I Am Not Crazy's
CHAPTRE 09
❗ WARNING ❗
IT IS FORBIDDEN TO IMITATE DANGEROUS SCENES
After Mahesa's vehicle disappears from sight, Sana goes into her room to clean herself up. After cleaning himself, he immediately went to bed to lie down. Today, Sana has not eaten from lunch as she has no appetite for food. Night time is the right time to remove the mask that is worn during the day.
“Huft,” Sana sighed
“Sometimes I think, why should my life be like this?”
“It is true, the child cannot choose who will give birth to him, however, what is the fault of the child if he is not like his parents want?”
“Please let me take off my mask because when the sun has risen I will wear the mask back,” Sana said to herself.
Maybe for others he was crazy, but he could only confide in himself. Not to rule out the possibility, there will be someone who hears the curses, even though he is not as dimensional and not worldwide with Sana. Sana hugged herself as if it could encourage herself.
However, in reality, it could only comfort a little of his unfortunate life. You need someone who can be a good listener. He did a buterfly method to calm himself down. The method is done by crossing both hands and placing them on the right and left shoulders. Then, patting her shoulders slowly, it could help Sana calm down and become restrained, and not hurt herself like she did this afternoon.
“Do you know? I used to be so afraid of the dark, but now for me the dark becomes calmer than the light,” softly, telling stories as if there were people in front of him.
“In the dark, I can cry without people knowing, that I'm crying,”
“I hate that others know about everything that happened in my life,” he said again as if he was telling stories with others
“Why? Since they just kepo instead of fully caring,” this time Sana's cry broke out.
Tears freely descended from Sana's eye pelupuk. However, the most painful thing was to cry in silence in the midst of darkness so that no one would hear the cry. That night, Sana passed as usual, crying until tired, then falling asleep.
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The moon changes with the sun, for some people, it is the right time to wear a smiling mask to hide an invisible wound, which feels sore and scarred at night. So also with Sana, is Sana not tired? Of course he was tired, however, it had become his way of life how else?
This morning, Sana's eyes fell back. Sana tried to cover her puffy eyes by polishing her face with powder. When he finished, he went downstairs and went straight to school without breakfast first. Sana's meal hours have been pretty messy lately, she doesn't taste good to eat a mouthful of rice.
Today Sana left by bus because Erlangga did not pick her up. Sana and Erlangga communication is quite bad because none of them gave each other news even though they were dating for 2 months. When he got to school, he started his activities as a student.
Arriving at the class, Sana headed straight to the usual seat she occupied. Sana wanted to ask Cindy about such a motorcycle gang.
"Cindy," call Sana
"Why San?" cindy replied without turning her eyes to a cell phone in her hand.
"Lo know about the biker gang?" ask Sana
"Know, this school there are many who become members of the motorcycle gang" replied Cindy
"But, the tumben lo nanya about soan, you've never been interested in such things?" cindy asked in full search, this time her attention was focused on Sana
"That's it, I asked," replied Sana trying to look ordinary.
"Casual Cin, Sana was just a long time ago, you suudzon really," said Dilla joined the chat
"Hm, in this school the average Devil motorcycle gang, as far as I know the core members of our school's child leader, Class XI IPA 1 as it seems," explained Cindy
"Eleventh same Erlangga, and as far as I know Erlangga rada ga like it is the same chairman," he continued
"Oh, that's the story," Sana said while nodding her head
"Oh yeah I almost forgot, the chairman just moved to our school a few days ago, used to be perfect here in class X, but because of something he moved, because of something, but finally back to school here again," said Cindy while trying to remember the information she had received. There was no mistake Sana asked Cindy, because the boy must know almost all the news in this school.
"AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, THEY ARE ALL VERY HANDSOME WOY," cried Cindy while imagining the good looks of the chairman and his friends.
"A turn of cogan's business, you're the right spirit," said Dilla
"Hahahaha, I agree" said Sana
"As far as I am" Cindy said
Then, they laughed at Cindy's annoyed face that had been ridiculed by Dilla and Sana. After which, the bell rang stopping the chatter of the three of them.
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Day after day passed, the relationship that used to be sweet and giving news now slowly began to stretch. Erlangga is busy with the election of the chairman of OSIS at Neozone High School. The people running were very busy. Many things need to be prepared, moreover there are some problems that he has faced lately with his parents.
There was no chance to ask the news. Doing that, was the same as inviting Erlangga's anger, because Sana was considered to have disturbed him. Sana briefly sent a short message to Erlangga but Sana received a slightly disappointing reply.
Erlangga
^^^Er, you are still busy huh?^^^
Yes San, so please understand I don't bother first please
...What can I do for Er? If you need a place...
...I guess I can be a good listener...
There is no serious problem, San,
Don't bother me, you'll be done
I must be ngabarin
^^^^^^^
^^^Read^^
After that, Sana did not dare to bother Erlangga anymore. Sana felt that the relationship she had for 2 months was increasingly stretched. Indeed, at first everything went well, they were close to spending time together telling each other, although in fact Sana only listened to stories from Erlangga and every time she wanted to vent there were obstacles.
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This time, Sana is alone in her class because her best friend is out. Cindy was said to want to meet Laskar the girlfriend and Dilla who is running for the board of OSIS.
Sana looked around her class for some reason she felt sad and empty all of a sudden. He was in a crowded place, but he felt that he was alone. Finally he decided to wear earphones and listen to songs to be calmer. While listening to a song suddenly Sana's phone sounds indicating there is a notification. Sana opened the notification and it turned out that it was a message notification from Erlangga
Erlangga
San, tomorrow after the election to cafe yuk
We didn't spend much time together because I was busy
^^^^^^^
^^^Read^^
Sana was very happy when getting a message from Erlangga finally her relationship became close again. Sana also wanted to tell him what she had been going through lately.
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Today is the day of the selection of the chairman of OSIS at Neozone High School, all students are busy preparing and choosing who will be the new chairman of OSIS. Due to the election of the chairperson of OSIS, learning activities are being phased out for today. After the vote, Erlangga was elected Chairman of OSIS and Dilla became Secretary.
After the election of OSIS, as Erlangga said yesterday they will go to the cafe. Sana took the Erlangga motorbike to go to the cafe together. Sana kangen once the atmosphere went together alone with Erlangga.
Along the way only silence was created until they finally arrived at a cafe located not far from their school. They entered the cafe and chose a seat close to the window.
“Old time yes gayak gini Ga, I miss tau,” said Sana
“Iya, San,” Erlangga said
“San, I pesen first you want what?” ask Erlangga
“As that time Ga,” replied There
“Which is San?” asked Erlangga puzzled
“Cheese cake, it's my favorite Ga, you don't know?” answer Sana
“Sorry San, I don't know your favorite,” said Erlangga apologized and disappointed in him for not knowing his girlfriend's favorite.
“Iya gapapa Ga, after all our relationship will not end because of my favorite food,” said Sana comforted Erlangga even though from the bottom of his heart he was a little disappointed but he did not show it.
Erlangga ordered their order and returned to his desk again. Only silence dominated between the two of them. Sana looked out the window to see the atmosphere of the City whose streets were starting to solid. After quite late in silence finally Erlangga voiced out
“San, can I say?” ask Erlannga
“Bby," answered Sana justifying her sitting position and ready to listen to what Erlangga would say.
“I want to ask San, You like watching Korean Drama?” ask Erlangga
“Like, why Ga?” ask Sana back
“Engga, just ask San,” replied Erlangga
“Ehm, it's me-,”
“Please send the order,” cut a waiter who brought their order
“San, I asked the question earlier, because I do not like girls who like to watch Korean Drama let alone my girlfriend,” said Erlangga
“I don't like Ga too much, relax aja” lied Sana
“Good,”
“San, I can't pick you up again so I hope you're not late, because I don't like my girlfriend late for school,”
“Eh? yes Ga,” said Sana who actually objected to the words that Erlangga made from earlier.
They finally ate the food they ordered. Sana was depressed, knowing the fact that Erlangga did not like it when she watched Korean Drama and it was against her who was very fond of it.
However, this time he had to give up his hobby in order to please Erlangga. While they were eating, Sana wanted to tell him about the events she had been going through lately
“Ga,”
“San,” say they are together
“You first Ga,” said Sana
“I also want to tell you, if I do not like you close with other guys,” said Erlangga and it immediately makes Sana hesitate to tell what she experienced afraid Erlangga was angry with him.
“San, what did you say?” ask Erlangga
“Ga so,” replied Sana undo what she wanted to say
They ate their food, but while they were eating food, Erlangga's cell phone rang. Erlangga immediately got up in a hurry
“San, I can't help you come home with something,” said Erlangga
“Okey,” says Sana
Then, Erlangga left Sana alone. Sana was curious what made Erlangga so rushed and on one side Sana was relieved because Erlangga did not ask for the jacket he was carrying earlier. If Erlangga asks maybe Sana will be confused to answer him.
- To be continued -
