I Am Not Crazy's
CHAPTRE 15
Right now, Sana's condition was already a little calmer than before. Mahesa felt pity, towards the girl sitting looking towards the window. Mahesa could see the blank stare from Sana. He was not ready to tell me what the doctor said. Mahesa was afraid that if she told him that, Sana would be shaken again. Just a gust of wind downstream turned on their skin, all dissolved in their minds. Until, the knock from the door made them realize from their respective daydreams. Apparently, Mahesa's friends came to see Sana's condition.
"Where is lo San?" ask Satria
"Say my doctor is fine" replied Sana with a smile
"Thank God, I think you why, suddenly fainted," said Adit and Sana just laughed at Adit's words.
"Crazy ye San, I'm still sprained by your boyfriend," irritated Deva
"Yes anjir, maybe he was angry with Arga fitting your car was passed out" said Gio chimed
"The rules are nih ye, he's worried uh even angry," furious Ardian
"Tumben you don't play games?" sindir Deva
"Yes njir, I'm 24 hours a game" Adrian said
"Well? Was it wrong of me?" say Deva
"Lo play the game continues to run," annoyed Gio
Sana laughed at their behavior, but suddenly she felt alone in the room, a feeling of emptiness approaching and silence in her heart. I don't know, Sana also doesn't understand what she's really going through.
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There needs to be hospitalized in the next few days, because the situation is dropping since the day after tomorrow. He did not taste food, not even often he suddenly cried at night and the worst he often hurt himself. The doctor and nurse were shocked at what she saw. When the nurse wanted to treat Sana's wounds, it turned out that there were a lot of the same scars on her hands. And there is no doubt that the culprit is Sana herself.
"Other times you can't hurt yourself" said Dr. Aldi
"You are precious, Sana" he continued
"Bego" said Mahesa coldly
Nyes.., words pierced once into Sana's heart. However, he was not angry because what Arga said was quite true. Self-harm does not make the problem complete, but, there is a sense of relief that he feels.
"You also have to eat, because your condition is bad, then you are not allowed to go home in the next few days" said Dr. Aldi
"But doc-."
"For your sake as my patient" cut Doctor Aldi. After that he came out of Sana's room.
Sana recalled what Doctor Aldi said yesterday and it made her regret it. Why did he have to lose control yesterday? If he does not escape control, then he is allowed to go home.
During his stay at the Hospital only Mahesa and her friends accompanied and comforted him when boredom approached. However, there are times when boredom approaches and there is nothing comforting, as it is today.
This morning, Sana was bored but there was nothing she had to talk to to get rid of her boredom. Mahesa's friends will come during the day and go home in the afternoon. While Mahesa accompanied Sana until night, and it made Sana become unpleasant.
Sana opened her social media to get rid of her boredom, she opened the twitter application and saw what happened at Neozone High School when she did not go to school. Apparently, there is nothing interesting in the application with the blue bird logo. Because the sense of boredom never goes away, Sana finally decided to post a tweet.
After posting the twett, it turns out that many do not know that he is sick. Many reply, re-tweet, and like Sana's tweet. However, of the many who reply to his tweet, none of the people Sana cares about shows his concern. There are still positive thoughts, maybe they are busy or are not opening the application with the blue bird logo.
"Did I chat them in a group?" sana muttered
"What about their balesan?" resumes again
"Are they worried?" sana saman. Many questions arise in the brain that make it overthinking. Finally, Sana sends a message in the group containing her and her two best friends.
After a few minutes, Sana's phone sounded a sign there was a notification. And sure enough, his best friend replied to Sana's message. However, it turns out that Sana's decision to send a message to her best friend was only a disappointment.
Sana was too hopeful, until she fell into a heavy disappointment, when her expectations did not match the reality. The fact that his two best friends knew nothing about him, was very piercing into Sana's heart.
So, all this time his best friend considers him what? Just a normal friend or is he considered important? And now he knows that he's not as important as he thinks. Again and again feelings of sadness, emptiness, and feeling alone come to pass.
Sana hates this condition. A condition in which he feels helpless, and tries not to hurt himself.
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The clock has shown at 14:00 WIB, and Neozone High School students should have gone home. Sana drives away her boredom by watching her favorite Korean Drama.
Since he ended the conversation with his best friend in the chat room, he decided to watch Korean Drama only. He did not care, with the fact that Erlangga would be angry with him. Erlangga alone did not know, so, how could it be angry towards Sana.
While being cool to watch, suddenly the door of Sana's room opened. Six men in high school uniforms entered the room. They entered while carrying some plastic bags filled with snacks. The six men are for sure, none other than Mahesa and his friends.
"Finally can frown" said Gio
"Basic girlfriend game," sneered Deva
"Crocodile, gosah a lot of bacots," replied Adrian.
"Well, who's a crocodile" Deva said, showing off her handsome face.
"Yes you are anjir, it's just you who have a myriad of girls," said Adit while opening one of the snack packs they carry.
Yes they are, sometimes cruel when facing enemies, and can be soft and random when they are gathered together. Sana was quite amused by the ridiculous mannerisms of some of them. But, if they are invited by a julid, the soul of their gossip monger immediately comes out. Only Mahesa and Satria, who Sana thought was difficult to guess. On one side they can be warm, and on the other side can be cold like ice.
Sana sent a message to Erlangga to just give news. However, the response given by Erlangga is quite painful. Again and again Sana was disappointed, caused by excessive expectations.
"San, why? So sad" asked Satria. Sana was surprised, how could Satria know? does his face look too sad that he is sad?
"Gue know this," said Deva pretentiously laughing
"Sok-sok an lo" Adit said
"Kayak lo cenayang aja," said Gio
"Yeah, I know ya," Deva replied with high confidence
"This must be, your boyfriend's chatty lo again, right, San?" continued again. There was made again and again surprised. How did Deva know? thought.
"Seeing from your face anyway, my guess is real," said Deva
"See? I know, not a snob," narcissistic Deva
"Guy me see lo dev," ledek Gio
"You're really a complicated boyfriend, wow ask at the end of the child," growled Adit
"Well, really," continued Gio
"Just follow this one kid," Adit annoyed
"Like me," Gio replied not to lose.
They only shook their heads when they saw the two people fighting. Strangely enough, if they were to stay away from each other, it was questionable and it was certain that there was a problem between them.
"Eh, you know nothing" said Deva
"Ghibah starts, tok... tok. At once all docked to Deva, except for Mahesh who preferred to be silent and listen from afar.
"So I had a mustache pack lesson" said Deva
"The saha njir mustache pack?" ask Adrian who incidentally same class Deva.
"Teacher Biology, the cave does not know his name, because it has a mustache so I call a mister mustache," explained Deva
"Njir, Pak mustache cake noodle maker chicken deket my house," said Adit.
"He said that he was making sleepy, finally because I was throwing him with a paper ball," said Deva while demonstrating the incident.
"And you know what, my throw did not miss," he continued with a proud attitude
"lo throw the teacher even proud," said Satria was not out of thought with the behavior of his friend.
"Keep, the moustache pack mad ain't to lo?" kepo Gio
"Obviously angry, but I'm on my nose, I can get out of her class" Deva said
"Gue's coming out, too" annoyed Adrian
"Can't you?" ask Adit
"Tuh Crocodile, cepu said I maen game," replied Adit while pointing at Deva and the appointed only smile and show a face without sin.
"Finally we're out of class" Adrian said
"Here, you twinkle," led by Gio
"Engga njir, maen game in class is better," elak Adrian.
Then they all laughed, inexhaustible there, they also discussed about Erlangga who was very pretentious according to them to the orange cat near the house of Adit who bunting. Mahesa only laughs if she thinks the thing her friend talked about is funny. Not only Mahesa, Sana was also quite amused by their presence these few days.
- To Be Continued
