I Am Not Crazy's

CHAPTER 19 BLM REVISION

Sometimes the stranger gets close,

and the close one becomes foreign not even caring

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By evening, the sun was no longer radiating its light, changing with the moon radiating light to illuminate the dark night, accompanied by the stars. Arga's friends have come home because they have been expelled by Arga and the sisters. Remembering the incident earlier, made Sana laugh due to the ridiculous behavior of Arga's friends.

"Lo on his way home," said Arga opened his voice

"Finally, our ice poles open the sound, let's give a big round of applause" Deva said

"Whisper lo dev," ketus Arga

"Don't bust around, you won't have a soul mate" Adit sneered

"The fool, who's in the hospital bed again," teased Gio this time and they all laughed.

"Bacot," said Arga and suddenly the hospital nurse came.

"Sorry, the patient has to rest and only one person is allowed to stay and the other is expected to go home" the nurse said, while changing Sana's infusion.

"Well, I've been told to go home with the sisters" disappointed Deva

"Because the sisters are beautiful and kind, let's go home bro" Deva told her friends to take them home.

"Basic, if crocodiles are crocodiles," Adrian ledek

"Game boyfriend, game girlfriend," Deva replied not to lose.

"Then I excuse myself to go out first, do not forget the patient needs rest so it is expected that only one person accompanies the patient," said the nurse was smooth and then out of the room Sana.

"We go home first San" said Adit

"The ice pole mate's daughter, Prince Deva, resigns first" Deva said, demonstrating the prince's style.

"Deva lo nyari aja, tuh see Arga's eyes already very tajem natap lo," coda Satria

"Oh yes I forgot, the prospective retainer will be angry," sneered Deva and they all laughed smugly mocking Arga. And Sana also laughed at their behavior.

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Right now there were only the two of them in the room, as usual only silence was created. Sana wanted to start a chat but she felt awkward about this situation. They eventually re-soluble in their respective thoughts and activities. Arga is busy with her cell phone playing activities and Sana is busy with her thoughts. Sana suddenly remembered Satria's conversation with Arga that she had accidentally heard. Sana is suddenly plagued with guilt and feels bad for Arga.

"Ga, you have forgotten it," said Satria

"What?" asked Arga confused

"What Bu Nia said earlier," replied Satria

"Oh, Chemical selection."

"Gue didn't forget" said Arga

"Good, I'll go back first" said Satria while patting Arga on the shoulder.

Sana felt bad, Because of her sick self, Arga's whole life became disturbed. Unknowingly the tears just fell, making Arga panic.

"Hey, you gapapa?" ask Arga

"Hiks..," cried Sana.

"Is there something wrong?" ask Arga

"San?" Arga rubbed his face rough, he felt frustrated because the girl in front of him just cried.

"Gue's sorry Ga, hiks..," Sana said as she hugged

"Sorry for?" Ask Arga confused

"Because of my nemenin, your life must be very disturbed."

"The rules, you learn for the selection of the Chemistry competition," he continued.

Arga immediately gawked at Sana's words. Is it as bad as someone? Arga is also not as smart as they think. He was forced to follow the selection, because his brain was a little smarter than the others. Actually being smarter is not always delicious, but we must be grateful for what God gives, regardless of our strengths or weaknesses.

"Sanja, I also had to come," said Arga relaxed

"But-."

"Diem, do I buy ice cream?" bargain Arga so that Sana is not afflicted with guilt that is useless according to him.

"Ehm," Sana was thinking whether she would reject Arga's offer. However, the offer is tempting for Sana who in fact his ice cream lovers.

Funny, Inner Arga

"Hm," Arga's brief with her mainstay flat face. Arga wanted to smile, but he was too proud to show it.

"So short, really yes said Deva, the ice pole," muttered Sana

"Gue denger." Then Arga immediately turned around leaving Sana alone in the room and headed to a store near the Hospital to buy ice cream. However, just as he was about to return to Sana's room, there was suddenly a call coming in from his phone

"Hello" said Arga.

There was a voice from a phone call that changed Arga's face. The calm face became alarmed after receiving the call. Arga immediately rushed towards the clothes, not forgetting the ice cream order Sana he left to the nurse who cared for Sana who happened to pass by.

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The notification message went into Sana's phone, she saw who sent her the message?. The message was from Arga.



Sana was quite sad to see the message that Arga sent. However, he realizes he is just a stranger who accidentally gets involved in Arga's life. Arga has a life of his own and what right does Sana disappointed with Arga's treatment?.

"What the hell lo san, inget lo just a stranger."

"Don't baper, don't be comfortable, he just pity you."

"Inget lo also has a girlfriend, keep the feelings of Erlangga San," Sana told herself. Suddenly there was a sound of the door opening and showing a nurse carrying something.

"There, this is your boyfriend's seat." The nurse gave Sana a plastic bag that she held.

"Serious of my girlfriend sus?" sana asked confused because Erlangga did not say anything if he wanted to send something to Sana and why did he not directly give it?. However, the sister's next words made Sana again disappointed by her own expectations.

"Yes, your girlfriend who just won you."

"Oh, that's my mah temen sus."

"Then I say retreat, keep Sana's health," said the Sister, then out of Sana's room. It turned out that it was ice cream that Arga bought earlier, indeed Arga had sent a message, that the ice cream was entrusted to the sisters.

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The sun on Wednesday is perfect for a morning walk. Today was exactly a week Sana was hospitalized. Doctors have not allowed Sana to go home, as she was out of control again. On the day Arga left because there was a sudden affair, on that day Sana was out of control and ended up being scolded tomorrow.

"Bego's." Arga was angry at the girl in front of him. He never thought, only last night he stayed and the girl in front of him acted. Arga understood what this girl in front of him was feeling, but, he did not justify Sana's self-harm.

"And I told you not to self harm anymore, still done," angry Arga

"Yes abis opium, like the smile of song kang," Sana said

"What did you say? Crazy to you." Again Arga spent a lot of energy and words to tell the stubborn girl in front of him.

"Gue also did not want to, but that's just what makes me relieved," said Sana. Arga was suddenly overwhelmed with guilt. Just this time has a strange feeling, a feeling that might just bring to a world called love.

"What do I want to buy?" said Arga diverted the conversation.

"Gue wants cheese cake," said Sana with sparkling eyes. Unknowingly Arga's smile rose and it was a rare moment that Sana had ever seen.

"It turns out your smile is also opium," said Sana unconsciously and Arga realized that he had smiled earlier, it made more question marks in him. What's wrong with her?

"There's a condition." Arga gave the conditions to Sana. It is not Arga to give unconditionally.

"What?" ask Sana

"Gue buyin cheese cake lo, if you're cured." Then Arga immediately passed from before Sana. He didn't even give Sana a chance to protest and it upset Sana.

Right now, Sana was sitting in a wheelchair driven by the sisters. He decided to go for a walk in the hospital garden because he was tired of just sitting all day in the patient's room. The current atmosphere is very suitable for Sana, the breeze back and forth greeting the surface of the skin, the sunlight is not too stinging, and the, and only a few people who are in this park add to the impression of calm in it.

"Sus, I want to be alone" Sana said to the Sister who accompanied her.

"Well Sana, remember not to hurt yourself, then I go first" said the Sister.

Now that Sana was alone, she looked around the beautiful garden. The hospital garden is so quiet that it makes Sana comfortable to sit for a long time in the park. But, do not be complacent with the calm that exists, sometimes the calm that makes us drift and eventually drown. As now, Sana was washed away with the calm that existed until she finally drowned with deep sadness. A sense of calm that led him to a sense of sadness and loneliness that he had been experiencing.

"Even I'm sick, my parents still don't care," said Sana with a sad look towards the front.

"Gue thought my best friend and boyfriend cared, but in fact I was just an ordinary person present in their lives."

Unknowingly Sana's tears came down without the consent of the owner. The tears that he had been holding back all this time finally came out. He tried not to drown his sobs and quickly wiped his tears.

"The stranger becomes near and the near becomes foreign." After saying that Sana's tears more and more fell without her permission. Feeling sad, disappointed, and trying to accept everything is very difficult for Sana. She wiped her tears, so that no one else would see her cry. He dislikes it the most if someone sees him crying, he has a bad experience if someone sees him crying.

"Even until now, I still do not understand lo San," muttered the man who watched everything from a distance.