Give Me Hope
Ask Mr. Ustad
This is the story of Ku II
That's what I'm thinking about right now because I'm so happy that my mom has come home, but that fact says, another my mom says.
mother -
Forgive your mother this is love, which can not always be there for you, who can not educate you like other children, who can not read the story when you want to sleep, who can not teach you like other children, who can not read the story when you want to sleep, who can not feed the senses when you want to go to school.
yes mother also know inda angry with mother, mother is also forced to have this, because if not this way, mother can not teach inda, mother, I hope you understand the struggle of the mother (while embracing and hugging my small body tightly).
But what turned out to be my hope shattered like a dusty delusion, long enough I nurtured a sense that was only a faint imagination of this.
But I could only smile without protesting against my mother's verdict, about her if I protested, I was afraid the same incident as my grandfather used to happen again.
I'd love to hold her ladder when she leaves for work again, I want to kiss her hand while I'm leaving school, I want to hold her, I want to hold her back, I want to hug my mother tightly so as not to leave me again, I want so much to protest against god.
Why should I be different from the other kids, why should the family be destroyed like this?why god? please answer my question?(while yelling in my heart) I could only cry while enduring the pain I was going through.
Even before nightfall, and the Adhan began to reverberate, I was very excited to go to the mosque at night, because many of my friends also teach in this mosque.
Because in the study I could ask my teacher a lot of questions to. Mr. Ustad Ali, after finishing the maghrib prayer I and my friends immediately began his studies, and mr. ustad ali also said.
- Pak usatad Ali
We begin our studies with Basmalah.
"I also began to follow the instructions of the teacher of Mr. Ustad Ali, and after finishing his studies I also asked mr. ustad ai".
-*I
Sir, would I ask?.
- Pak ustad ali
can you ask what?.
- Me
Sir why am I from another child*?(mr. Ustad ali was stunned by my strange question).
- Mr. Ustad Ali
it means how you do not understand what you mean.
- Me
why was I born when my family was destroyed? do I not deserve to be happy? did God hate me when I was born? I'm confused sir ustad I also want to get happiness like my age, I'm sad sir ustad.
I wanted to keep my mom away when she wanted to go to work, but I couldn't just, because what my power was, I didn't, I'm just a small child who desperately needs the love of a father and my mother, just that I want sir ustad no more (as if I cry asking that).
"sir can only sniff and say."
- Pak Ustad Ali
Yes sir ustad also know what you feel this, but inda must remember, it is beautiful still have a grandmother and grandpa inda who willing to slam bones in order to be able to eat a mouthful of rice, it is beautiful still have a grandmother and grandpa who is willing to slam bones in order to be able to eat a mouthful of rice,
Remember inda out there there are still many small children who umuran inda who are willing to slam bones for the sake of "steam rice".So you must multiply gratitude to Allah SWT is the god of all of us.
From the words of Mr. ustad ali I understand one thing where all people who live the way to life is different - different, yes I also know, I also know, but this heart like kenaoa can never accept it, then I also say goodbye to mr. ustad ali sambik smile.
- Me
Mr. Ustad Ali I went home first, thank you very much for the answer tied to mr. ustad ali, assalamualaikum( while kissing the hand of mr. ustad ali).
- Pak Ustad Ali
wa'alaikumsallam, Yes the same inda , the spirit continues to teach him yes, if you want to ask again inda can not go directly to pak ustad, later insallah father help his way out.
- Me
yes sir ustad ali later I will ask again if there is something stuck in my mind later to meet again.
I also left pak ustad ali in fact I still have a lot of celebrations to pak ustad ali that I want to reveal.
But I was afraid that Mr. Ustad Ali was busy so I only asked once
I was at home when I opened the door and said hello.
- Me
Assalamualaikum, I'm home, I,
granny
Wa'alaikumsalam, uh have gone home grandmother's favorite granddaughter, nih grandma make special fried rice made by grandma, make dear inda (smiling sweet)
"Why did my anger, envy, envy, anger disappear" everything disappeared in an instant, I cried to my grandmother
-grandmother
Loh ko nangis, inda why ? there was evil in the study earlier (sambik face worried)
- Me
No ko nek, not about that, inda just want to say thank you, because grandma and grandpa are the best for inda, always there for inda, always there for inda,sorry Inda who is not always obedient to grandmother and grandfather, who likes to be angry because of her mother and father, inda hope grandma will forgive me (While hugging the grandmother tightly)
Answer grandma
-grandmother
Yes grandma and grandpa as sorry inda ko, whatever you do grandma always forgive inda, want to be transformed into a little devil, grandma and grandpa will always forgive inda, inda, because inda grandma and grandpa could be the spirit of looking for money again.
Because when you see the taste of cape and tired immediately disappear, so you grow well yes, do not be a bad child, do not be, the problem is that when grandma and grandpa later there are not only do'a children - grandparents and grandchildren who can survive grandma and grandpa later in the barzah realm.
answer me
- Me
Iya nek inda promised to be a good grandson and be a granddaughter of the pride of grandmother and grandfather
After the incident I also realized and will decide someday, After I have succeeded later, I want to raise the hajj my mother, grandmother, and grandfather later , and can take pictures together in Mecca later, I will pursue the dream even though how difficult the road I have to face
