I Am Not Crazy's

CHAPTRE 17

Someone dressed in an unbuttoned High School uniform looks like a white T-shirt worn is buying a cake. After the school bell rang Mahesa rushed to the cake shop. He immediately ordered a cheese cake for Sana as he promised. Although the time did not match what he promised, he was forced to buy because of Sana's whining. Once the order is ready, Mahesa goes straight to the Hospital where Sana is being treated. Mahesa was quite concerned about Sana, because Sana had been silent in the boring Hospital for a week. Arriving at the Hospital, Mahesa went straight to Sana's room.

“San, this is my favorite cheese cake lo.” Mahesa looked into the room, but Sana wasn't there. He panicked where Sana was going, and he asked one of the sisters.

“Sus, the female patient in the room where are ya?” mahesa asked while pointing at Sana's room.

“Oh, the patient I saw was in the hospital park,” replied Sister.

After the nurse said that, Mahesa immediately passed from before the nurse. Not forgetting he thanked her and immediately headed to the Hospital garden. In the garden, Mahesa sees a different Sana than before. This time, he saw a lonely and fragile woman, however, trying to be strong. Everything was visible from the look in Sana's eyes that were staring blankly towards the front. Seeing how Sana was trying hard by wiping away the tears that came out.

“Even until now, I still do not understand with lo San,” murmured Mahesa. Then, he immediately approached Sana.

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Right now, Sana was trying to wipe her tears so that no one would see. Suddenly there was a plastic bag in front of him. He looked, saw who gave? the one who gave it was Mahesa.

“Make lo.” Arga thrust the plastic bag into Sana, leaving the recipient confused.

“This what?” ask Sana confused. But Mahesa gave no answer. Sana opened the pouch with a feeling of annoyance and surprise at the contents of the pouch. The contents of the bag is Sana's favorite cheese cake.

“This is really for me?” Sana still can't believe Mahesa actually bought her a chesee cake.

“Hm,” reply Mahesa

“Thanks Mahesa.” Sana was very cheerful while eating that chesee cake, unlike Sana who was lonely a while ago.

Sana was too good at playing that invisible mask. Mahesa noticed Sana eating a cheese cake with a cream splashing on the edge of her mouth. Unknowingly, Mahesa's hand moved towards the edge of Sana's mouth to remove the cream. Sana who was treated like that was surprised, when there was a hand that tried to wipe the cream on the edge of her mouth. As if hypnotized by Mahesa's treatment, he felt that the oxygen supply around him was thinning. Sana also felt the heartbeat beating faster than usual. On the one hand the perpetrator also felt the same way, Mahesa was also unaware of his treatment which was very contrary to his attitude. Moreover, there was a beat in his heart that he had not yet felt.

“Sorry, sorry there was cream.” Mahesa apologized and an awkward atmosphere was created between them.

“Bego lo.” Mahesa cursed herself.

“Sa, I'm sorry ya.” Sana tried to melt the atmosphere so as not to be awkward anymore.

“Create?” ask Mahesa

“Make it all, because I we did not go to the park Saturday yesterday.” Sana apologized to Mahesa

“Sans, we can go there this Saturday, want?” ask Mahesa

“Bby, but, I'm afraid my girlfriend is angry,” replied Sana

“Most is.” After that, no conversation took place between them. Sana was busy with her food, and Mahesa was busy with her thoughts. However, suddenly Sana raised a voice

"Sa, you know what a harmonious family feels like?"

"In my opinion, the harmonious family where all the families understand each other and there is no violence in it" said Sana

"In my opinion, a harmonious family is a family that usually jokes, loves each other, understands each other, and cares for fellow family members."

Arga answered while looking straight ahead and saw a family who cheered and rejoiced in the park. Each one of them stared at the family.

"When is my family like that?" He pointed towards the happy family.

"Honestly, I'm tired of my life." He held back so that his tears would not come down.

Mahesa knew at this moment, Sana was holding back tears. Mahesa could see the envious look emitted by Sana's eyes.

"Actually I also envy San, the same as Lo" inwardly Mahesa.

"You want to cry, cry, cry," said Mahesa

"Gue was traumatized crying in front of people, I always get a punch when I cry," said Sana.

Mahesa immediately hugged Sana, trying to give strength to the girl.

"I'm sorry to hug you suddenly, because I think you currently need a warm hug for yourself who is cold because of the feeling of loneliness," said Mahesa, said, and made all the defenses Sana built collapse instantly.

The tears she endured finally glided free. Sana was crying in Mahesa's arms. Sana let go of all the burdens she bore through that cry. Mahesa faithfully hugged Sana, trying to channel warmth. He knew this girl in front of him was a lonely girl. Mahesa actually did not know, why did she suddenly feel like this? Arga's heart felt like it was slashed when she saw Sana crying in her arms.

"Hiks."

"Hiks."

"Where is it relieved?" mahesa asked as Sana's cry had subsided.

"Lumayan, thank you." Sana thanks Mahesa

"Oh yeah, you're not kasambet, are you?" ask Sana suddenly.

"Well, napa?" Mahesa was confused by the random question coming out of Sana's mouth.

"Well, I just realized it wasn't Mahesa." It was only realized that the treatment was, not like the cold Mahesa.

"Will the cold be cold forever?" Sana's question was actually answered with a question by Arga, it made Sana upset.

"Au ah, ripe," Sana was upset. Mahesa chuckled at the look on Sana's annoyed face.

"Gue also do not know, why I am interested in lo, my heart also can not squirm lo cry, in my opinion, lo masked girl that I have difficulty understanding" murmured Arga

"Huh? You say what Ga? I was just focusing on eating cake." Sana asked Mahesa and was only returned with the head of Mahesa, Sana was only ooh ria.

Then, Sana continued her eating activities. Mahesa watched Sana who was devouring the chesee cake. He remembered what the doctor said a few days ago.

“San, I want to talk.” Arga decided to be honest about Sana's condition. However, he was still doubtful, was this decision correct?

“By what?” ask Sana

After fighting a war with his own mind, Mahesa decided not to tell the truth. He did not want to make the girl sad.

“You want to take a walk around this park? The doctor said tomorrow you can go home San,” said Mahesa

“Ayok, we roam this park, I'm happy finally I can get out of here.” Sana is very happy. After 1 week had passed, he was finally able to get out of this hospital. All around the park Sana and Mahesa much chatting. More precisely Mahesa only responds to what Sana is talking about. After taking a walk in the park, the two of them went inside the hospital room again.

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The doctor came to check on Sana. After the examination, Sana will be allowed to go home tomorrow. Then the doctor withdrew leaving the two of them in the room. The silence continued for several minutes until the door was opened by someone. They are Mahesa's friends.

“Where is San?” ask Satria

“Gue can already go home tomorrow, maybe the day after I just entered school,” replied Sana and they just nodded. Then Satria spoke alone with Mahesa. It seems like the conversation between the two of them is very important, Sana thought.

“San, lo this time alone again gapapa?” ask Mahesa

“Gapa, you have business right? Just go,” replied Sana

“Iya san, Raiden is doing it again.” This time Adrian spoke

“In that case, we say yes San,” said Gio.

They one by one began to leave from Sana's room. There was only one person left, that person was Mahesa. Mahesa hesitated to leave Sana alone again.

“Gue go jerk off, don't bego again.”

After that, Mahesa immediately went after her friends. Leaving Sana alone with an annoyed feeling. Whatever Mahesa said earlier, make Sana badmood only.

Everyone was gone, now he was left alone in the room. Sana decided to shift her mind by watching her favorite Korean Drama. After watching a few episodes, Sana decided to open a social media app called Instagram. Sana intends to find out, what is the latest news in her school. But, the decision to open Instagram was the wrong decision, because what he got was a feeling of tightness filled his chest after seeing a post.

- To Be Continued