, because he saw the face of Risa which was implied by sadness.
“Oh so, the spirit yes Risa,” said Sana encouraged Risa
“I can chat like gini,” lirih Sana
“Loh, does Sana sak have friends or friends to chat with or confide?” ask Risa
“Punya, but I feel that I consider them important, while they may be just ordinary friends,” said Sana with a sad face
“If so, Risa can be a friend of brother, if sister Sana wants,” said Risa
Then they both laughed because of Risa's behavior that Sana thought was funny and interesting
“Could be, so we are validating nih,”
“Iya dong kak,”
“Oh yes brother already have a girlfriend yet?”
“Udah Ris, 2 month street like,”
“Wahh, Risa so kepo kayak mana face,” said Risa while guessing how Erlangga face
“Oh yes, now which sister's boyfriend?” ask Risa
“He's busy,” Sana replied
“Owh is it,"
The two of them chatted a lot about hobbies, Risa's annoyance towards her classmates,
who is always nosy to him and there are many more that they discuss.
After chatting with Risa, Sana decided to go home. While walking, he accidentally met a group of people, and he felt a strange premonition. He again cursed himself who decided to go to the park at that time. Why is it that every time he comes out alone, he's always unlucky?
- To be continued -
