Husband, If Your Father Is On Your Mother, Your Sins Are On Me

Episode 19's

"Neng, payday this month, your rations are reduced huh? So a million only, later if Mas there is more windfall, Mas added again." Mas Yandri said while giving me a pay slip.

"Why is there a problem?"

"Ngga, just Mas want to talk a little bit for Mom. Create Ana's school with Lita," replied Mas Yandri.

I started to feel a sense of anxiety. Maybe if just a few days ago I hadn't heard Mas Yandri call someone on the porch whispering, I wouldn't feel like this.

Besides, I just realized that Mas Yandri's ATM is no longer in my wallet.

To go to the shop or to the greengrocer, I use a small wallet. The money I take every day from a big wallet that is always neatly stored in my bag. Yesterday morning, when I intended to take the money for shopping, I found no sign of the ATM.

I intended to ask directly, but seeing Mas Yandri's strange gurgle made me undo the intention. As usual, I'll be watching for a few days. If it looks like he's not back to how he was, I'll ask him right away.

***

"Neng, have you started buying baby gear yet?" ask Mas Yandri.

I was watching my favorite drama like I had a good chance.

"Yet Mas, Neng was willing to buy one-on-one on online. But if Neng wants to take money in savings, atmnya no. Who took it again?"

"Oh that," Mas Yandri looked misbehaved.

"Mas wants to check the mutation as well as print a savings book. When it's done, want Mas back in your wallet but the card forgot where it sprained."

"Oh, yeah." I went back to watching the drama.

Fix, Mas Yandri's explanation made me wonder. But I prefer to stay quiet and pretend not to know when in fact it is lurking. If he looks up to anything, I will clean it with my own two hands.

***

Mas Yandri was taking a shower when I who was cleaning his desk found several transfer evidence slips to one name. Name of a woman. The amount of transfers ranging from two million to the largest ten million. All transactions are made within this month.

When Mas Yandri came out of the bathroom, I desperately refrained from coming straight up and punching him. I was thinking of finding other evidence that would strengthen my prejudice. With complete proof, I make sure Mas Yandri will not be able to digelak.

My attitude towards her became cold. I'm a wife and I can't keep doing well if my feelings aren't calm.

***

"Tomorrow I transfer again yes..," said Mas Yandri hanging because he noticed me who was standing at the door of the room. Now, Mas Yandri's new habit after eating is to evacuate to our room on the grounds of having to do an office report.

"Don't want to eat Mas?" I asked after seeing him turn off the phone.

The answer made my heart beat fast. The afternoon? Since when does Mas Yandri drink coffee in the afternoon? Even in his office he would only drink tea. Yandri is not a coffee lover. His habit of copying it was because he wanted to accompany me who was a coffeeholic. So, if he can copy somewhere else, other than with me, it's certain, there's something he's covering up.

***

Today I woke up in a very bad mood. Last night I thought about Mas Yandri. I wanted to ignore it, but I couldn't. Mas Yandri entered the room in neat clothes.

"Where are you going, Mas? It's holiday." I looked at him sharply.

"You have some business, Neng. Just for a second. Later abis Mas business is in order, we go out yes. All those streets of baby gear."

"Who is, please, please," I replied.

Mas Yandri looked at me in surprise and frowned. After saying goodbye, he left.

***

Waiting for Mas Yandri to come home was a stressful time for me. I have some suspicious evidence. After that, I will confront him directly.

"Here you sit down," I said as soon as he entered the house. I gave him a glass of cold water.

"Kok sat down, let's get ready. We're gonna walk, eat out."

"It looks like mah Mas, there's someone Neng wants to look at."

After Mas Yandri put down the glass, I took out a transfer proof slip.

"Who is Diana Dinata?"

I waited a while to see the change in expression on my husband's face. The outcome? Niente.

"Why did I transfer to him so many times? Is he the one you called while whispering? What kid is he? He knew he had a wife and wanted to have children?"

Mas Yandri just kept his head down. There's a pain in here that I can't pin down.

"Sorry Neng..."

Mas Yandri's apology makes me sick and angry.

"Let's get ready. I'll tell you everything. I fell in love the first time I saw her. Therefore, you should also look at it, Neng."

My breath is a sign that my heart is broken into pieces inside.